My Spouse Died Too

Welcome to final part 4 of 4, Boldly Into the Darkness , with the widowed author of Boldly Into the Darkness  Autumn Toelle-Jackson. Final episode appetizers... Might judgy people rule your decisions? Why one love doesn't and can't replace another. Autumn's transformative coach. Finding the right therapist. What the coach says about Autumn's fear of forgetting her late spouse.   How to accept grie...

Welcome to part 3 of 4, Boldly Into the Darkness , with the widowed author of Boldly Into the Darkness  Autumn Toelle-Jackson. You might be perplexed if you haven't listened to parts 1 and 2 first. In this episode, you'll meet Autumn's "grief person." His name is Kyle. The Japanese art of Kintsugi, and how it reflects your true beauty. Admitting you need help. Does grief ambush you? When you least...

Welcome to part 2 of Boldly Into the Darkness, with the widowed author of Boldly Into the Darkness  Autumn Toelle-Jackson. We pick up right where we left off from part 1. If you haven't listened to part 1, please do that first otherwise you'll miss a critical part of Autumn's story. In this episode, we examine self-imposed grief starvation and Autumn's shocking weight loss. Intimate suicide discus...

Proof there can be hope, healing, and love after loss. Widowed author Autumn Toelle-Jackson joins Emeric for part one of an epic four-part series.  We savor her memoir Boldly Into The Darkness: Living with Loss, Growing with Grief & Holding onto Happiness-- a treasure trove of wisdom, observations, and actionable lessons you might expect from an ancient Tibetan guru widow.  Autumn is barely in her...

The last Valentine's Day together. Elida shares intimate heartfelt details. Rick's doctor makes a gut-punch prediction. We smash the toxic head trash myth of becoming a good person--you'll want to become this instead. Also, does a fantastic sex-life have the staying power to keep your relationship going?  How to avoid a dreadful unfulfilled life--what you must do or else. Elida reveals the deathbe...

Elida Myers and I continue where we left off from part 1.  Elida lays bare the consequences of living together.  What legal rights does Elida have? Family turmoil--judgment, shame, and legal.  Elida's extraordinary relationship with Rick's young adult sons. Rick's executor--wicked sister?   Leaving California, leapfrogging America for a fresh start. Four years after Rick's death, how it feels to g...

Elida Myers found another soulmate. Then he died. Elida shares vulnerable details how, after previous marriages and splits, she conjures the courage to take a reluctant risk and allow herself to see the beauty in life with another man--a man with an unquenchable zest for life--another soulmate.  His name is Rick. Elida and Rick are inseparable--madly in love. Elida moves-in. Life is a sunny beach...

Important personal announcement you must know. Plus my heart is laid bare in this solo episode. Deeply vulnerable insight into my past. I talk about how my Macho upbringing fights with crying. My personal head trash shows itself.  You'll learn why science says crying and orgasms produce similar healthful results. Makes perfect sense. And there's more. Not So Many Bullets Aristotle on Crying Why I'...

Vulnerable ruminations. In this solo episode, I come up for air, pull my personal curtains open, and expose my latest vulnerable ruminations. Is there hope on today's horizon? Find out. Bulletations Ruminate Like a Boss Socially Distant Hugs Withholding Affection—Ouch Life is Obstacles Mentally Exhausted Man Champion Enabler How To Black Out Like a Pro Tattoo Yourself Like a Jailhouse Artist Do Yo...

Heart-bared grand finale of The Phoenix is a Poet with my widowed guest co-host, poet, and Renaissance Man, Barry Johnson. If you haven't listened to parts 1 and 2, please do that first because you don't want to be lost. In this episode, Barry and I rock-on with our late-night chat. We hit heaps of heavy head trash hindrances. You'll hear: Are you enough? Enough to date. Good enough. Attractive en...

Welcome to part 2 of The Phoenix is a Poet with widower Barry Johnson. If you haven't listened to part 1, please do that first because it gives you a terrific context. In this episode, Barry and Emeric continue their open-heart conversation. You'll discover the number one reason why you should really keep a journal. The sensuous-ethereal-sex-dream that became Barry's first poem. Deep dark places....

This is a story of unconditional love. Widowed poet Barry Johnson details how he met Beverly, the love of his life. They couldn't have kids   but had the courage, when most couples balk, to adopt Megan, a beautiful young girl who for years was stuck in Kentucky's foster-child system. All Megan ever wanted was a Mom. Tragically, Beverly dies. Megan is nineteen, and Barry must forge ahead as a newly...

"People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel,"   Maya Angelou said. In this solo episode, I share 5 quality of care stories. Even though my wife Donna passed away in 2013, I'll never forget how these people made me feel. Stories about two doctors, plus Toni the nurse, and Maggie the speech therapist. And how the Head of Neu...

How long will you shield your broken heart? High-risk first real kiss . How many kisses does it take to reduce your head trash? How many licks does it take to get to the Tootsie Roll center of a Tootsie Pop? How an average widower even considers going gay. Why you should make amends now. Should you grow a big pair before it's too late? Diverse dating deeds. Why you should never date this kind. Why...

Widower Steve Jacobs tells us why—after 9 years since his spouse Sheila passed away—why he still attends widowed grief group dinners. Tips to avoid gossipy neighbors. Why Tampons confuse dads. Asking your late-spouse for advice. Friends with benefits, and tons more. This is part 2 of 3. If you haven't listened to part 1, please do so for Steve's Once-Upon-a-Time story.   Bullet Points Nine Years S...

Steve and Sheila are in their 40's. Gifted teen daughters and son. Solid jobs. Lovely home.   The good life is on cruise control. Then one day without a hint—life blows-up. Join me and my widowed guest co-host, Steve Jacobs, in this man-to-man multipart conversation. Read These Riveting Bullets Once Upon a Time Police said "Minor Accident." We Did Everything We Could Fix That Issue Before Someone...

FORBIDDEN EPISODE — Please Don't Listen i f you can get arrested for the mere mention of Jesus, or if Jesus triggers you. How my faith impacts my grief.   My simple uncluttered belief system. How I got here. How I stay. This is not a sermon. Call it a testimonial. Please ponder. Los Bullets Drink the Kool-Aid Are You a Jeezus Freak? Luggage Loaded Label Prejudices Make Sense Wooden Biblical Cruise...

Paige and I continue our late-night foray. Should you marry for convenience?   When you're ancient and have no helpful family around, should you marry someone just so you'll have a nurse? The #1 best way to die: why getting hit by a big truck is a bad option. A Mom's warmhearted wisdom for her widowed daughter. Paige reveals her scary basement incident. Crooked ear crystals (not like the healing c...

Now almost seven years after our respective spouse's deaths, Paige Wilson and I debate finding meaning and purpose. We ponder pandemic personal practices: why do some people wear a mask, and some don't seem to give a sh*t. Are stay-at-home orders a welcome warning or a lonely look into your future? And much more. Please enjoy this meandering late-night jabber, with my widowed guest co-host Paige W...

Tasty head trash-filled episode picks up right where we left off in part 1. Commitments and playing it safe because of your fear of getting hurt again, your fear of not being (fill-in-the-blank) enough, your fear of all your head trash. Why you should accept grief as part of you. Situational Quarantining: Are you a cheater? Too late. Or is it too soon for a boob job? What will you miss about the p...

Sherri Rose confesses a death-induced funky phobia. How grief pain really feels as the years roll-on. Why you might want a phony wedding ceremony. Irrational widow wackiness, actionable Stoic wisdom, and tons more. Read These Bullet Points Sex Kitten Velvet Voice Each Year Gets Better Honor My Spouse with a Cheeseburger? Details We Didn't Know Anxious Anticipation Why I Like April Again Confess Th...

Want to Feel Normal? Emeric and returning guest co-host Tim Schneider unpack the blindly accepted words 'Normal' and 'New Normal.' But what do those words really mean? We dig deep to discover the hidden desire behind the word normal. A desire you long for? Maybe. We: Discuss our hang-ups, debate God of the Christian Bible,   COVID-19,  we ponder "what counts as sex."  And did Tim ask God for a lap...

In this episode, I discuss my biopsy, and every crazy thought my mind conjures the moment I answer a phone call. It's my doctor's office calling with biopsy results. Terror. Flashbacks. Reminisce. Ruminate. Lessons and more. The Bullet Points Dreaded Phone Call My Biopsy Results Parents Die Before Kids Telling The Kids — Flashback! Are You Fit for Duty? Mommy is Dead. My Turn? Smells Like The Beac...

Emeric and Tom finish the Loss of Innocence marathon! If you haven't listened to parts 1 through 4, please listen to those first, otherwise, you'll miss out on the Once-Upon-a-Time back story. In this final episode, you'll hear:   Why Tom avoids therapy. Battling anger. Can you choose joy? Why home projects never get completed. Heroic generous cousins. Why Tom's daughter might be related to Harry...

Pandemic: Early Spring in the Northern Hemisphere, the year is 2020 and that means no matter where you are in the world, you and your loved ones are in the midst of pandemic from COVID-19, also known as the Wuhan Corona Virus. From the bottom of my heart, I hope the My Spouse Died Too podcast gives you a brief diversion. I pray God gives you patience, peace, wisdom, and discernment. In this episod...