Personal Code Of Conduct

So basically... I am going back to structured work and I have a week's notice before forced close proximity with another human, Dayo can do this. Planning to bolder and prepare more emotionless arguments so I don't get frustrated and upset with stubborn humans. So many things I wanted to talk about but couldn't cause brain was fried.

Do this quarter is about to end, some failures, some shame, new plans for onwards starting with last full week of the quarter. It ends hopeful.

The title says it all still dealing with an irresponsible promise I made three weeks ago

I should buy raincoats, another set of life restructuring plans, to back track and plan to work properly and a goal

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I am alive,self overworked and being hyper

I should make up for it myposting5 five episodea of a self insert novel

My usual Debby downer self scared about human interaction, and banking her happiness on external events. And bring generally pessimistic at the end I got excited for next week another anti love podcast a full year after the last one

Audio blog style, just whining

sorry for the shit two weeks back to regular slightly above avergae programming, in this epsiode dayo react to josephs campbells take on the purpose of existence and the point of being one with nature, its my usual whiny doubt self but it will be fun

nonsense and another failure to keep promises to myself

my laziness turned out to be very hard work and I decided to die on that hill, now two hours of script writing on resulting in 11 minutes of content ugggh.... why are text to speech voices so much father , and any slower it sounds stupid

you know how the title sounds full of faith, well the content is actually about being resolute and standing firm about my decision to lack faith (or just being being straight up being incapable of finding it reasonable) even when the ones you love are in danger and your apathy and acceptance of the rule of insignificance isn't holding water because you are selfish human who cannot deal with powerl...

I should have done a lesson learned podcast, what did i learn how am I different etc. but that didn't cross my mind so you have this hopeful yet sad human trying to stay on track about stat maxxing and giving course development line ohh... season 2 starts next week, for real i genuinely believe i am in a new period of my life....and can't believe this is the mediocre podcast that ends such an amaz...

so its Dayo, being energetic, about developing a course, midway she does some googling gets discouraged breaks into a philosophical rant, finds new motivation, ends on a high note...plus plays a sad song she is currently in love with at the end....its from act ii i arcane, a show she has never watched but watched so many review videos and clips about it.

In this episode Dayo explores the possibility of using project management principles to achieve the goals she has always been shouting about .... on to the year of routine

So it is what is, more like an incoherent breathy summarization of my existence in the last year

So I spend it whining about the heat, making plans be hopeful, talking about how season two is on the horizon. Planning a routine, terrified of missing opputunities and generally existing

I decided to drag somebody to find out how they deal with shit so I get inspired and the answer is well, "its not that deep", i am going to try to be more honest and develop a written code of conduct 

so timi's back, we talk about workplace disappointment, finding purpose and dropping off into terrrible thing that have been said to you thtat follow you into adulthood..... i am probably going to delete this when i get rich

me being a sad sap, talking about my future and being with human, I also accindentaly sprayed insecticide into my eye while listening to the audio... so i type it with a face that feels like it burns and a red eye

so I had nothing to talk about

Consists of talking about the most recent content being consumed, self diagnosis on the source of her apathy towards movies and a little TMI vlog ... Also a dramatic lauv song , she is song she has put here before

yes yes, this has turned into a reaction podcast but i wanted to talk about, tried to get better at editing so i could give actual input after the video played

a. I really had nothing planned. b. this entire thing is inspired by an irritating slowburn fanfiction, I forced myself to read because, I had to see the fucking ending even though I hated every second of it. c. it had me question what I am truly afraid of in human interaction. and properly state what I am afraid of about the future. at least parts of it.