Personal Code Of Conduct

Just a filler episode of mindless rants

Maybe I will give more detailed descriptions and and listen to myself talk in future episodes to see how I was feeling, how I have changed and also rename my eoisodes

I 25 yr old blues

So it's a mediocre blog about my lack of ambition and random tiny snippets as my life as an everything data worker( data analysis, bi developer, data engineer( basically ssms and ssis jockey lol) in a pool of whining

Dayo tries to pad her personal code of conduct, so on today's exercise about stating the obvious, she talks about living one day at a time and distracting her self with a pyramid scheme of goals.

It's a long one, I haven't had a long episode in a while, watch me talk about misery in a jovial tone

Ate for the first half then got ginger to plan ahead

So I read a blog and and a half and go on weird tangents

I wanted to laugh at my "insight" on Saturday but I realized I really dead have something revealed to me, and the words I constantly repeat to my feel a tiny bit more real to me.

Dayo rambles about nothing and spins in circles and gets no where

Just know the title is barely related to the content

It's a Sunday chit chat, I whine, I forgot about the podcast, I get side tracked in all sorts of ways, lament my procrastinaton etc.

As usual the weekend flew too fast, so dayo is planning how to put on a brave face for the coming week

Me snacking and talking that's just it

Dayo just being a sad scared child lol

Looking back at my test pilot episode for the novel, looking at flaws realising I cannot wing it and talk about my usual stressors it's going to get its own podcast

This is genuinely terrible, too much pausing and poor preparation but next week will be better. We should do better soon world building lol

I started with my usual clueless and generally whining and usual apprehension for the week but I went into a tangent about a xianxia inspired story and I kind of tricked myself into promising a pilot episode next week. It goes into Yoruba mythos and Ori and off point tangential thoughts. And ignorant statements and finally ends with a Yoruba trap song that has been drilling itself into my brain th...

Dayo plans out new week resolution, praises her self for things as usual the next best time to start things is now

Late as usual, still on mobile, still dead tired but we will structure our souls

Bit of a philosophical episode and understanding why unimportance terrifies me and the same time thing less important than my already unimportant life fill with fear

I am devastated, the one time I was excited to splurge on myself as adult with actual earning,my recklessness and impatience got me cheated big time. I am get a fade this evening as a last reckless behavior. I want swear and wish evil on them but it won't happen, but I did have a realization on why I am anxious about failing but I am still incredibly reckless

Worse audio quality than the more recent (they've all been bad) but it's not inaudible though

This took forever to upload, lol .. I will be more responsible and follow through with my plans

So I started this episode almost derailing into my usual sad girl vibes but I was able to catch my self and talk about my style evolution my current style but sad girl kept on popping up here and there.