Musings w/Musings

Below is a piece of abstract writing. This is an exercise from a mini seminar organized by a storytelling group I am in. The mini seminar was taught by an Jasmine from an organization in Chicago called The Neo-Futurist. The art piece doesn’t necessarily have to be physically spoken by you but this is a rant and itbhas to be taught and the scene set up verbally. It isn’t long because we didn't have...

I am writing on purpose again. I didn’t think I would be writing on purpose again so soon. I found myself outside opening my gate to begin my yard’s maintenance with the aggressive barking of my neighbor’s dogs again. I feel the anger well up in me and a whisper inside that tells me “you are set aside.” I am angry because I have already addressed this issue with the dogs. No one I talk to sees it...

I’m sitting in math class struggling to stay aware of my surroundings. That is mostly coming to realization that I am in math class. I need to be aware that I am in math class. I need to pay attention because I do not know what to do. I am about to freak out because I have a test this weekend. By the time this expisode is recorded the math exam will be done. So yes, as I continue, I am sitting in...

Hey, so I don’t intend to make this a long note and it isn’t a long audio. This episode is the intermission. Usually you want to let the audience know that there will be an intermission but sometimes life gets away. That is a true intermission and so is this intermission. Well, here I am after the fact. Glad you stayed or arrived. Mookie💜 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss thi...

Purpose: reason for existence Lately I have been questioning my purpose. What exactly is that? Did my purpose evolve from the hopes and dreams I had for myself. I was never given a plan for my life. I wasn’t guided in love, finances, education, or my career. Once I decided what I wanted to wear on any given day to school it was probably a wrap. Maybe it could have been when I started being philoso...

Friendships are beautiful thing. Especially when they are true. I don’t know if my pessimism gets in the way of me determining if I have had any true friendships because none of them have remained steady. I’m the outsider in the friend groups. I could point to my chaotic upbringing and constant moving during the early years of my life. I know how to start friendships but its the enduring that is o...

A limit is a point or level beyond which something does not or may not extend or pass. How do you know when you have reached your limit. We all have limits that we are aware of. Most of you that will read this note or listen to the cast are closer to my age than further. Meaning you are old. We are all old. The settings are already set to adult only. Eighteen plus, so if you have reached 18, you h...

Some of us want a settled love. An enduring love. A love that grows from the seed to the harvest to the turning of the soil. Some of us contantly seed, only reaching the sprouting stages. Quite a few us are seedlings wanting to be care and for, nutured. With our being worth the harvest. We want the excitement that comes for reaching that high. The sun was never close enough. Stars not always seen,...

When I was younger I was able to party more easily because there were no hidden fees. Any exclusiveness was front and center. The cost at the door determines what your double would be. Ten dollars at the door definitely meant you were going to double that once inside. For women you usually got in free and so your double at that time meant the drinks would be around seven or eight dollars. Also clu...

I love to rest but I also love a good time. Dancing releases so much pent up frustration for me. I become so much more jovial when dancing. I went dancing recently at this club-a rooftop bar. Women are there sitting like it's a brunch. Smiling about little comments or super small talk. Men are sitting on their phones or dapping each other up a for what - iono. The music was loud. You had to scream...

*I can’t remember where this art work is from. If it is yours I can change it. I decided to share this writing from 2000. I typed it out. A picture of a section is below. “When is the age we stop living life? This unconscious state of living drives me cray. People stop living mentally; not physically or being brain dead medically. Trying to maintain a conscious state of mind drives me crazy. The r...

July 29 is the beginning of a personal legacy. It isn't celebrated by anyone but me. I love this date for the many opportunities that were presented to me. It is the date that Beyonce released an album on 29 July 2022 - Renaissance. I actually channeled that date on twitter. I added to my bio before the date was released. The numbers two and nine equal eleven which by numerology is a master number...

Terms: Delay - a period of time by which something is late or postponed Deny - refuse to give or grant (something requested or desired) to (someone) What is it about life and delays? Why can’t the answer/solution/goal just be completed with very little resistance. Resistance is natural, you expect a little resistance. Delays…as soon as there is a delay the line follows. “I don’t think this is gonn...

Lying is avoidable. The definition of lying is not telling the truth. You have to be not doing something that should come natural to do. Lying is biggest peeves. I don’t even want you to tell a fib, which is still a lie but now it sounds like a “small” lie - whatever that is supposed to mean. To be made part of the lie is even worse. That person that was offended is pointing at you and you are poi...

What excites you? Is it the new things you encounter. Is it the old and gently weathered ideas that return every 20 years amongst the collective. How do you find excitement if it isn't through nostalgia? Do you explore different concepts, people, places, and ideas? I challenge myself by approaching life with an, although structured, open mind - my curiosity is my super power. Take the time to find...

What is love? Like how do you do it? Every since I hade the business management course at Saint Leo online, I've formulated that relationships also adhere to the forming, storming, norming, performing, and adjourning model. Only that storming stage occurs often for some, a great deal often. Also performing comes earlier with all involved. The performing part of the relationship always sets the ton...

Being an oldest daughter comes with advantages. You are able to ease into leadership roles naturally. Your foresight is usually pretty good. You can size up a situation immediately upon entering and getting it under control. Chaos doesn't seem to overwhelm you so much as an older daughter. You are also naturally encouraging to those around you. Oldest daughters suffer from feeling lonely when not...

Do you suffer from imposter syndrome? Do you doubt your talent? Do you question whether or not you have the skills for your goals? I do! I imagine my myself waving my hand enthusiastically while asking these questions. I'm struggling against an autoimmune disease to write as it cause me to feel forgetful. I refer to it as my random moments of intelligence. I want to get it checked out, but Im not...

For the lonely hearts that want true companionship without sacrifice of integrity. Who lacked direction but have now learned. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit mookiemadeit.substack.com

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