Musings w/Musings

You start off with an idea of what you want to do and through the inevitable end up doing something else. There are others that have a plan and stick to that plan all the way through. Meaning they have a goal, know the steps to get there, and then follow through. It’s not easy – it is determination. In middle school you may decide to become a lawyer because its family legacy or some other substant...

The title is not a play on anything from the past. It is simply a fact for many of us in this world. Most people live on solid land, and humans cease being aquatic creatures shortly after birth. No matter how much we may love the water, we do not live in it. We are not fish. Though some argue that we evolved from fish, we do not have gills. We have lungs—lungs made to breathe, bodies better suited...

Who decides the standards of dating and why do they keep changing? It could all be so simple but we keep making it harder by lying or pretending to be someone we are not. Well I don’t mean to say “we” as if I am included. The only time I could remember pretending was being a wife. Well someone else wife… Then again I wouldn’t say pretend but acquiesced. I felt trapped. There wasn’t a previous disc...

I was sitting alone in the park and not bothering anyone. It was a public area and I couldn’t prevent anyone from sitting in a public setting. Someone approaches where I was sitting and I immediately look to the left and right to empty benches. It’s nighttime and I am a woman sitting alone in a busy area… this was not the time. Because I do not have a flowery or buttery disposition from the cares...

Perspective: a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view. I had to recently look at how I viewed holidays. At one point in my life they were a joyous occasion. I loved decorating, organizing dinner or lunch gatherings, spreading the word on events or I was just there. I still do enjoy a reason to celebrate, even holidays that don’t involve my own cultural background...

Do you ever find yourself sitting and suddenly a thought pops up and then becomes so repetitive to point of having you act? Is that your intuition or a feeling of your standards not being met? Let’s look at the definitions of intuition and standard. Intuition: the ability to understand something immediately, without the need for conscious reasoning Standard: a level of quality, achievement, perfor...

I don’t know what this audio is because it has been since Jan 19 since I have uploaded it. Luckily I put a title on the audio when initially save and that gives me a topic to write this blurb on. Parenting sucks. Not for everyone but for EVERYONE. There is just levels to the suckery that a good parent goes through. Obviously I am not talking to bad parents…like come on. So parenting sucks. You hav...

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What does it mean to consistently repeat something you didnt realize already happened before? If you are willing to learn then you are in your infancy of desiring to grow - a hunger. Maybe not infancy, maybe the first set of formative years of 2-7. If you refuse then you are at pubescent stage of refusing to believe that it is what you are seeing. That you need to see it to believe it. We repeat h...

I think it is highly amusing to be asked repetively to move on when you ask why. And I am be facetious when I use “amusing.” There is nothing Amusing with running into the NPCs of life. I don't want to always do the work that comes with having, or being given, the solutions. Because you have to use those solutions to go past the physical or mental obstacle that was put in place by another's interp...

I’m a writer. I think that is in my bio. Today is my third book’s birthday(14 November?. I’m excited so I dropped an audio. I’m really proud of my success. At times it doesn’t feel like it to me because there is so much time that goes between each event. I’ve been on a few stages, done a few classes, a few events, some groups… there is a lot. We tend to focus on the culmination and not the journey...

I’m not sure if there was an episode of Peter Pan battling potatoes. These potatoes were formed in my imagination. They were created to give shape to the monsters of mathematical proportions - whatever that means. I never thought to actually quell these monsters I created to dance freely in my head to give form to my angst of solving literal math problems. I though maybe give them an outlet in my...

Below is a piece of abstract writing. This is an exercise from a mini seminar organized by a storytelling group I am in. The mini seminar was taught by an Jasmine from an organization in Chicago called The Neo-Futurist. The art piece doesn’t necessarily have to be physically spoken by you but this is a rant and itbhas to be taught and the scene set up verbally. It isn’t long because we didn't have...

I am writing on purpose again. I didn’t think I would be writing on purpose again so soon. I found myself outside opening my gate to begin my yard’s maintenance with the aggressive barking of my neighbor’s dogs again. I feel the anger well up in me and a whisper inside that tells me “you are set aside.” I am angry because I have already addressed this issue with the dogs. No one I talk to sees it...

I’m sitting in math class struggling to stay aware of my surroundings. That is mostly coming to realization that I am in math class. I need to be aware that I am in math class. I need to pay attention because I do not know what to do. I am about to freak out because I have a test this weekend. By the time this expisode is recorded the math exam will be done. So yes, as I continue, I am sitting in...

Hey, so I don’t intend to make this a long note and it isn’t a long audio. This episode is the intermission. Usually you want to let the audience know that there will be an intermission but sometimes life gets away. That is a true intermission and so is this intermission. Well, here I am after the fact. Glad you stayed or arrived. Mookie💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss thi...

Purpose: reason for existence Lately I have been questioning my purpose. What exactly is that? Did my purpose evolve from the hopes and dreams I had for myself. I was never given a plan for my life. I wasn’t guided in love, finances, education, or my career. Once I decided what I wanted to wear on any given day to school it was probably a wrap. Maybe it could have been when I started being philoso...

Friendships are beautiful thing. Especially when they are true. I don’t know if my pessimism gets in the way of me determining if I have had any true friendships because none of them have remained steady. I’m the outsider in the friend groups. I could point to my chaotic upbringing and constant moving during the early years of my life. I know how to start friendships but its the enduring that is o...

A limit is a point or level beyond which something does not or may not extend or pass. How do you know when you have reached your limit. We all have limits that we are aware of. Most of you that will read this note or listen to the cast are closer to my age than further. Meaning you are old. We are all old. The settings are already set to adult only. Eighteen plus, so if you have reached 18, you h...

Some of us want a settled love. An enduring love. A love that grows from the seed to the harvest to the turning of the soil. Some of us contantly seed, only reaching the sprouting stages. Quite a few us are seedlings wanting to be care and for, nutured. With our being worth the harvest. We want the excitement that comes for reaching that high. The sun was never close enough. Stars not always seen,...

When I was younger I was able to party more easily because there were no hidden fees. Any exclusiveness was front and center. The cost at the door determines what your double would be. Ten dollars at the door definitely meant you were going to double that once inside. For women you usually got in free and so your double at that time meant the drinks would be around seven or eight dollars. Also clu...

I love to rest but I also love a good time. Dancing releases so much pent up frustration for me. I become so much more jovial when dancing. I went dancing recently at this club-a rooftop bar. Women are there sitting like it's a brunch. Smiling about little comments or super small talk. Men are sitting on their phones or dapping each other up a for what - iono. The music was loud. You had to scream...

*I can’t remember where this art work is from. If it is yours I can change it. I decided to share this writing from 2000. I typed it out. A picture of a section is below. “When is the age we stop living life? This unconscious state of living drives me cray. People stop living mentally; not physically or being brain dead medically. Trying to maintain a conscious state of mind drives me crazy. The r...

July 29 is the beginning of a personal legacy. It isn't celebrated by anyone but me. I love this date for the many opportunities that were presented to me. It is the date that Beyonce released an album on 29 July 2022 - Renaissance. I actually channeled that date on twitter. I added to my bio before the date was released. The numbers two and nine equal eleven which by numerology is a master number...

Terms: Delay - a period of time by which something is late or postponed Deny - refuse to give or grant (something requested or desired) to (someone) What is it about life and delays? Why can’t the answer/solution/goal just be completed with very little resistance. Resistance is natural, you expect a little resistance. Delays…as soon as there is a delay the line follows. “I don’t think this is gonn...