Chronicles of a Healing Soul

I knew I was supposed to be writing another episode for my Job series, but I was not having a great day. But then, as Providence would have it, the text in Job that I was supposed to be writing on ended up meeting me in a personal way. I hope that this episode can meet you in the same way that I felt met right where I was. Support my Work: Buy Me A Coffee ... Scripture Reading: Job 25-28 (NIV ‘84)...

I’ve noticed that it’s almost impossible to talk about current world events without hearing some anger in the conversation. And I don’t think the anger is unfounded. I believe it is an expression of our longing for justice. And when so much in the world is unjust, the longing is real. This is a complex conversation. But here are just a few of my thoughts on it. I hope that this podcast will be gro...

Have you ever felt far from God? Like there was this wall between you and God? Or maybe a wall isn’t the right word. Maybe it felt more like a dark chasm or thick fog. Today, we keep company with Job, a man who lived thousands of years ago but who felt far from God just like us. Hidden deep within his cries of agony, we might just find a silver thread of hope. Support my Work: Buy Me A Coffee ......

If I can manifest good things for my life, does that mean that the bad things are my fault? This is not just a theoretical question. It’s practical and important. We need to know if we can control the outcome. Because if we can that’s a heavy weight for each of us to carry. But if we can’t, then we need to know we have someone who cares who can shoulder that weight for us. Welcome to today’s conve...

“No one is comfortable with pain. Not the people in pain. Not the people watching the pain. We want to get out of it and help others out of it. And I think that’s what Eliphaz was trying to do.” But maybe friendship is not always about trying to help someone out of pain. And sometimes, it’s about helping them through . No matter how long it takes. Join me today as we reflect on friendship, sufferi...

“Here I sit in the dust with you. “And words are escaping me. “Which is funny because this meditation is literally just a bunch of words. But I’m hoping… I’m praying… I’m crying desperately to God that they won’t just be words. Because you’re pain is not just words. “It’s so much deeper. So much more real....” Hi friend, so recently I was really wrestling with some deep pain in my heart. I ended u...

What are you still waiting for? What’s that really important thing that you still find yourself longing for? Right now, I’m waiting on a lot of healing as well as some dreams that still aren’t fulfilled. In this world, we wait… a lot! We wait for a future spouse. We wait for our careers to finally take off. We wait to conceive a child. Waiting, waiting, waiting. And sometimes, waiting can be reall...

I cannot believe that one year ago today, I had just left my job due to crippling back pain and was just about to post my very first episode to the ‘Chronicles of a Healing Soul’ podcast! In the middle of SO much life transition, physical pain, and uncertainty, God gave me this gift. A creative outlet and a conduit to reach out to your heart: this beautiful podcast. So, here I am one year later. A...

Grief. What can I say about this word? It's a universal human experience. And yet all the sermons, podcasts, books, and YouTube videos often fall short of expressing the heart of loss.  All I can add to the conversation is my own honest experiences with grief. And the things I have learned as a result. I hope somewhere in there you resonate and are reminded that grief honors the one you loved and...

Hello friend, Today, I wanted to keep it short and simple for you. Here are just a few thoughts on navigating loneliness. Much love to you! Support my Work: https://buymeacoffee.com/elizabethhayashi Subscribe to my Substack ! ... My Reading: "When I feel alone" by Elizabeth Hayashi

This podcast episode is for the one who feels swept away by the current of uncertainty. Are the unanswered questions keeping you awake at night? Are you trying to solve life's equations, but coming up empty? Hi friend, welcome to Chronicles of a Healing Soul, where I share my own holistic healing journey to hopefully encourage you on yours!  Today, I share how I've faced a lot of uncertainty in my...

This podcast is for the one who never feels productive enough. For the one who always wants to do more than his or her chronic pain allows. Who wants to show people how successful he/she is, but at the end of the day secretly feels like a failure... Hi friend, welcome to my 'Chronicles of a Healing Soul.' Join me as we discuss the empty space of unproductivity. Perhaps there is more value here tha...

I recorded this episode for anyone who has felt isolated due to chronic pain or illness. In fact, the invitation extends to anyone feeling lonely at all. Hello friend! I know. I get it. I've been there. And today, I am exploring the idea of loneliness. What is it? What is the core need behind loneliness? Is it possible that solitude can actually be a tool to combat loneliness? It might sound like...

Tense. Clutching tightly. Always running. Do you relate to any of these descriptions? I know I often do. I have historically preferred control over letting go. And to be fair, it's a hard thing to do! But I'm here to say that surrender is so safe. And so needed. Last episode, I explored the need for stillness. And today, I explore the heart posture behind stillness. Namely, surrender. I share a st...

It's funny. In this current moment, as I'm typing these words, I'm doing about four different things at once. That is the kind of person I tend to be. And maybe you can relate. I have noticed that in an attempt to 'make things okay,' we tend to slip into anxiety loops. Or we slip into denial, using noise to drown things out. Either way, it's worth leaning into the stillness and silence.  Join me,...

So many things in life demand our attention that sometimes we forget about our physical health. Hey, I've been there, so I know. But today, I am stepping back and talking about the importance of prioritizing our physical health. Not because we need to measure up to some standard. But because our bodies have such inherent value. As a Christian, I talk about how God values our bodies and wants us to...

If you are facing chronic pain, you are not alone. My brother Jonny and I have both experienced serious chronic back injuries, in which we faced years of pain. We made it through, but we know how hard it can be. And we want to take a moment to share some of the practical tips and tricks we learned along the way. Join us for a conversation on exercise, self care, and dopamine regulation. As mention...

To read my poem 'Right Now But Not Yet,' subscribe to my Substack ! What happens when perfect spiritual realities meet imperfect physical realities? My story is just one answer to that question. Within the last couple months, I have been experiencing miraculous physical healing while also painfully aware of my humanness. Maybe you can relate. Or maybe you're only aware of the painful realities of...

Cancer. Nobody wants to hear that word. Nobody likes the things associated with that word... at least, not normally. But through an incredible and unexpected journey, my father-in-law, Dave, came to associate his own cancer journey with the love of his Heavenly Father.  When I sat down to interview 'Mr. Dave' (as the students at his workplace call him), I was honestly not prepared for the incredib...

It's so good to be back! After a much needed holiday, I'm back with excitement for this New Year! Even though I'm laying on my bed because of ongoing back problems, I decided to record a podcast anyway! I'm learning to live joyfully amidst pain. So, join me in my ponderings as I reflect on the new year and everything I've been learning about identity. Stick around until the end to hear me compare...

Christmas is a season when we ache to be loved. But what does it mean to be loved at Christmas time? Does it mean that we get the most glittering gift or that we have the most beautiful family? Or is it possibly something deeper?  Do you believe love can meet you in the dark moments of your life? I invite you to investigate a love that is real enough to meet you wherever you are today.   Music Cre...

Is it truly "the most wonderful time of the year"? While Christmas can be a happy season, it can also be a heavy season. The grief is real.  But let me ask you something: Do you believe there is a joy that can meet you where you are, despite the grief and pain? I believe it can, but it's gotta be real and powerful. And what is powerful enough to source that kind of joy? Is it possible that the ans...

What gives a child the confidence to dream big? I think it's because she has no reason to doubt her dreams. She has not yet experienced enough disappointment to cloud her childlike faith. She is so confident that every Christmas morning, there will be presents under the tree. So far, she has always found this to be true. But how do we keep dreaming when it gets hard? Hope so easily slips from our...

I cannot deny the divine healing in my life. But the miraculous might happen right where we least expect it. Sometimes, it happens even in the midst of the unpleasant.  Join me as I share how God has brought healing in my life! Also, happy Christmas Time!   Music Credit: Intro music for this podcast was mixed by the lovely STELLA!  My Reading: "Now I Remember" by Elizabeth Hayashi

Welcome to the 'How Does Healing Happen' Intermission! Today, I wrestle through the very human struggle of trying to balance both hope for the future and acceptance of the present. I admit, I have not figured this topic out! I'm posting this episode not to share a victory or a finding. But rather to invite you into forming your own thoughts and to spark conversation surrounding this topic. Dare to...