Messy Thoughts

MESSY THOUGHTS 47. 👻 IT'S OUR SPOOKY EPISODE. 👻 BJ and LeBron dim the lights, pull out a Ouija board, and try to contact a legend. (It did not go how we planned.) From there, Messy Thoughts Episode 45 turns into a full-on group therapy session about fear: what scares us, what doesn't, and what we refuse to invite into our homes. Do spirits exist? Are your loved ones visiting you as butterflies a...

MESSY THOUGHTS 46. BJ and LeBron are NOT holding back. This week's episode starts chaotic (Charli XCX concert cocaine theories, anyone?) and escalates into a full-on civics lesson that nobody asked for but everybody needed. BJ's got a burn scar on his booty, LeBron is coaching high school boys volleyball and loving every second of it, and somehow the two of them end up breaking down the entire U.S...

MESSY THOUGHTS 45. Sunglasses on, identity stolen, and trauma unpacked — welcome back to Messy Thoughts! 🏈🏐🎾 This week BJ and LeBron are talking about THE GAME. Were you a sports kid, or were you the kid on the soccer field picking flowers while your dad lost his mind on the sidelines? (Guess which one LeBron was.) From forced football seasons to bond with Dad, to BJ getting cut from hurdles in...

MESSY THOUGHTS 44. Messy Thoughts is back with one of the most honest, hilarious, and healing conversations we've ever had on this podcast. BJ and LeBron sit down with content creator and trauma recovery advocate Christie Hoffman (@christie.heals) — and y'all, she did NOT hold back. Christie shares her raw, unfiltered story: surviving a physically abusive marriage, losing her brother to suicide, g...

MESSY THOUGHTS 43. BJ, LeBron and Keller are in their feelings — and their family memories — for episode 43. What starts as a chaotic pre-show debate about running downtown Austin, ketchup packets, and In-N-Out fries somehow becomes a full deep dive into Pink's Black era, Kandi Burruss's songwriting empire, Real Housewives drama, and the case for Keke Palmer getting a podcast booking ASAP. Then th...

MESSY THOUGHTS 42. BJ, LeBron, and a special appearance from Keller are back — and this one went everywhere. It starts with BJ's niceness finally running out on a stranger who had way too many opinions, then somehow spirals into bad Airbnb experiences, the most chaotic decisions that actually worked out, the most overrated things in existence (food trucks, run clubs, and one very specific music ge...

MESSY THOUGHTS 41. This week BJ and LeBron are going full Messy Bowl — no regular agenda, just topics pulled straight from the bowl and a 10-minute clock. What could go wrong? Everything. In the best way. They kick things off venting about the absolute disrespect of apartment AC going out in the middle of summer, the art of negotiating thermostat settings with your parents, and why car maintenance...

MESSY THOUGHTS 40. BJ and LeBron are NOT holding back. This week's episode kicks off with a genuinely philosophical detour — what if everyone you've ever met is just you in a different timeline? From there it's full send into: would you ever shapeshift into another race or body if you could (Mystique discourse is real), what it means to actually date as yourself instead of your PR rep, and the Who...

MESSY THOUGHTS EPISODE 39. What does it actually mean to be a hater — and is it always a bad thing? BJ and LeBron crack open some Trip melon cucumber drinks and get into it. They break down the real definition of a hater, why they think hating is honestly kind of built into us, and where the line is between healthy jealousy and straight-up toxic behavior. They call out the covert haters in your fr...

MESSY THOUGHTS 38. We're back. And we have thoughts. BJ and LeBron return from their mid-season break with a packed episode — movie quote challenges, Europe recaps, a run-in with a rude flight attendant, and a deep dive into whether the gay community actually practices what it preaches about love and self-acceptance. BJ just got back from Santorini, Greece (with a layover detour through Madrid tha...

MESSY THOUGHTS 37. Stand-up comedian, writer, and actor Colton Dowling (Some of This Is Bad) pulls up to the Messy Thoughts studio — and within about ninety seconds he's already announced he's uncomfortable and asked if this is "a card." BJ and LeBron take that as a personal challenge, and what follows is one of the most gloriously derailed hours we've recorded. We open on BBL recovery times and t...

MESSY THOUGHTS 36. Dillion Kordell is BACK — bald, 30, and cussing out his comment section. 💅🏾 The girls are messy this week. Returning guest and Dillion Kordell Show host Dillion Kordell pulls up to break down his new bald-and-bold era, the art of arguing with racists in your comments, and why the internet is way more fun in your head than it actually is. BJ and LeBron get into everything from...

MESSY THOUGHTS 35. Austin drag icon Diamond Dior Davenport joins BJ and LeBron for one of the most personal, chaotic, and genuinely moving episodes yet. Diamond breaks down the full behind-the-scenes chaos of the Majestic Ball — her 35-minute Beyoncé Homecoming tribute set — from the costume that didn't fit five days before showtime to rehearsing stage blocking in the street with duct tape. She al...

MESSY THOUGHTS 34. BJ and LeBron finally run the tapes on how they actually met Austin food creator Rell Rugely (@RellEatsWorld) — fully nude, fully confident, broad daylight, on a boat at Splash. From there it only gets messier: they pitch an all-Black takeover boat for next year's Pride season ("BABS 2027"), spiral into a 2000s R&B nostalgia tour that nobody asked for, and debate whether Int...

MESSY THOUGHTS 33. 🏳️‍🌈 THE COMING OUT EPISODE 🏳️‍🌈 It's Pride Month, and we're finally doing the episode we've been saving since the very beginning. BJ and LeBron are joined by Daddy Keller for the most personal Messy Thoughts yet — our coming out stories, told in full for the first time. We get into all of it: glass closets, growing up in church, asking for dolls and getting silence, the frien...

Get ready for some REAL conversation! This week we're sitting down with the fabulous Jeremy A. Teel—a true community staple and one of the first people our host met when moving to Austin. Jeremy's a powerhouse in the queer scene, hosting legendary events like House of Soul and Chunk Party while championing the bears and fat boys community that often gets sidelined. In this episode, we dive DEEP in...

MESSY THOUGHTS 31. This week on Messy Thoughts, BJ and LeBron are getting into the messy, complicated, and sometimes hilarious world of cancel culture. Before diving into the main topic, they kick things off with ASMR sips, a Find My Friends trail run-in, the idea of a Black queer walk/run club in Austin, San Antonio Black Pride, Caffeine Daddy, and a very necessary summer sunscreen PSA. Then LeBr...

MESSY THOUGHTS EPISODE 30. This week on Messy Thoughts, BJ and LeBron are talking summer bodies, gay beauty standards, body image, and the complicated way confidence, attraction, and community all collide when pool party season starts creeping up. The episode starts with Whitney Houston vocals, podcast alter egos, “The Familiar” merch ideas, and BJ getting read by his grandmother over his nose rin...

MESSY THOUGHTS 29. Welcome back to Messy Thoughts! This week, Rihanna, Lady Gaga, stan culture, internet chaos, and “hills we’re willing to die on” all collide in one gloriously messy episode. BJ and LeBron spiral from AI-generated celebrity voices and TikTok memes into a full-blown celebration of Rihanna’s legendary hit catalog, the evolution of fan bases, and the golden age of MySpace customizat...

MESSY THOUGHTS 28. This week on Messy Thoughts, BJ and LeBron are taking a messy, funny, and surprisingly reflective trip back to 2020 — the year of quarantine, masks, Zoom happy hours, six-feet-apart stickers, empty Austin streets, PPP loans, unemployment chaos, cancelled birthday plans, and everybody suddenly becoming very aware of who was in their “pod.” Before the time machine really gets goin...

MESSY THOUGHTS 27. BJ and LeBron are back after a little break, and they’ve got a lot to catch up on. The episode kicks off with some very Messy Thoughts energy as BJ declares that 2026 is officially “the year of the top,” which leads into a hilarious and unfiltered conversation about topping, bottoming, labels, and dating dynamics. Then the boys recap their recent trip to Treefort and Drag Fort i...

Messy Thoughts goes live from Boise, Idaho at Treefort Music Festival for a hilarious, chaotic, and unexpectedly heartfelt night with BJ Burgess and LeBron Huggins. In this special live episode, BJ returns to his hometown of Boise and brings the Messy Thoughts energy to the stage for a crowd full of queer joy, messy confessions, audience questions, and unfiltered commentary. The night kicks off wi...

MESSY THOUGHTS 25. BJ and LeBron are back with another wildly chaotic episode of Messy Thoughts , and this one truly goes everywhere. From allergy struggles and drag dreams to college Greek life, old school phones, cookout fantasy picks, and some truly unhinged dating-app behavior, the boys are in rare form. They kick things off recapping a recent panel appearance and showing love to Vivent Health...

MESSY THOUGHTS 24. This week on Messy Thoughts, BJ and LeBron kick things off with a little life catch-up, some SXSW chaos, Sips & Sounds discourse, and the emotional devastation of missing Christina Aguilera. From there, the conversation spirals beautifully into hot people, Instagram boyfriends, breakup lurking, and the very specific pain of caring way too much about strangers online. Then th...

Messy Thoughts – Episode 23 This week on Messy Thoughts, BJ and LeBron are back with another chaotic, hilarious, and surprisingly deep conversation about pop culture, concerts, money, friendship, and the messy realities of adult life. The episode kicks off with a wild tangent about the viral Dr Pepper TikTok jingle, TikTok fame, and how creators get paid (or don’t) for their work. From there, the...