An All Night Place - Secular AA

But she found her people. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Callie's childhood was anything but ordinary. By seven, she had experienced alcoholism, abuse and foster care. A car accident involving her mother left her with a broken femur and confined to a full-body cast for three to four months. More instability followed, with multiple foster homes...

Four years into sobriety, Ash is discovering something that once seemed almost impossible: the ability to trust Ash. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. In this candid and often funny speaker share, Ash reflects on growing up in a family affected by addiction, becoming the fixer who tried to hold everyone together, and learning to stop avoiding their own...

Jenny’s life began with 53 operations before the age of 13. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Born disabled, subjected to abuse, and repeatedly told what she would never be able to do, she learned early what it meant to survive. Then came alcohol, introduced long before she was old enough to understand the consequences. By her teens, drinking and other s...

She was drinking a handle of Jack Daniel’s a night. Her breathalyser read .45. Rehab called her “Dead Girl Walking.” If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Willow’s story begins with a chaotic childhood, alcohol and drugs at an astonishingly young age, and an abusive relationship that left scars she spent years trying to outrun. Outwardly successful, she was pr...

A little boy hid in a broken-down truck, covered in blood. Nobody came looking. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Leo learned early that the world wasn't safe, that he was on his own, and that alcohol could make the pain disappear. By eight, he was drinking. By adulthood, years of unresolved childhood trauma, escalating addiction and destructive behaviou...

Rizal has been drinking and using drugs for 35 years, but he never thought he had a problem. In this raw and often hilarious share, he talks about the pride and ego that surrounded his drinking, the checklist he created for what it meant to be a good person, and the brutal realisation that he had never asked whether his boxes were the right boxes. He describes Step One as the hardest thing he has...

Why sit on a pink cloud, when you can wrap yourself in a lavender blanket?" If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Natalie’s journey to sobriety is a story of family patterns, heartbreak, denial, and the hard-won freedom of learning to live differently. Growing up with an alcoholic father and a volatile home environment, Natalie was determined never to follow...

She spent years trying to fit in. Alcohol made her feel like she finally did. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. In this episode of the AANP Podcast, Lauren talks openly about alcoholism, identity, belonging and what it took to build a life without alcohol. Adopted at birth and raised in an environment where achievement and competition mattered, Lauren learned ea...

“If all you can do today is breathe and stay sober, then that's totally okay.” If AANP speaks to you, ⁠follow the show⁠ and never miss an episode. Celebrating 18 months of sobriety, Lexi shares an extraordinarily candid journey through alcoholism, trauma, domestic violence, family struggles and the challenges of raising six children, including two with special needs. She talks about the years...

If AANP speaks to you, follow the show and never miss an episode. Ralph shares a powerful and refreshingly candid perspective on long-term sobriety, beginning with his journey into treatment in 2003 and the “gift of desperation” that gave him the willingness to try something different. His recovery story explores what it can mean to find a path through the Twelve Steps without a traditional belief...

In this one-year-sober share, Jon reflects on humility, identity, recovery and the question that has shaped his first year: what could I become? If AANP speaks to you, ⁠follow the show⁠ and never miss an episode. He talks about learning to see himself more clearly, not only through the mistakes of the past, but through the life he is building now. Recovery, for him, has become less about what he h...

What can we actually know, and what are we simply choosing to believe? If AANP speaks to you, ⁠follow the show⁠ and never miss an episode. Kael explores what happens when we stop accepting claims on faith and start asking the uncomfortable question: “What evidence do we have?” Because without evidence, how do we distinguish truth from assumption, conviction from certainty, and reality from make-be...

Andrew has been part of AANP for more than a year, attending almost every day, often twice a day. In this deeply honest share, he talks about relapse, recovery, chronic pain and what happened when sheer determination was no longer enough. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. After putting together 394 days of sobriety, Andrew found himself overwhelmed by the pain...

Dan has four years of sobriety, but he is quick to point out that four years isn't necessarily a lot of time. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. What matters, he says, is what you do with that time. Sobriety only has value if he continues to do the work, follows the Steps as outlined in the Big Book with a sponsor, and allows a higher power to guide his lif...

“I went from a bubble. Into an ocean.” If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Lauren talks about growing up in a small, highly structured world before discovering alcohol and drugs at 17, and the freedom and fearlessness they seemed to give her. What followed was years of addiction, loss and grief, including the death of her husband. Recovery brought Lauren face-to...

Recovery isn't about getting it right the first time. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Sam shares her journey through repeated relapses, learning to ask for help, and discovering that recovery meant caring for both her alcoholism and her mental health. It's a powerful reminder that AA is a programme of progress, not perfection, and that no matter how...

The sequel nobody asked for, and everybody needed. If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Abby's story is one of resilience, perseverance, and hope. In this deeply honest share, she reflects on growing up with childhood trauma, epilepsy, and later serious physical and mental health challenges, while alcoholism slowly became woven into her life. Despite academic...

What happens when the people who were supposed to want you... don't? If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Sky's story begins with childhood trauma, rejection, and a desperate search for somewhere to belong. That search led to alcohol, drugs, abusive relationships, foster care, unimaginable loss, and years of believing she was invisible. But recovery had o...

"Old skaters never die..." If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Nate started drinking at thirteen, finding in alcohol an escape from anxiety, trauma, religious rigidity and questions about who he really was. What followed were years of escalating addiction, broken relationships, DUIs, hospitalisations, terrifying withdrawal and repeated attempts to get...

"...peeling back the layers, confronting old wounds..." If AANP speaks to you, ⁠⁠⁠follow the show⁠⁠⁠ and never miss an episode. Amanda shares a powerful and deeply personal story of recovery, reflecting on a childhood shaped by a parent's gambling addiction, the loss of her mother, abusive relationships, and years spent searching for acceptance in all the wrong places. She speaks can...

From Dead Tour to Day One: Angelique's Story Angelique spent years following the Grateful Dead across America, chasing music, freedom, and a life that felt limitless. But behind the adventure was an addiction that quietly evolved from party culture into isolation, grief, and survival. In this episode, she shares a life shaped by childhood trauma, caring for two terminally ill parents, losing h...

What happens when your primary addiction isn't just alcohol, but escape itself? In this deeply honest, hilarious, and profoundly moving share, Tristen Michael ("TJ Starter the Third") explores growing up with impossible standards, learning to perform a version of yourself that everyone else could accept, and discovering that recovery isn't about becoming a better person, it's...

What if sobriety wasn't something you achieved once, but something you tended every day? In this deeply personal share, Raven takes us from a childhood marked by abandonment, through addiction, grief, abusive relationships, loss, chronic pain and repeated attempts to rebuild a life worth living. Along the way she discovers that recovery isn't about finding the perfect spell, but about tending a da...

When He Withdrew, He Drew | Malcolm's Story Long before he understood why, Malcolm learned to retreat into art. As he puts it, when he withdrew, he drew. What began as a childhood refuge would become one of the threads running through a life marked by trauma, addiction, resilience and recovery. In this episode, Malcolm traces the path from an abusive home and undiagnosed ADHD to the club scene...

From unimaginable trauma to the promise of recovery, Skye's story is one of survival, resilience, and hope. In this profoundly moving episode of the An All Night Place Podcast, Skye shares her journey through childhood abuse, addiction, loss, violence, homelessness, mental health struggles, motherhood, relapse, and recovery. Through experiences that would have overwhelmed many, she discovered...