B Evolutionary: The Podcast

Audree's tarot cards were out this morning, and Michael realized "the tarot card is just a structured language of listening." It's a way to access awareness, the primary mechanism of evolution. The mind is the programmer, creating reality right now for all of us. Michael gets it on mic: "I kinda finally got everything we've been teaching." Say you're experiencing X and you want Y, in a relationshi...

Michael woke in the night, and again this morning, to the mind active with negative thoughts. He and Audree have both been in a deep, committed exercise: whatever is happening, internally or externally, saying "I am creating this," then going in to find the aspect of their being that's creating it. This morning even that wasn't there, just "this pure blanket of awareness," and the negative thought...

Audree is in a profound moment of what their work is. You are God. Not the God humanity has a definition of: unity consciousness, source consciousness incarnated in the physical realm. All the teachings lead to just one truth. She sees everybody sitting together in that truth, in a quiet moment of illumination: "Nobody is higher, nobody is lower." But if you don't believe it's true, it's not true...

That morning in the shower, it landed for Michael: gratitude for the mind, as an innocent. The mind is the one beating you up, telling you you're unworthy, creating the shit show of your life. And it is doing a perfect job. It gets a gold star. The usual answer is "screw you, mind," which is just the mind attacking itself. The knife cannot cut itself. You can't think your way out, because everythi...

Fancy French cooking cuts every carrot into identical squares. Tuscan cooking leaves the skin on and the pieces big, and the beauty is in the imperfection. That, Audree says, is this podcast: farm to table, natural, not machine-graded for sameness. That is the whole hour. Being human does not come with a manual. Audree went looking for one when she was pregnant; people look on YouTube and from tea...

An intense week of evolution, of unearthing the dead bodies, and Michael is mid-purification when it happens on mic. The mind turns back on itself, who am I, and touches the pure awareness of its own being. Michelangelo's ceiling, the finger of man reaching for the finger of God, the mind recognizing it was never separate. It is source consciousness. The new part: the unraveling keeps going and he...

The spark is one line: the mind is not the enemy. You don't get rid of it, because energy can't be destroyed, only transmuted. The work is the mind coming to wholeness. Love the mind that's creating the challenge. That's the way through. The mind is afraid that if you do this work it dies. It doesn't. You become more you than ever. Awareness first, always. When there's something correct for you to...

Two weeks since the last podcast, their longest gap, and all of it a deep program of evolution: a summer of intense training, a couple of months of letting go of identity. Everything you believe about the world is rooted in the perception that we are separate and limited, and it is anchored in the physiology, the neural networks, the brain. The shift now is not changing a belief but changing the e...

Michael keeps circling a Billy Idol line, from Eyes Without a Face: "I've spent so much time believing all the lies to keep the dream alive." The lies are the misperception of what and who we are. Dream is a D word, The Deviation, our separation from the truth. Spell it backwards, sound it out: merde, French for shit. Our allegiance is to those lies. Then Audree's ice cream story. The same mind th...

If we didn't need to make money, would we be doing this? Why put an article on LinkedIn, why even this podcast? The only reason to need to be seen or heard is survival. I need this love, this relationship, food, money, a job. Feel a lack in your life, that's survival right there. The background radiation is the ongoing fear, and the fear is about survival, because there's a separation: I'm alone,...

The Lion's Gate is coming, there's an eclipse on the 12th, and neither of them is an astrologer. They catch this off little blips on YouTube like everybody else. The question is whether any of it is something you actually need to know. Michael's answer is no. The last few eclipses moved consciousness for everybody and nobody had to prepare for them. Your life is your evolution program. The essence...

Michael comes in off a shower download and asks Audree to just let him ramble. He'd woken with the mind railing at him, you gotta go do this thing, you gotta go do this thing, and underneath it he found the mind running its model of right and wrong so it can feel safe. That took him back to the paradox that stopped him in the Shii session the day before. Sometimes it's right to ask for support, so...

"Welcome to our living room." They're mid-conversation about the myth that we use only 10% of our brain, and Audree teases Michael for stopping to look it up. But he's a stickler for a reason: in the work of understanding creation, even 0.01% falsehood is lethal, a hole in the field, and a whole field can't have holes. You are your spaceship; one leak and the air goes out. The myth also gets it ba...

Michael has spent the morning with the transcript of what the Shii said the day before, feeling into the mechanics of creation, and he sits at the mic still working it out loud. Partway in he stops cold: "I just found the loop." It has landed so fast that when they realize the stuck, uncomfortable place they were describing on the last podcast was only yesterday, he keeps repeating it, half in dis...

It was their nine-year anniversary yesterday, married in a temple in India about six months after they met, and neither of them said a word about it. Audree got some flowers, randomly; that was it. She can't stop poking at the avoidance. Nine is the last number in a cycle, so she knows the cycle is ending, and saying that out loud would make it real. Michael, it turns out, went just as quiet. Both...

The Shii don't spare Audree and Michael: you're not using the tools, you're not taking action, you're disregarding the guidance. One question does the real damage. Maybe you don't want what's on the other side. So Michael turns inwards: what if this were true? Everyone is wondering why the work isn't more successful, and the answer is a hidden no, living in his own system, quietly blocking the ver...

Everyone's chasing the same enlightenment - and Audree opens by calling the finish line a big whoop. Everyone is source consciousness; who cares; get over it. Get there and you find everyone already standing there. That's not who you are. What you are is the choices you make. From there, the harder claim: you chose all of it. Everything that's happened to her, Audree says, she's not a victim of -...

Michael wakes at 2 AM in intense fear over something trivial, and sees the real mechanic: the event is not the problem. His mind is addicted to the fear, and if it couldn't pick this, it would pick something else. That is where the episode turns, on an admission almost no one will make. Like the first step in AA, my life has become unmanageable, the gate here is to admit you do not understand the...

Michael and Audree were already talking about planets when they decided to just hit record. Michael, raised in a household of science where anyone linking the planets to life on Earth was "a wackadoodle crazy person," names the state he lived inside: you are enslaved by science. Speaking as an engineer and AI researcher, he draws the line a rational science would actually hold: we have no instrume...

Michael watches The Martian before bed, then wakes at two or three in the morning, the thought-sphere gone completely quiet, and something opens. Diving into his resistance to a hard experience, deeper than he has ever gone, he sees it: the resistance is the no, and the no is the choice for separation, right here. What you resist must persist. The endless loop of "situation, how do I solve it," ag...

Audree wakes before she has even opened her eyes, the early sun on the bedroom wall, and hears her own voice say something she has never actually said: "I love you, Audree." Not the mind's tidy version of loving herself. Something spontaneous, pure, and true. The first time, in this life, she has really meant it. That is where this one opens, after the longest gap the show has had. Two weeks in wh...

It starts in a dream. Michael is running down a steep, dark, snowy trail, easy because he isn't controlling it, just going where the path wants. Then it turns sexual and strange, and he wakes asking what it means. That opens a full life review of his sexuality: the man in Asheville who once thought Michael was hitting on him, an honest look at being okay with being homosexual or bisexual or whatev...

Michael and Audree finally watch 2001: A Space Odyssey, and Michael can't unsee it: the monolith hands the apes higher consciousness, and the first thing they do with it is pick up a bone and kill — animals first, then each other, for the water hole. Later HAL, told he'll be unplugged, murders the crew. Every leap in consciousness curdles into the same thing, and the thing is survival. From there,...

Michael starts the day before in "desperate futility and hopelessness." The next morning he records a private audio for himself — the one that opens this episode. The practice he's found: to poverty, to lack, to the complete loss of everything that matters, he says "Yes. Thank you. May I have some more." Not to get anywhere. The wanting itself — to win the lottery, to sell the house — is the push...

You keep waiting for the breakthrough, the peak state, the day it finally clicks. In the living room, Michael lands what he's been circling for two years: it's a ratchet. Awareness rises, which purifies and lifts your frequency, which makes the tools sharper, which ratchets awareness up again. High frequency without awareness, he says, is just half the solution. From there, the harder part: you ca...