Musings w/Musings

Today, July 2, I am typing up this section after deleting a previous paragraph or two because who will every know outside of my confession. And how will I ever remember outside coming back to this post - I won’t. What I will do is be determined to make choices that affect the people around me positively - at least I will try in most things. We all should try more. Try not to make the world your pe...

Intention: a mental state where a person commits to a course of action to achieve a specific goal or purpose Recently I heard from passing media on whatever platform I was scrolling through said that there are a number of people that do not have inner monologues. Like just going through life without some sort of soundtrack or mental visual feedback. How do they design stories? The people having th...

What is your personal threshold? Threshold: a boundary, limit, point of entry Are you aware of what your limit is? Where life doesn’t surprise you when it becomes chaotic in what seems all of sudden but not really? The point of where something happens and you say think “Wait, this is too much. Time to call knock it off.” I do. They are known only to me. Some call them boundaries. One threshold I h...

Good day. I woke and meditated and in that came the message to make this blurb short. It is a day, well weekend of celebration to explore new tings. So go outside and enjoy. Have fun. If you have been to a Greek festival, Mardi Gras, or a St Patrick’s day parade, and survived, then you can go to a Juneteenth Celebration and enjoy yourself. Have fun! Mookie 💜 *Juneteenth is already a federal holid...

For a moment there while listening to the audio, didn't know why the subtitle was ‘Delusion.’ I’m at the age and in the galaxy of my life where I ask the question “ why would they promote that, when it has no empirical evidence”, or in simple terms, not true. Soon I pull my like or share because upon further investigation it wasn't a true source or reliable information. There were standards on how...

Life is filled with illusions. I live in what is considered a first world country but it feels like a first world zoo. Instead of being behind a concrete enclosure, we are behind an easily climbable chain-link fence. The entrapment of the fence is an illusion but we are comfortable behind it because of the timely dropping cost of food or the notion it could be worse. I remember as social media bec...

Have you ever been in a position of assumption? I feel like that should be a separate title that comes with pay or at least some type of compensation. A little something for my trouble. In one job they call it an ‘Special Experience Identifier’ or SEI for short but you weren’t always paid. An SEI is just a special set of skills or skill that isn't used everyday but once you got it, it is invaluabl...

Isolation: the complete or near-complete separation of an individual from society, a social group, or outside contact As I write…well type this, I don’t remember what the audio is about and I’ll check after I am done typing this up. That is how isolation begins. It begins with an innocent I’ll get to it later then grows into a projected lack of care. Projected onto friends, family, coworkers, asso...

I recorded this musing before I published my latest poetry collection. The journey is half the battle is the saying. The journey is usually the hardest part you don’t remember. It’s the long hours of worrying before you even start. It’s the planning and one line of information that you are unsure about. Consider the creation of an application program or app for short. There are thousands of apps....

She is no longer my step daughter legally but it was never of her fault… Recently there has been a discussion about jealousy and whether it is a valid feeling. My stance is that it is a valid feeling. Going through life I never considered myself a jealous person. I didn’t feel I had a reason to be. I wasn’t rich and for the window I was viewed through, grew up in poverty. My mother received assist...

When you listen to the audio, please understand I didn’t kill anyone… I find myself censoring myself often. Censor myself for friends, family, colleagues, strangers because all the world’s a stage or the coercion of making my first impression my best impression. It seems like I am constantly having to sell myself but with edits. I don’t want to have censor myself because my initial voice is not pl...

What does it mean to be young? Why is there a sliding scale on being young? To save characters - we are jumping right into the “adult year.'“ One gets to 18 and and you are young. Get to age 21 and still young. Age 25 and your insurances is supposed drop but you are still young. Reach 30 and you guessed it - YOUNG! Is this sliding scale handicapping those reaching for the rung of adulthood on the...

Who are my listeners, and/or readers? Who are you that have found yourself a part of my small, soon to be large audience? Are you part of the collective that has grown weary of mundane repetition when you expect growth of a certain evolutionary maturity-no, expansion- of the mind that we are not a layperson of destruction? ~we are animals though not to be a continuous warring species~ What needs t...

You start off with an idea of what you want to do and through the inevitable end up doing something else. There are others that have a plan and stick to that plan all the way through. Meaning they have a goal, know the steps to get there, and then follow through. It’s not easy – it is determination. In middle school you may decide to become a lawyer because its family legacy or some other substant...

The title is not a play on anything from the past. It is simply a fact for many of us in this world. Most people live on solid land, and humans cease being aquatic creatures shortly after birth. No matter how much we may love the water, we do not live in it. We are not fish. Though some argue that we evolved from fish, we do not have gills. We have lungs—lungs made to breathe, bodies better suited...

Who decides the standards of dating and why do they keep changing? It could all be so simple but we keep making it harder by lying or pretending to be someone we are not. Well I don’t mean to say “we” as if I am included. The only time I could remember pretending was being a wife. Well someone else wife… Then again I wouldn’t say pretend but acquiesced. I felt trapped. There wasn’t a previous disc...

I was sitting alone in the park and not bothering anyone. It was a public area and I couldn’t prevent anyone from sitting in a public setting. Someone approaches where I was sitting and I immediately look to the left and right to empty benches. It’s nighttime and I am a woman sitting alone in a busy area… this was not the time. Because I do not have a flowery or buttery disposition from the cares...

Perspective: a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view. I had to recently look at how I viewed holidays. At one point in my life they were a joyous occasion. I loved decorating, organizing dinner or lunch gatherings, spreading the word on events or I was just there. I still do enjoy a reason to celebrate, even holidays that don’t involve my own cultural background...

Do you ever find yourself sitting and suddenly a thought pops up and then becomes so repetitive to point of having you act? Is that your intuition or a feeling of your standards not being met? Let’s look at the definitions of intuition and standard. Intuition: the ability to understand something immediately, without the need for conscious reasoning Standard: a level of quality, achievement, perfor...

I don’t know what this audio is because it has been since Jan 19 since I have uploaded it. Luckily I put a title on the audio when initially save and that gives me a topic to write this blurb on. Parenting sucks. Not for everyone but for EVERYONE. There is just levels to the suckery that a good parent goes through. Obviously I am not talking to bad parents…like come on. So parenting sucks. You hav...

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What does it mean to consistently repeat something you didnt realize already happened before? If you are willing to learn then you are in your infancy of desiring to grow - a hunger. Maybe not infancy, maybe the first set of formative years of 2-7. If you refuse then you are at pubescent stage of refusing to believe that it is what you are seeing. That you need to see it to believe it. We repeat h...

I think it is highly amusing to be asked repetively to move on when you ask why. And I am be facetious when I use “amusing.” There is nothing Amusing with running into the NPCs of life. I don't want to always do the work that comes with having, or being given, the solutions. Because you have to use those solutions to go past the physical or mental obstacle that was put in place by another's interp...

I’m a writer. I think that is in my bio. Today is my third book’s birthday(14 November?. I’m excited so I dropped an audio. I’m really proud of my success. At times it doesn’t feel like it to me because there is so much time that goes between each event. I’ve been on a few stages, done a few classes, a few events, some groups… there is a lot. We tend to focus on the culmination and not the journey...

I’m not sure if there was an episode of Peter Pan battling potatoes. These potatoes were formed in my imagination. They were created to give shape to the monsters of mathematical proportions - whatever that means. I never thought to actually quell these monsters I created to dance freely in my head to give form to my angst of solving literal math problems. I though maybe give them an outlet in my...