Something's gotta give

This past year I have been mastering silence and preservation. I felt called to share what this journey has looked like for me so far. I also just missed doing this and wanted to catch up with my tribe! 

The 3 musketeer friend dynamic often looks like two people whom share the closer bond and a plus one that will never have the same bond as the two best friends in the group. The third friend will often fight for the same amount of love and affection and in the end may feel inadequate. 

Intrusive thoughts can be our worst enemies. You have to get out of your head and into your body. In other words, MOVE! It's the best thing you can do for yourself if you suffer from depression or anxiety. 

In honor of my two year sobriety anniversary, I felt called to share  an experience that kept reoccurring during my obsessive drinking phase. I have so many horror stories and I felt called to tell the worst nightmare of all to highlight how far I have come since that time in my life. We all make mistakes, what matters is the person you become after learning from them. I couldn't be more prou...

The first interview I have done on my podcast platform and what a great one. I work with Rose, a sweet young girl, and I felt compelled to hear her story after sharing with me briefly that she had to grow up quick.  We dive deep into her upbringing and how that has molded her current reality. Discussing sexual assault, promiscuity, abandonment amongst other topics. She is actively working to choos...

I dive deep into my experience sleeping at a gas station during a roadtrip across country. This was very traumatic and my inner child kept telling me to share my story. Healing can be as simple as telling and honoring a story. 

Sharing the experiences I endured as a child is a part of my healing process. What I endured during the fourth that I had repressed for years kept coming to the surface, specifically in the month of February. Expressing my truth is a way of me honoring what my inner child kept communicating to me. Not only is the story a way of sustaining a relationship with my inner child - it is a powerful confi...

The best place to meet your most authentic self is during the practice of stillness. The greatest ideas stem from listening to your inner voice, your inner child. Today's society gives praise to having motion but we neglect the power that comes from being still and all the wonders that are born from that practice. Tend to the slower things in life that can be a little more difficult, which is...

Most people who can light up a room by their very presence, have the darkest stories. It is through the dark times, they learn how to be someone who chooses to shine. Being a light worker can be a daunting task when you have not learned how to fill your cup before filling others. It is vital for balance to be mastered to be the act of service most light beings strive to be. 

I was called to do a fast from shopping January and February. Through that time period I realized that I buy clothes to feel love. I was taught that love is measured through materialistic things. How often and how much I received through out my childhood, was how I viewed the amount of love someone had for me. Which led me to always looking to buy something new in my adult hood. Yes, retail therap...

Both the empath and narcissist are a product created from childhood trauma. The empath took the route of empathy resulting in them tending to everyone and everything around them, versus the narcissist chose the ego-path because the only way they would be recognized is if the attention came from themselves. These two are a direct mirror of one another which are created from the imbalances of their...

The final episode in the trilogy series on the chakra system. Focusing on your fourth through the seventh chakras. 

This is the second part to the trilogy of learning about the Chakra system stemming from the book, "Eastern Body Western Mind". I share my insight and personal experiences learning about my energy centers and healing them to become more balanced over all. 

Join me as I do a deep dive into one of my favorite self help books titled, "Eastern body, Western mind" by Anodea Judith. I breakdown the overall system of the Chakras in this introduction episode. Explaining its functionality and what it pertains too emotionally, physically, and spiritually.  This self-help book was one of the first that catapulted me into my healing journey. It is vit...

Life and death are held in the power of the tongue. What we choose to say out loud is the reality of our lives. We are the creators, and speech is one of the most powerful components that structures life. Something that powerful needs to be used mindfully and with caution. What you speak on holds power.

Distraction is everywhere- its fingertips length away. It is the easiest it has ever been to get invested in everything else but yourself. We subconsciously compare our lives to everything we see in the day an age of social media. Comparison is the thief of joy- which I believe to be one of the main reasons why depression and loneliness is at an all time high. It takes extreme mindfulness to break...

In order to implement and continue standing firm on boundaries, saying no is going to have to be vital in that process. When you have lived your whole life saying yes, and being a victim of people pleasing - utilizing the word no is going to feel downright wrong. It is important to grow through that stage and feel the power of making the right decision for yourself. Feeling uncomfortable is a sure...

We are one with mother nature- just as the ecosystem goes through its yearly cycle of death and rebirth- as do we. People are seasonal, because we ourselves are seasonal. Releasing attachments can be a very daunting task but it is imperative for personal growth. The more you lean into the free flow of this life, the more space you'll continuously create to become the next version of yourself,...

Turning 30 is a monumental moment. One we all anticipate throughout our 20's for a variety of reasons. Well, my time has come to embark on a new decade.  I found myself being quite critical of all the versions of myself that were born and died in this past era, but I chose to change my perspective and implement grace over judgement. There is no better place to be than in the present.  I am th...

Stability was a foreign subject to little Mary. It wasn't until I began living alone in my 20's that I really started to learn and implement a stable lifestyle.  I was unable to keep a job, and working only to survive. Growing up I had such big dreams and I thought my work life would look really different, being the first of my immediate family to obtain a degree and all. But reality alw...

Family dynamics can often pacify toxic patterns and behaviors simply because the same blood is running through your veins. Growing up in a non-traditional manner has allowed me to see a plethora of families and how choosing to ignore unhealthy patterns is how generational trauma passes on to each lineage. Actively choosing my family, whether we share the same blood or not has allowed me to create...

In the season of solitude, I reflected on how I was showing up in romantic endeavors. I often times created fantasized relationships with people I just started getting to know. I found myself falling in limerence with anyone before a bond was able to truly be established. My abandonment issues from the past was interfering in an unrealistic manner with any possible connection. I now reclaim my pow...

After being diagnosed with severe PTSD, I received the confirmation I was unknowingly seeking from a professional psychiatrist to acknowledge the war zone that was my childhood. I have been able to heal my mind from the painful experiences of the past by allowing my truth to come to surface. Only then, did the memories that haunted me throughout my life began to dissipate. I can confidently say my...

On this path of self discovery- this specific chapter called me back to Rio de Janeiro, Brasil. I came here to pick up my inner little girl.  This is my mother’s home land. She dropped me off to family members here when I was 2 years old and that’s when abandonment was first introduced to me along with other traumatic experiences I endured during the years I stayed here in my adolescence. Unfortun...

TRIGGER WARNING- On this episode I share the story of what I consider to be the most traumatic event of my life. I have learned how the event of being abused was affecting my present day actions. Through the deepest form of shadow work I have been abele to address the person that was created out of trauma, with kindness, and teach myself that we no longer need to allow trauma responses to create m...