Authentic

So many times I wanted to call it quits when starting out in my business. I was working hard for the money and the return was way less than the tiring hustle I was putting in. Steve took one look at what I was putting energy into - ineffective work, that was driven by a very limiting belief that women can't make money.  Support the show

Waking up from ignorance is an ugly process and I'm experiencing it right now. It feels like The Truth is staring you right in the eye, grabbing you by the throat and you're standing there in shock feeling all the feels that have been buried by ignorance. This is a natural part of waking up to your power and giving rise to the leader inside you. Sure it's yuck, but it's what mu...

I used to get to the end of year and be like, "oh I can't wait for the new year, this one's been sh!t! It'll be my best one yet!" I legit would think that the new year was a clean slate with fresh energy for the whole year. But I was dragging all my unreconciled crap with me, wondering why the new year wasn't living up to my false expectations. Little did I know (unti...

I've always known deep down what I wanted, and that somewhere deep down I could have it. But my ego believed that I couldn't have it - that I didn't deserve it, that it wasn't for me, that it just won't happen in this lifetime, blah blah blah. So I reconciled in my head why things weren't working out for me, losing sight and falling short of what I knew could be fulfi...

Oh I was the master of ignoring intuition. When I did, it lead to unnecessary pain, drama, chaos and shit that was (clearly) avoidable. Worst of all, I knew I heard the intuitive voice but ignored it out of being driven by my dysfunction. I cringe now with what I put myself (and others) through when in truth, I just didn't have to. Support the show

I hated my body for a long time and still have my moments of intense body "ugh"! Back in the day I felt disgusting, gross, fat and different, often believing I was inferior to anyone who was thin. This moved into eating disorders, drug abuse, disrespecting my body through sex, zero boundaries and cutting myself off from experiencing orgasms. In a nutshell, I wanted to punish myself for s...

My greatest fear is being rejected. My biggest limiting belief is that I don't belong in the world. I never know what's coming around the corner that's about to trigger my poor little ego and all its fears. Sometimes I handle the trigger with grace, other times not so much. Here's a story where grace wasn't really present. Support the show

Your ego cock-blocks your pure intended ideas that are downloaded from the spiritual plane. The idea lands in your mind, your ego doubts and asks, "how the fk do we do this?" Very quickly, self doubt rocks up and before you know it the idea has vanished when all it wanted was to see the light of day and be expressed. To see your ideas through you must master your ego or else it is the ma...

Steve was climbing to the top of an illusionary mountain of obtaining it all, hoping to find happiness. But when he reached the top he was no closer to happiness, if anything he was further away. What came next was divorce, the loss of his children and family, his company, his wealth and entire identity. This is a story of complete identity crisis and choosing to rebuild from the inside out. Suppo...

It's easy to look at my two mates, Toddy and Trent, and think they have it all. They couldn't possibly have any bad days or anything wrong with their life. But that ain't the truth. From healing from divorce, mental breakdowns and addiction, these two legends are showing up with all the shit in their pockets, bearing their hearts to the world and creating well-rounded communities wi...

When you say you're going to do something and don't do it, you erode self trust. Self trust and following through is something many of us seek but aren't prepared to do. The ego wants to do things that are easy, that it knows how to do and looks for shinier objects to focus on which causes distraction. The distraction leads to not following through on your original intention and the...

I stand behind that being a true leader is to lead from the front. That you can show up, not be okay and still be a powerful fkn legend. I believe a true leader doesn’t just preach the, “it’s okay to not be okay” message, but instead embodies it and applies the tools to shift the shit. Support the show

It's painful watching the people around you that you love suffer. You want to help them, cheer them on to victory and offer pumped up words in hope of inspiring change. But if you're doing this, nothing is changing and you're meeting resistance, here's what I suggest. Support the show

FOMO often got the better of me, which meant it took a while to stop habits like smoking, drugs, binge drinking, binge bitching, binge complaining and all the rest. My people pleasing desire to fit in and be part of the gang overrided my true desire to live life how I wanted to. I had to make peace with the fact that shifting to a new level of life involved growing pains and that my life wasn&apos...

I hate to admit it but yep, I do have control issues and it comes out in the form of wanting a perfect house with perfectly puffed pillows that are perfectly colour coordinated. Over the years I have made this matter more than what is truly important and it's been recently tested since becoming a step-mum. For anyone out there who knows what I'm talking about, you'll want to listen...

You can be anxious about your dreams and still fulfil them. You can be overwhelmed about your souls vision and still bring it to life. You can be scared about making changes that lead into the unknown and still take that step forward. Trying to fix the sh!t conditions before fulfilling your dreams only puts your dreams heartbeat on hold and keeps the unwanted condition alive. Meet life heart on wi...

Steve and I don't fight. We sure as hell see things differently (because he's always wrong and I'm always right, haha), and we absolutely have our moments where we want to yell, scream, shutdown and control the other - but we don't. We have committed to a relationship that has a certain energy, emotion and vibe and when we're off path, we do specific things so we remain co...

Making powerful choices and decisions means you are a powerful person, and most of us have forgotten how powerful we truly are. I catch myself plenty of times pretending not to be powerful and it results in behaviours that are counterintuitive to where and what my heart truly longs to do. Awareness is always key to shift the sh!t but it isn't enough - you have to do something about. Support t...

You contribute nothing to your life, others or the world when you sit on the sidelines and comment on all the things that would be great if they were different. For real change to take place you've got to stand up, rise up and walk down to the arena of life and overcome your fears of playing big. This is what I faced when becoming a step-mum. Support the show

Overwhelm is a state your ego creates to act incapable, taking your focus away from the obvious next best step. When you're overwhelmed you feel lost, confused, blocked, stuck, stressed and all the fun things (not) which literally blocks you from knowing what your next best step is. But as always, when there is a will, there's a way.  Support the show

The first meditation class I ever ran, one person showed up. The following week, no one showed up, and you should have heard the narrative that went on in my head. I was convinced I should give up on my business, pull the plug and never attempt to live my purpose, but instead turned to my heart for real guidance. It was then I understood what it meant to shift the plan WHILST holding the vision, a...

I have demonic present to this day but they don't frighten me like they used to. In the past they frightened me because I believed every word that voice would say and it led me to feel down, flat and act in ways that weren't in line with my true self. This only made those thoughts seem more real and turn up the volume. Support the show

I had a constant tug of war between my head and my heart. My heart wanted and knew I could love and be loved in return, but my little ego believed I was too messed up for anyone to love me. It was torture. ​​And even though I wanted to be in love I was scared to let love in so I kept attracting men who weren't emotionally available which reinforced my belief that I'd be alone forever. A...

Pretending to have my sh!t together to the world had me falling into a heap when I'd shut the door in my one bedroom apartment. The fake-ness and inauthenticity was haunting me and I kept people at go-go-gadget's arms length so they couldn't see the real me. I would deflect conversations away from myself, defend my reasons for shutting people out and was defiant in many ways. But as...

I set a cruel intention seven years ago that I had to wake up happy and be happy all day in order to be a good spiritual person and a coach. Ugh, I know! This intention was a wasted chase of striving for perfection for six months, inevitably leading to stress, being down on myself and losing faith on the path I was walking. Lucky I caught myself out! Support the show