Cosmic Triggers with Sam

This episode is inspired by my brother. The person who has been with me almost my whole life. Who is the closest thing to another me. He knows what I love, what makes me laugh, how I hurt, what my childhood was like. He was there. He was there through everything. And we share a bond that’s very unique. And somewhere along the line we stopped bonding. We found other people to grow with. We stopped...

This episode is about the fear to be all that we are. To love as much as we can. To let people in and see us through good and bad. Why are we afraid of this? Why are we afraid to love? To be loved? And how can we work together to be more free in love. And what I mean by that is, to show up as ourselves no matter what. To put our walls down and be the mess of a human that we are. The beauty and the...

This episode features my partner Ben. It’s an excellent episode. I don’t want to spoil it, but it’s based on a realization we had that nothing does matter, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t matter. Our beings are programmed to live. If we want to jump off a bridge or a building, fear comes in and says no, you’re supposed to be here. We talk about how there is pleasant and unpleasant feelings. If no...

I don’t know how to talk about things unless it’s from my own experience. So in this episode I talk about love, and what I thought it was and how I experienced it and how my idea of it has changed over time. And how we can be conscious in all of our life. In our relationships with ourselves, our partners, our friends, strangers. We are all conditioned from childhood and society. We react instead o...

Hello friends. This episode is similar to my earlier ones. It is a ramble of cosmic proportions. When I was little, like 5-7, my mom said I would talk on a fake phone for HOURS. To no one other than myself. And that’s what I felt making this episode. The energy of that little girl who has so many thoughts and just wants to share them. So maybe someone might respond back. So here’s an unedited raw...

Sounds silly right? But that’s been my experience. The more I hold space for my pain, the more I can hold capacity for joy. Borders are breaking down within me. I hold the capacity to love and feel more. Not only for myself but for others. And maybe that’s what we need. To feel our pain. And to do it together. Because we all have it. Pain is universal. And if I know that, I can love you no matter...

My partner Ben is trying to navigate life not based on fear. So since February, he hasn’t worked. He’s lived off of his savings. Because he doesn’t want to do anything just because someone tells him to. That’s our life right? From childhood we’ve been doing things we were told we had to do. You have to go to school, get a job, vote for this person, watch this, wear this, look like this. We have la...

I took two weeks off of work for my mental health, and it has been the most eye opening experience of my life. This episode I talk about the conditioning of needing to “work”. How this idea has taken us away from ourselves, our planet, each other. For the past two weeks I have learned so much about myself, why I’m here, how I want to show up for myself and others. How work is just a waste of our l...

Hello friends. This episode is vulnerable. I discuss how Bowen family systems theory, which looks at how trauma is passed around in generations and in the family’s, looks in my family. And maybe looks in yours. And how when we can take responsibility for our role in our lives and in our family’s, which transmits to our relationships outside of our family’s, we can change for the better. We can hav...

This is about love. Coming from a place of the heart rather than the mind. It’s about how the mind works more in an animal survival way and the heart comes from a human perspective. It’s there to help and heal. I talk about trauma (as usual) and how unhealed children basically run the world. And how they just need some love and someone to listen to them. I talk about the gift of this life and this...

This episode is a return to my roots on this podcast. Using cannabis, I try to articulate information on why we might feel anxious when using cannabis, what it means to actually be yourself, family systems theory and at the end there’s a little breathing exercise I added on a whim. It’s a good episode full of rambles and rants and love. I hope you enjoy. ❤️

Two episodes in a day? Yup. This one is in response to the one prior to this. It’s about how we should enjoy ourselves and live to our fullest potential, regardless of fear. Regardless of judgement. Because if we live in fear, we limit our experiences. I’m alive once, for all I know. I am of the nature to die. I am of the nature to get old. So why not enjoy my body and my abilities and try to acce...

Hello friends. This is a ramble about finding your worth. Knowing that you are worth being seen and heard and shared and so is everyone else. We all have gifts that can be shared. This ramble is also about forgiveness, of the self and of others. I hope you can find yourself in it. ❤️

Anchor just informed me that one year ago today I published my first podcast episode. It’s so funny how the universe works. I’ve unconsciously spent that past few days listening to old episodes, comparing them to the ones I’ve been putting out lately, and seeing where and who I was to where and who I am now. This episode might resonate with you. It might not. But it’s the one year anniversary of t...

This is a ramble that starts with what an interaction with a child taught me. That we are all born to love. We aren’t afraid of each other. We aren’t afraid to hug and kiss a stranger. We all want to love and be loved unconditionally. And why when we grow up that goes away. And how love is repressed in our society. How our idea of what god is and how it judges and punishes might influence why we j...

This is the first episode featuring my partner Ben. It’s wonderful. It’s full of wisdom and insight about fear, realizing what thoughts are real or not, how everyone is worth of forgiveness. We discuss schizophrenia, narcissism and how anyone can transform and grow. And how when you’re not afraid of things, those things are able to show up in your conscious in order to learn more about yourself. I...

Todays episode is one of the most important and beautiful episodes I’ve recorded. My brother and I have a deep and long conversation about what it is to be human. What our responsibility is as a human. Our divinity, what we are behind our flesh. We discuss hermeticism and ancient knowledge. We discuss the world we live in, how if we change internally the outside can change. If we come from a place...

A quick ten minute episode on what love might be. Maybe it comes with understanding. We can love anyone if we understand them. And if that don’t make you happy I don’t know what will.

This episode is a ramble about the lives our ancestors lived. The lives they didn’t get to live. And how that has effected us and the way we live. The way society functions. The way we feel about ourselves and each other. How we pass down the past to our children, how we live in the past. And many times, a past that is not ours. We inherit the gifts and goodness of our ancestors. But we also inher...

This episode is the first of many. Anger is something I’m very familiar with and not at all familiar with at the same time. What I say here is not definite, just a matter of perspective from where I am in my life right now. I think anger is a protector. I think it also covers up some emotions we may struggle to feel or let out. I think we are taught that some emotions are more favorable than other...

Hello friends! This podcast began as a way for me to simply talk about what was on my mind, to myself mostly. And whoever would listen. Surprisingly, many people did listen. And this podcast has transformed from simple (but vibrant) rants to now sharing my healing journey, discussing how I work with my inner child, and noticing what changes around me as I begin to change at my core. I believe we a...

Todays episode is about nudity. Literally and figuratively. How we are born into this world nude. We come as we are. No labels, no judgement, no shame, no embarrassment. We love ourselves and one another. We are open and vulnerable. And somewhere along the line we are told to cover up. That your body is inappropriate. The vulnerability and openness in you is inappropriate. Keep your secrets to you...

This is an important episode in my life. It is about identity death. How who you are and what you need to do or be can change. The roles that we’ve subconsciously been given don’t need to stay that way. We can be and do whatever we’d like. We can say no to things we’ve been made to believe we have to do. And when you do, the system you’ve been integrated into will crumble. Be it in your family or...

This episode is inspired by a talk from J. Krishnamurti and real life events. Why do we feel alone? When something happens to us, and presents loneliness to us, can we accept that as it is instead of what we want it to be or what it “should” be? If someone makes me feel alone, and I say “well I wouldn’t feel alone if this happened”, I am not accepting what is actually present. I am not able to fin...

This is a new segment requested by my friend and listener John. I will talk about things that make me happy. No more than 10 minutes in length. This is the ASMR of podcasts. It is recorded in a field with the sound of birds and trees blowing in the wind. Recommended to listen before bed or when you’d just like to wind down or relax some. Hope it’s as nice for you to listen as it was for me to make...