A Portal to Integrative Healing & Thriving

Have you ever looked into your own eyes for so long things started to get a little weird? Ever looked deeply into someone else's eyes and feel like you saw through to the core of them? The eyes are called the windows to the soul for a reason. We can journey deep within ourselves and others through our eyes. On this journey we will meet walls, all kinds of them, ones that need patience, ones th...

Bonding Patterns are the unconscious relationships that our selves get into with other peoples selves. These are natural, and are based on our primary bonding patterns, of infant to caregiver. There are negative and positive bonding patterns, both require emerging awareness to step out of, and into a space of conscious choice. This emerging awareness is called an aware ego process, which is how we...

Dedicated to Highly Sensitive People  Being a Highly Sensitive Person, or a person with Sensory Processing Sensitivity is a biologically innate trait that approximately 15-20% of the population has. Understanding the differences in perception and processing is crucial to human beings creating integrated systems of schooling, parenting, economics, relationships, social structures, and more.    Topi...

After being socialized to turn against ourselves and feelings, we come to a place where we are ready to go towards our emotions. But then, something is missing, we either feel ourselves spinning over and over again in the feeling itself and we don't feel like anything is happening, or we fear the emotion itself still. This is because we didn't learn the step that our feeling or emotion to inform u...

Developing The Central I, or Self with a capitol S, Aware Ego, or Observer Self is a necessary component to developing as a healthy human. This larger observer self is the container that allows for integration between internal polarities. Those polarities are birthed as a coping mechanism for social survival. Developing The Central I is a lifelong practice and means you must be willing to include...

Sorry the audio keeps cutting out and skipping or not syncing up, it was LIVE in the hills of driving. Most of the information got out though, and I may do a cleaner version later. This is about the Polyvagal Theory and how that relates to becoming more self aware or integrating the 360 mirror happening all around us, as us. When our social engagement Ventral Vagal is underdeveloped or our Dorsal...

This video covers tips on what to do in relationship triggers in the moment, as well as how you can individually work towards healing, managing triggers and developing a regulated nervous system. I also discuss black and white thinking and how to move towards gray, integrated or AND consciousness type thinking and being.   Recorded: February 13th, 2020 Rowan Garlow is a private practice trauma rec...

This video discusses "complex post traumatic stress disorder" (CPTSD) and "post traumatic stress disorder" (PTSD); the debate around the differences or similarities between the two. IE: What is mainstream saying about all of this, and what is my take on the whole thing. (I could write a whole explanation in detail about what is in this video, but that would take too long, becau...

There are a few potential things happening when the pattern of projection shows up for us. One is that we may need to look at patterns of scapegoating/being scapegoated in our early childhood experiences. If we had this experience, we may run into people in adulthood who continuously cannot own their shame. This is a mirror of our original wound. But there is more, if these are the kinds of relati...

This video explains why we need to start expanding our definition of what we consider trauma. As a collective, we also need to stop minimizing trauma we would consider from the perspective of an adult to be "trivial". I also go into the fact that we need to stop pathologizing ourselves and others with "lifelong incurable but treatable by medication type mental illnesses" withou...

Codependency is not about dependency! Veronika Biller and I talk about the common misunderstandings about codependency, what it really is, where it stems from, and how we can begin to have healthy relationships. Codependency is a style of relating the same way that narcissism is a style of having relationships, and these styles are imprinted early on in childhood Recorded: November 20th, 2019

This is designed to explain why people get stuck in trauma patterns and can't seem to get out. The addiction to our suffering and how to move through trauma, integrate it and move forward in our lives. I discuss how to move through these stuck points. I also reveal some of the psychology and biology behind why we are stuck here so often to begin with.   Question to ask yourself.... In what way...

This video covers topics like how to consciously alter physiological trigger responses in the body to trauma, suppressed memory, false memory, PTSD, how memory is stored in the brain, explicit and implicit memory ie: conscious vs. unconscious memory and much more. Recorded: August 24th, 2019 Rowan Garlow is a private practice trauma recovery practitioner. She sees clients 1:1 and in group settings...

This is a comprehensive guide to understanding Parts Work. I discuss its origins, goals, give a vocabulary for the different language used within this field, as well as outline tools, common mistakes and offer helpful tips when doing parts work.  Subtitles Available for Live Demo  For the Portion of a  Live Parts Work Session are available by clicking the CC button. We decided to work with the par...

Trauma causes us to dissociate from our bodies. In this video I explain what is actually causing sickness and ailments, and how to rebuild a relationship with your body. After all, it is the only aspect of you that can't abandon you and never will until the day you die. Your body is only ever doing what it thinks it has to do to survive, socially, emotionally and physically, it will never act...

This is a video to give you a better understanding of what trauma and healing are. Every physical human walking this planet today has experienced trauma and has PTSD to a certain degree. Trauma creates fragmentation within the being and is often the byproduct of socialization. The process of rejection and disowning aspects of self that are deemed unacceptable. Trauma is on a spectrum, and it may s...

This video is for the anxious-avoidant or avoidant person who is currently fearing intimacy or closeness or is having issues with closeness, yet desires intimate relationships. This is designed to help guide you through an understanding as to why this style of coping in relationships formed and what you can do to use your understanding to launch you forward into connection. Recorded: February 4th,...

11:45 and 12:35 were slip ups, I meant to say anxious needs the experience of being contained and having that super close closeness and misspoke again later. If you followed the first part you would of caught that, but it makes it confusing so I do apologize.    This video was created for you to be able to identify your own attachment style, understand how it is that you developed this style, as a...