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april of this year (2025) i had my first experience with ayahuasca, tucked away with the trees on the edge of the colombian jungle. after his own ayahuasca journey, sam believ created lawayra retreats to make the wisdom of this sacred medicine accessible to a wider range of people. his vision, presence, and approach is truly a gift to this world. alongside him in this conversation is the at the ti...

felt inspired to share, so i did. this episode i talk about where i’m at creatively, my challenges showing up authentically, and my fears around doing so. i share what i’ve been doing to embody leo season, how it’s empowering me, and how my creative endeavors are affected. lastly, i geek out about debra silverman’s approach to astrology, and what i learned about my personal progressed moon. mentio...

after an 11 month hiatus, the pod is back! i genuinely took the mic in my hand (instead of leaving in its stand), took three deep breaths, closed my eyes, and spoke freely. and damn, it felt ~right~ i didn’t have a plan going into this episode, i only wanted to share my truth about why i haven’t released episodes, what the podcast is to me, and how i plan to courageously move forward with it. i sh...

*TAY FAV* in this episode, robyn and i dive deep into what it's like to exist as an introspective human. how our experiences and inner thoughts influence how we go through the world, what we believe, and how we behave. i love talking with others who love to look inward, feel deeply, accept imperfections, and work consistently at growing and bettering ourselves, and this conversation checks al...

TW: depression i know it's been a while since i released an episode. i've had a lot of life going on and with that, questions, discoveries, and challenges. join me in this episode as i share a bit about what that's looked like for me, how it's affecting me, and where i hope to go from here. thank you for listening to this episode<3 find me: - website: *coming soon* - patreon...

in this episode i talk about circumstances that impacted me in my formative years, and the effects that compounded and continued to play out from there. i reflect on some strengths and obstacles i view as part of my journey, and discuss how my attachment style is ever present in my life, and personality. speaking honestly about some of my talents and different ways to use them feels vulnerable, an...

this kicks off the goods, the juice, the intricacies of the soul within the human body of taylor rey kilpatrick. when we are young, before the environment in which we grow up grasps us in its hands and pushes us to be conditioned to its will, we are pure. we are us, in our most authentic state. and i want to reconnect to that state of existence, to the truer version of myself that existed there. h...

a bit of a preview of what i'll be sharing, why, and some things to keep in mind while listening to the episodes that follow, my story, conversations you have with others, and thinking back on your own life. i want to know better who i am, and the best way for me to do that is to be honest about who i've been. i ask you to keep an open mind, to hold space for multiple and conflicting vie...

to kick off s3 of the pod, i'm sharing with you  my origin story -- an exploration of me, my journey of life, lessons i've learned, and what's stuck with me most from my experiences. being seen, understood, and loved is a core need in my soul. i can't be those things if i don't share myself. this is my invitation to you into my story. welcome (: find me: - website: *coming...

today i sit down with lisa reams for an honest, natural, self-empowering conversation. she -- like i do -- loves diving deep on why we are the way we are - what drives our behaviors? what about us is needing to be looked at, what is the core emotion we're working around? to look even further at these big questions, lisa has found support and magic with the enneagram. in this episode she gives...

episode 23 (solo) this is it, the episode i've been waiting for. it came to me, i didn't grasp for it. i felt like i wanted to hop on and share what's on my mind and in my soul with the world, so i did. i talk like i talk to my best friends, my confidants.  i share all about my day, where my heart's been, what excites me. i geek out over my current obsessions and ways i'm...

today's solo episode feels a bit like a journal entry. i open up, and share my thoughts on the podcast, struggles with trusting myself, setting goals, and the year ahead. i reveal my own 2024 ins and outs, touch on my intentions, and claim my word of the year! and, i share some magical guidance about the year from numerology, and western and chinese astrology.  i hope you're looking forw...

episode 21 today is a solo episode, where i share my reflections and introspection about 2023 — on and off the pod. i open up with my honest thoughts on where i am and how i showed up for myself. i sit in gratitude and also face hard truths. not surprisingly, authenticity is a recurring theme in much of my ruminations. i evaluate what that looks like in real life and where i’m blocking my own path...

today i feel reminiscent as i sit down with my twelfth grade english teacher! michael (mr. goldfine) created an incredible environment in his classroom, fostering safety & inclusion, encouraging authenticity and the courage to create honestly and from the depths of our souls. his english class was unlike any i'd had before or have had since. his own unique journey helped lead him to a pos...

today i sit down with close friends, eric and chris. this episode is truly just a chitchat between friends. the conversation is always lively, interesting, and full of laughs when we all get together, and i'm so grateful to have people to nerd out with about anything that comes to heart. in this conversation, we focus on all things otherworldy: aliens, sasquatch, ghosts, and other realms! and...

today i sit down with fellow podcaster and deep soul, beau deseo. hearing about his journey from a life of instability to thriving is beautiful and insightful. i love the way he views every moment and obstacle as a part of his story, learning and growing and reaching for his dreams. he truly is a soul i'm so inspired by and grateful to be able to know.  * TW: death *spoilers: moonknight (MCU)...

today i sit down with personal stylist, fellow human design nerd, and beautiful soul, alex fownes. she has truly taken her passion and wisdom and turned it into a thriving business by helping others harness their self love through expression and clothing. i’m so inspired by the way she believes in herself and utilizes her understanding of her human design to lean into her strengths and take the ri...

today's episode is a solo episode special to me because i talk all about my own human design. human design has been such a powerful tool for me to discover, accept, love, and appreciate powerful aspects of myself. i would frequently shame parts of me i thought were weird or selfish or unconventional. but human design has empowered me to embrace these parts, and treat them as they truly are --...

today i sit down as a fan girl with youtube vanlifer, lost jenn of lost renegades! this was a surreal moment, because i always watch and admire jenn from afar, which can give the impression that because she shows her life on video for all to see, she evades the struggles and tribulations of those of us not in the spotlight. it was so wonderful to be able to sit down and connect with her on every d...

today i sit down with a friend from high school who i haven’t spoken to in probably a decade! it’s crazy how paths can cross and split and come together again, just to learn your paths were perhaps not all that separate after all. peter has had quite a journey of self discovery, quitting his cushy tech job for a life of exploration of purpose and fulfillment. it was such a pleasure to reconnect wi...

today i sit down and catch up with an old friend from college, alex weber! this conversation was truly so comforting and rewarding. we had no agenda but ended up just chatting about all things life has to offer. alex has such a beautiful outlook on life and reminded me to love and accept all that i am and to embrace this journey as it unfolds. we talk about: • community and finding good souls • we...

join me today in a solo episode as i talk about 3 important pillars in my life, all rooted in love. i discuss openness, acceptance, and forgiveness, my experience with each and how they come together in love and act as the foundation for all things i do. this episode was really enjoyable for me - i speak candidly and from the heart, without my usual bullet list or script. it's long, i ramble,...

new season, new moon, same me! more me. i feel on a whole new level. i'm stoked for where this about to go. i'm stoked for embracing the messiness within me. join me today in this ritual as i share what i release & what i call in for this next stage. i talk how important it is to me to accept and exhibit all facets of myself, empowering me to grow and learn. and of course i talk abou...

join me today in this solo episode, as i wrap up this season of the podcast. i express gratitude for the people and lessons i've learned, comment on the confidence i've gained in the process, and provide an update on my personal life. unsurprisingly, the ending of this chapter of the pod coincides with the ending of a chapter in my life. here's to my next seasons: unknown, yet infin...

tlwr; this podcast is me embracing yin and yang and my authentic self in its entirety. it’s me sending good vibes to you wherever are. i hope my sharing of my own journey will inspire you in some way. if it doesn’t, i hope you have or find something that does. i’m curious, compassionate, and vulnerable. i crave an exchange of energy, a connection of souls. we are all uniquely different and yet, on...