Inside Out

On June 15th I celebrated 90 days sober! I talk about all of this, what lead to this decision and discuss what it’s like to be bipolar…and how coming off living in a manic state for over a year is affecting me. 💜✨🦋 It’s amazing being medicated how I can look back on obsessive thoughts the last year and see them for what they were; paranoia cause by an imbalance in my brain triggered by an EMDR...

Will I lose my dignity? Amazing grace; Homeless Heartbreak. In today’s episode LJ catches us up on her life. She spent 9 days inpatient at St Luke’s after being captured and raped for a week; then was unable to sleep for another week, causing delusions. After her time inpatient she was given the diagnosis of bipolar disorder and some amazing medicine. She is currently experiencing homelessness aga...

“It’s been a while since I felt truly present in my own life, in my own power, in my womanhood. But I’m here now.” Britney Spears, The Woman in Me In today’s episode LJ opens up about being sex- trafficked in junior high as some memories resurfaced. She bravely shares her story and her beautiful mind with the world and also describes what it’s like to be a woman with high-functioning autism. Cease...

In today’s episode LJ talks about her Easter, cleaning out her stepmom’s home, seeing the Vincent Orsolini Band at The Ship, and honors Trans Visibility Day. She asks Mayor Quinton Lucas to do better and work to heal the hurt parts of himself…quoting an article from The Call entitled “Mayor Lucas and City Council’s Complicity In Perpetuating Systemic Racism”. Our political opinions should be fluid...

We are all stronger when we stand together and fight for what is right. Why are Americans voting for Donald Trump who allows hurt parts of himself to rule his ego? In today’s episode LJ stands with Presidential candidate Marianne Williamson as she unsuspends her campaign and is running once again. Hope is always in us even when everything seems so bleak. Wars and rumors of war abound. People conti...

Trigger warnings: racism, xenophobia, sexism, abuse…proceed w caution** Venmo: @insideoutpodcast CashApp: $lavenderjones44 — LJ talks about important issues such as: Antiracism, healing from autoimmmune disease (MS), and the impossible pain of spending Father’s Day alone. She opens with some fun facts about birds, and connects with her empathetic nature. And discusses the (really cool) Authagraph,...

**Trigger warnings; PTSD, Veteran abuse war, violence, prison violence…proceed with care** Venmo: @insideoutpodcast CashApp: $lavenderjones44 LJ opens with a “banger” of a song. She (quietly) listens and sings with one her icons…Tracy Chapman (Fast Car). She reconnects with her biological dad (Jim); RIP. “I had a feeling I could be someone. And look at me now daddy!” LJ courageously discusses what...

**Trigger warnings; abuse, neglect, mass shootings…proceed with care** LJ has an outpouring of empathy in today’s episode. She discusses more childhood abuse from her step - “dad” and (adoptive) mom. Venmo: @insideoutpodcast CashApp: $lavenderjones44 She talks about how she was deeply loved by her momma. She also reminisces about playing the piano at age 3, laughing together about being reincarnat...

Lavender Jones comes to the round table in today’s episode. She expands her heart and is raw, bold, and florescent. She shares about her (adoptive) dad’s death - Jerry Dean [rip]. She also laments while processing her stepmama’s time in hospice. Venmo: @insideoutpodcast CashApp: $lavenderjones44 As LJ is working with her lawyer (Castle Law, KCMO), she deep-dives into how you need to have privilege...

*Trigger Warning*; talk of suicide, abuse, sex trafficking… Please proceed with caution when listening. (I mean it.) 988lifeline.org (call 988) - Suicide & Crisis Lifeline. Venmo: @insideoutpodcast CashApp: $lavenderjones44 This one is big one, ya’ll. LJ opens completely up about some of the abuse in her life. Sexual grooming in Recovery Communities, sexual grooming in her church growing up, and s...

*Trigger Warnings*; violence, shootings, hate…In today’s episode, LJ revisits tragedy. Not only tragedy on a universal level, but localized to her “backyard”. She talks in depth about the shootings on March 16, 2021 at two local spas in Atlanta. LJ also recounts the moment she knew she was home in her KC Longfellow neighborhood; when she stepped foot into Cafe Ca Phe. Owner, Jackie Nguyen is a 1st...

*Trigger Warnings*; violence, shootings, hate…In today’s episode, LJ talks about justice, restoring balance and opening an important conversation. Venmo: @insideoutpodcast CashApp: $lavenderjones44 At the center of this episode is home, love, and inclusivity. LJ is no stranger to hard, dedicated, and passionate work. At times working 4 jobs to make ends meet, she opens up about filing bankruptcy a...

In today’s maiden episode, LJ introduces themself and discusses what brought them to create this passion project of a podcast. She was recently fired from corporate America after pressure had built up and her symptoms of Complex PTSD worsened into disassociation. While one of the best things that happened to her, it was a terrifying experience. She dives into her current spiritual awakening, as th...