beyond the sky & down to earth

you know what, I won't bypass the suffering of the majority of the planet. I won't yell that it's beautiful.

turns out going it alone isn't actually an option. for anyone. not even me. gahhhhhh.

Finished with the noisy brain. Choosing a quiet mind.

I share a recent realisation that not only am I not my thoughts or my feelings... but I'm also not my body. I share how I've over- identified with the belief that my body is who I am. This is leading me to a deeper form of embodiment that is very different from how I've previously experienced 'being in my body'.

I look at my natural tendency to fill the void & share what I've been experiencing from leaning into feeling the void instead...

a contemplation of the absurd and what we consider the 'sane'

in this episode, I share a reflection I wrote based on one of David Whyte's stunning essays from his book 'Consolations II', based on the word 'shame'.

a (not-so) private supervision session with myself regarding where I'm at & we're I'm going...

mulling over what can't seem to be trumped or tricked by trying...

Julia Cameron. Thank you.

I made this episode a week ago, but I didn't publish it because I felt it was too rusty. However, I couldn't say it anymore succinctly than I already did. So, you get to hear it. Here she is. Nice enough to explode. Or at least break a plate. Then break down. Then realise: I don't have to be nice. Risk being disliked.

Hugging trees, turning time into space, Thurman's sound of the genuine.

Feeling feelings is the human equivalent to what 'shaking it off' is to animals. So, enjoy ten minutes of music followed by ten minutes of talking. Let's pretend I planned it that way.

This episode is basically me having a great time. Running from one thing to the next. Just running. And smiling. Pretty nice.  Also I said Facebook, but I meant Instagram...

Am I subconsciously competing and comparing with everyone I'm in close contact with? I challenge myself to do 'life' for fun, instead of trying to replicate an authentic version of myself by comparing and competing with someone else.

Eckhart Tolle, poetry, and life after death...

I consider what it would be to be the one who loved my flaws, and the potential this might contain.

What if the pursuit of our dreams wasn't a survival technique?

In this episode, I explore what I'd say to myself if I went into a church today and saw myself there.

As a 28 year old, I feel that my generation stands with a foot in each world of the generations on either side of me. I consider what the role of my own generation might be regarding the evolution of a new world drawn out of the beauty of each of these generations.

In this episode, I continue to explore my experience of quitting routine and my recent realisation that my obsession with rituals are a bandaid to underlying anxieties.

I talk about my relationship with routine, the reasons I stay & my recent decision to quit my morning routine (despite finding nothing online that supports this decision). I mull over my seeming addiction to forming habits & consider how to differentiate between OCD and intuition.

I talk about a realisation that I'm either living out of fear-based ego values, or out of essential, core values. I speak to the opportunity that this choice offers, the capacity to live either homesick or in alignment with who I am, at home in myself, in reality. You're welcome to take the second half of the recording to consider how these values emanate in your own life. The music will p...

In this episode I share my sense of being in a womb, a cocoon, a space of surrender, rest and re-birth. I talk about realisation of a deeper intent: strength and groundedness. I explore all this in a poem.

Reading from Eckhart Tolle's 'A New Earth' and making a list about the things I think the world is withholding from me that I can start bringing to the world.