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Does the thought of vacation make you anxious because of food, body image, or fear of weight gain? Instead of looking forward to making memories, are you already wondering what you'll eat, how you'll exercise, or whether you'll gain weight? In this Christian eating disorder recovery podcast, we talk about vacation anxiety, fear of eating out, food rules, body image struggles, and why eating disord...

Have you ever felt like one bad day erased weeks or even months of progress in your eating disorder recovery? If you've ever thought, "I was doing so well... and now I'm right back where I started," this episode is for you. In this faith-based eating disorder recovery podcast, you'll learn why setbacks don't erase healing, how shame keeps women trapped in the cycle of binge eating, food restrictio...

Does summer make your eating disorder louder? Do swimsuits, shorts, vacations, and pool parties leave you battling body image, comparison, fear of weight gain, and body shame? If so, you're not alone—and you don't have to spend another summer believing your body determines your worth. In this Christian eating disorder recovery podcast episode, you'll learn why the pressure to have the "perfect sum...

If you've ever believed that following the "right" food rules would finally bring you peace, you're not alone. Many Christian women struggling with eating disorders, body image, fear of weight gain, and food obsession spend years chasing safety through rules, routines, and perfection. But no amount of food rules can heal what only Jesus can restore. In this faith-based eating disorder recovery epi...

One of the biggest lies women with eating disorders believe is that they simply need more discipline. But the truth is, most women struggling with eating disorders are already incredibly disciplined. The problem isn't a lack of discipline. The problem is where that discipline is being directed. In this Christian eating disorder recovery podcast episode, we discuss fear-based discipline versus fait...

For years, I thought food was the problem. If I could just eat better, lose weight, follow the rules, and have more self-control, everything would finally get better. But no matter how much I focused on food, I kept ending up in the same place. Eventually, I realized food wasn't the issue at all. Food was simply where the deeper issue was showing up. In this faith-based eating disorder recovery ep...

Do you feel exhausted trying to control your food, your body, your future, or other people's opinions? In this episode, we explore the deeper reason so many women struggle with control during eating disorder recovery. You'll learn why control often masquerades as safety, how fear fuels the need to control outcomes, and what Scripture teaches about God's protection and provision. If you're tired of...

Have you ever found yourself waiting for God to prove Himself before fully trusting Him? In this episode, I share the powerful story of the woman who touched Jesus' garment and reveals what actually led to her healing. If you're struggling with eating disorder recovery, fear, anxiety, or uncertainty about your future, this conversation will challenge the belief that faith comes after proof. Instea...

Have you ever had an old eating disorder thought return and immediately wondered if you've failed recovery? In this Christian eating disorder recovery podcast episode, we're talking about relapse, setbacks, triggers, and why difficult moments do not erase your progress. You'll learn the difference between having a thought and following a thought, how old struggles can reveal deeper layers that sti...

What actually changed everything in my eating disorder recovery wasn't fixing my food, reaching a certain weight, or finding more willpower. It was changing what I believed. In this faith-based eating disorder recovery episode, I'm sharing the biggest turning point in my healing journey and why recovery accelerated when I stopped believing every lie my eating disorder told me. We talk about identi...

I couldn't fully heal my relationship with food because I wasn't really living my life. I was surviving it. At the time, I thought food was the problem. I thought my body was the problem. But underneath the eating disorder was something deeper: anxiety, emptiness, frustration, and a life that felt smaller than it was meant to be. In this Christian eating disorder recovery podcast episode, I share...

For years, I believed every thought that entered my mind. If I thought I was fat, I believed it. If I thought I needed to lose weight, I believed it. If I thought I wasn't good enough, I believed that too. I never stopped to question my thoughts, and that was one of the biggest things keeping me trapped in my eating disorder. In this faith-based eating disorder recovery episode, I share a pivotal...

For years, I genuinely believed my body was the problem. I thought if I could just lose enough weight, get lean enough, flatten my stomach, or finally achieve the “perfect” body, then I would finally feel confident, accepted, peaceful, and happy. But even when my body changed… nothing inside me truly changed. In this faith-based eating disorder recovery episode, I’m sharing part one of my personal...

If your mind feels consumed by food, body image, exercise, fear, or control all day long, this episode is going to help you understand something important: you are not weak, lazy, or lacking discipline. In fact, many women struggling with eating disorders are incredibly focused, driven, disciplined, and mentally strong. The problem is not that you care too much — it’s that your focus has been hija...

If you’ve been trying to recover from an eating disorder on your own but still feel stuck, exhausted, or trapped in the same patterns, this episode is going to challenge you in the best way. In this Christian eating disorder recovery podcast episode, we talk about why isolation fuels eating disorders, how silence protects destructive thoughts and behaviors, and why doing recovery alone often keeps...

If you’ve tried everything to feel better — self-care routines, healthy habits, discipline, productivity, eating disorder recovery tools — and you still feel emotionally exhausted and empty inside, this episode is for you. In this faith-based eating disorder recovery episode, we’re talking about the deeper reason so many women stay stuck in cycles of food obsession, body image struggles, emotional...

You’re not actually afraid of weight gain. You’re afraid of what you believe weight gain means. In this faith-based eating disorder recovery podcast episode, we break down: fear of weight gain body image struggles food anxiety fear of losing control identity and eating disorders Christian recovery support healing fear around food and body changes You’ll learn why your brain connects control with s...

Fear of weight gain can feel overwhelming in eating disorder recovery — but what if weight isn’t actually the real fear? In this episode, we explore the deeper emotional root of weight gain fear and walk through 3 powerful questions that help uncover what’s really driving eating disorder thoughts and behaviors. If you struggle with: fear of gaining weight body image anxiety food obsession eating d...

If you’ve been trying to recover on your own… doing all the right things… thinking about it… trying harder… but still feeling stuck… this episode is going to show you why. Because there’s one step most women avoid… and it changes everything. And it’s not more effort. It’s who you’re doing this with. You were never meant to do this alone. Not with people… and not without God.   READY TO TAKE THE NE...

If you feel like you’ve been trying so hard to recover… thinking about it… analyzing it… doing everything “right”… and it’s still not working… this episode is going to show you why. Because the answer isn’t trying harder. In this episode, we break down: • why more effort isn’t creating change • how overthinking and over-controlling keep you stuck • and what actually works in recovery Because if tr...

If you’re scared to gain weight… this episode is going to tell you the truth about what’s actually keeping you stuck. Because it’s not just the weight. It’s what the weight represents. In this episode, we break down: • what you’re really afraid of • why that fear keeps you stuck • and how to start moving through it Because every time you avoid that fear… you reinforce it. And every time you face i...

If your mind feels consumed by food… what you ate, what you’re going to eat, what you shouldn’t eat… this episode is going to give you relief. Because the answer isn’t trying to control your thoughts harder. It’s learning how to redirect your focus and feed your mind something different. In this episode, I walk you through three practical, faith-based ways to quiet your mind: • Stop trying to cont...

If you’ve ever had a moment in recovery where old thoughts come back and you think: “What is wrong with me? I thought I was past this…” this episode is for you. Because that moment doesn’t mean you’re failing. It means your brain is still healing. In this episode, we break down: • why recovery isn’t linear • what’s actually happening when old thoughts come back • and exactly what to do so you don’...

If you’re stuck in body checking, restriction, and constant fear around food… and you’re praying for healing but still feel trapped… this episode is going to challenge you — in the best way. Because there’s a difference between believing in God… and actually inviting Him into your decisions. In this episode, we break down: • the fear driving eating disorder behaviors • what it actually means to in...

Anxiety can feel overwhelming in eating disorder recovery. Fast thoughts. Racing heart. Urgency. Spiraling decisions. And in those moments, it can feel like anxiety is in control. But here’s the truth: You don’t need to eliminate anxiety to heal. You need to stop letting anxiety make your decisions. In this episode, I’m giving you three practical tools to use in the moment when anxiety takes over:...