Elaina Brady

After all these years, becoming healed, you realized so much damage you carried, how many bad habits or ways you did things, you didn’t want to act on survival mode. I did have a tough side, but I learned how lean into my soft side and be less tough on myself. I didn’t deserve half of what I went through, but I wasn’t perfect either.

Surviving the Great War was realizing that they were playing with fire. Somewhere in the haze I’ve sensed I have been betrayed. Breaking someone’s confidentiality to only act like the victim . You knew what you were doing, but you didn’t think I would expose you. There is no place to hide but the bed you created of lies. Don’t show up or act like I forgot. I don’t forget. You just want this to go...

August is one of the most difficult months for me, my grandfather passed away August 23rd, 2019. From the start of August and now it’s almost the end of August. August slipped away without a hello or goodbye. Twenty-three was significant for me because I lost my grandfather on the twenty-third, but when I turned twenty-three I lost my grandmother and a close friend as well. Twenty-three will be fo...

Living with Fibromyalgia, is like being hot and cold at the same time, while being aggravated by the pain. Fibromyalgia is consider as an autoimmune disease. The pain can be like needles, fire, ants to electric shocks at any point in the body. Being so stiff you fill like you are carrying bricks when you walk. A tiredness that never goes, even eight hours isn’t enough. Fibromyalgia can cause many...

Being stuck in February, because so much happened in the last three years, that happened in February.  Am I allowed to leave or am I forever stuck in February? The last time I saw my grandma was February 20th. The last time I spoke to my mom and we went our own separate way was February 18th. Then my husband and I got married February 28th. All of this happened in the same year. The year of 2022,...

Red lipstick is the confidence of sharing the truth of what actually happened. I don’t care if it makes you uncomfortable, you didn’t care when it destroyed me. Time is irrelevant when everything was always about you and your needs. Don’t be going my social medias or going behind my back talking to my friends. Once one was foot was out the door, the other one would no longer would be invited in. I...

Trying to destroy my engagement and wedding day, now you have no connection to me anymore. Throwing a tantrum without giving me the chance to explain why everything happened the way it did. You just chose to jump to conclusions instead. My only real peace was leaving you in my past. Our relationship was good until I was thirteen. That’s when everything change, that’s when you switched. A hole in m...

All I gave you is gone, nothing could replace this moment. Walking on egg shells each moment was testing your anger. Getting mad over the smallest of things, it all fell down. Nothing would never change or make you proud or happy. Taking credit for what I did or saying if it wasn’t for you. Always being brought up when the subject had nothing to do with me. Getting it from all sides, just keep my...

I didn’t lose them, they lost me. No second chances or trying again. You lost someone good. Someone who was authentic, not fake and someone who was honest. Even in the most difficult times, I still told the truth, rather than lying. Enemies started out as friends, because to them it was their image? Their large group of supporters to bring me down, but now  have you a criminal record. Was it reall...

Don’t ask how I am doing, showing up on people I may know or try to apologize. It’s too late for an apology.  I do forgive you, but forgive myself more for the hell you put me through. The second time not only did you get fired, this is on your record permanently. You thought I would let it slide. These last two years I was collecting evidence. Letting you run your mouth and letting you think you...

Breaking the chains, is like flashing lights that remind you of the small things that turn into moments of your life that you wish to forget. Sharing my story wasn’t for sympathy. Watching a grow man in his forties not only break a door in half in front of you, but burning you with cigarettes, while choking you in the process. Being mentally, sexually, verbally and physically abused, I’m the one w...

I will always support the education system, but I have had my fair share of teachers who hated me, who didn't like me and wanted to see me fail or they would do illegal things that would cost them their license. I was never the perfect student, I made mistakes, hurt others and had to learn the hard way from many things I did. With many teachers taking the side of the bully, then playing the victim...

Being bullied or harassed when you are a kid, teenager or even an adult. Nothing changes about the bully, it’s either out of envy or jealousy. You are not hurting me, you only hurt yourself. Digging a hole that you can’t get out of but you blame everyone else for your own actions instead of taking accountability. Cheating your way through school or copying someone else just shows you have no perso...

Watching the sunset, it reminds me how thankful I am, that God gave me another day to live and to see another day. I am not perfect, I have sinned, but I am thankful for God’s grace. To start this new year, new chapter, I wanted to share the hardest parts of my life, but all credit will always go to God. There were times I had to apologize for how I treated others, I did because I cared for how ba...