Addictive Personalities

It was a long time coming. I finally saw what I was doing to hold myself back and not hold myself accountable for the pain I felt.

In this episode, I sit down again with one of my closest friends—this time to talk about what came next. Getting clean. The early years. The parts no one really prepares you for. This is Part Two: This is the good part; the shift out of chaos and into recovery. We talk about what it actually looked like in those first few years, how our paths didn’t line up, and how those differences shaped who we...

First solo video - reintroducing myself and explaining why Addictive Personalities exists.

My first interview. My first time on video. In this episode, I sit down with one of my closest friends to share the raw, unfiltered parts of our addiction journeys. From meeting at 15 to navigating chaos, staying connected through our 20s, and going separate ways in our 30s—this is our story. This is Part One: the context and the backstory. Next, we’ll dive into life as moms, women in recovery, an...

This episode exists because faith stepped in before doubt took over. In a moment of dysregulation, discouragement, and deep self‑questioning, the urge to throw this podcast away felt real. What stopped it wasn’t motivation, momentum, or certainty—but faith in God. This episode reflects on recovery beyond staying clean, the role of nervous system regulation, and the surrender required when control...

This is a clarification episode. I’m not blaming the nervous system. I’m not minimizing accountability. And I’m not claiming to have answers. What I am doing is learning—about dysregulation, about addiction swapping, and about why being clean doesn’t always bring peace. This podcast is part of my healing process, and this episode explains where I’m coming from. It’s about understanding the damage,...

This episode dives into the reason why the decision to stop is so hard, even when we know better. Our nervous system fights us every step of the way. It doesn't mean we're diseased. It doesn't mean we can't stop. It just makes it hard because our brain is literally working against us. It shows up in different ways for each substance. The common struggle is our chemistry. If we can...

Boundary setting is meant to be scary, uncomfortable, and challenging. Anything worth doing in healing will not feel natural, AT FIRST. Just know that with growth, comes a little bit of pain... but in the best way. This episode concludes the series on boundaries and what they mean to us post recovery. It's the first step towards really, truly getting to know ourselves and proving that we have...

In recovery, we’re often told to “set boundaries,” but no one talks about where to start—or why starting too big can actually set us up to fail. In this episode, we break down why rebuilding self‑worth after addiction has to begin with small, low‑stakes wins . Not dramatic confrontations. Not power moves. But simple, doable choices that prove to your nervous system that you can protect yourself an...

We love preaching boundaries... until somebody sets one against us. In Part 3 of the boundaries series, we unpack the uncomfortable truth about ourselves. Sometimes we weaponize boundaries while ignoring everyone else's. From addiction and trauma to relationships and family dynamics, this episode explores why respect has to go both ways if healing is actually the goal. Because boundaries are not a...

This is the next part in the Boundary series: In this episode I point out that boundaries are not ultimatums, threats, or passive‑aggressive vibes. They’re not punishments, people‑management tools, or ‘if you loved me you’d know’ energy. Boundaries don’t control others—they clarify you . They’re not selfish, dramatic, or mean. They’re grown‑up guardrails that protect your peace, your nervous syste...

The subject of boundaries is so big, I had to split it into several parts. In Part 1, I break down what a boundary actually is, because most of us think we have them, but we don't. I talk about how healing forces you to start recognizing what you've been allowing, tolerating, and sometimes even inviting. And yeah... we love to expect respect from people while crossing their boundaries at t...

"Triggered" isn't cute. It's not a vibe. And it's definitely not something we take lightly or hide behind. And I don't think associating everything that upsets people as a trigger. It's not helping anyone. In this episode, I'm getting honest about what triggers actually are, how they show up, and why turning them into a trend can keep us stuck instead of healing. I'll share my perspective on accou...

Is addiction really a disease? In this episode, I break down the disease model of addiction and explain why it hurts us. From my own experience with substance use and mental health, I talk about the role of choice, trauma, and accountability. Sometimes labeling addiction as a lifelong disease can keep people stuck in unhealthy patterns of behavior. This isn't about judgment, it's about questioning...

In this episode I make a confession And a HUGE distinction that we don’t talk about between illicit drug addiction and prescription drugs. Let’s just keep it super real, if we’re using prescription meds to manage our mental health — are we still addicted? Do we just have a new dealer? The trade off is worth it in the beginning, but my meds aren’t helping me heal.

In this episode I dive into my first "Hot Take" but also talk about how our thinking can evolve. I challenge the efficacy of the AA/NA program and why it isn't for everyone...and why that's ok. I also acknowledge that it does have a lot of value. But also, it's great for free talk therapy! It works if you work it, but you have to want it.

We talk about addiction like it's one thing. It's not. In this episode, I break down how different addictions actually present themselves. From opioids to stimulants to alcohol, gambling, and even behaviors people don't talk about enough. Because a heroin addiction does not look like a meth addiction. And neither of those look like gambling or drinking. They affect your brain different...

This episode isn't really about addiction. It's about what's still there after. I talk about mental health, dual diagnosis, and how stopping the behavior doesn't fix what lives underneath. Anxiety, depression, trauma...doesn't just disappear. I also share my experience with medication, withdrawal and what I have to still manage today. If you feel like you should be fine, but yo...

If you’ve ever gone down a mental spiral and felt like you couldn’t get out of it, this episode is for you. I talk about anxiety, negative self-talk, and what it actually takes to pull yourself out when you don’t rely on anyone else to do it for you. Your thoughts are not always the truth. Let’s reset. Pin this one to your favorites for days your brain tries to keep you down.

What people think addicts should like like isn't reality. In this episode, I share a personal story about how quickly people jump to conclusions... and how hard it can be to not be defined by your past. Because addiction doesn't have one look... and healing doesn't either. I touch on what identity means after addiction, what assumptions people make, and what it actually looks like to m...

We were shaped by what we saw… and what we didn’t. This episode breaks down how our parents influenced us, the patterns we carry into adulthood, and what it looks like to parent while trying to do it differently. No blame. Just awareness. Because cycles don’t break on accident… they break on purpose.

In this episode, I talk about what life has actually been like after getting clean. I share what it feels like when everything looks better on the outside, but internally you still feel behind. The pressure to figure life out, build something stable, and learn how to function after years of just surviving. I also open up about mental health after addiction, including anxiety, overthinking, and lea...

In this episode, I share the second part of my story and what happened after I found my purpose. I talk about what it looked like to try to change while still being in the same environments, including navigating CPS involvement, going through treatment, and experiencing relapse along the way. I also share what led me to make a different decision and what it actually looked like to stop. For a long...

In this episode, I share the first part of my story and what life looked like before I found my purpose. I talk about how my addiction started at a young age, the environments I was in, and how those patterns developed over time. This includes early exposure, becoming fully addicted, and living a double life while still trying to function. For a long time, I didn’t feel like I had a reason to chan...

In this first episode, I introduce the idea behind Addictive Personalities and challenge the way we typically think about addiction. I talk about how addiction goes beyond substances and is often rooted in patterns, coping, and trauma. I also share my perspective from lived experience and what you can expect from future episodes as we explore addiction, recovery, and healing in a more honest way.