Musings w/Musings

A new day… to do more - lol I don’t need anymore to do really and I am coming to the realization that I do not need more to do. I can be a little busy body. No I have been a little busy body for a long time. If I wasn’t doing something I would get into something. Learning to sit in peace without expected, or putting those expectations on myself to do more. It’s not like every move I make is not va...

“… I’m a woman, but first I’m a person. And as a person, you do not outrank me.” It is now September and I recorded this in August. To be transparent, there were a few musings before this - about five- that had no audio because the mic malfunctioned. I think I had some good musings during that time too. I know how to talk, but I am also quiet. My musings usually happen during a quiet space of time...

I have been wanting to dance for a while. Yes, I can dance in my house. I can dance freely in my backyard. I have access to music anywhere in my house. I have playlists for several genres and feelings. I don’t want to dance in my house, though. I want to dance in public, like in a club. It doesn’t have to be every weekend, but every so often I need that release. I feel like that is something I can...

Life be lifing… I’m not really here to make you understand me. That would take too much time to connect all the dots to figure out the way I move. I involve myself in way too much to be over explain myself - or so I believe. Trust me I still believe this… With friends this type of moving still worked because we all had our own goals, dreams, and other personal obligations. With parenting not so mu...

“Hey it’s Musings with Mookie".” That’s it that is the intro. I hardly ever ask how you are doing. That’s just how I roll in when talking to someone. I’m not sold on if I am wrong because it seems repetitive and others label it emotionally absent. A greeting isn’t an emotion though - it’s an inquiry. Then comes the personhood flow chart and how to show care… but you HAVE to do it everyday in the s...

You can’t miss what you never had is true and false - a false negative. You can’t miss a mother’s love if you never had it but you will chase a connection that seems fleeting. You might have never experience a roller coaster ride but that one time when you were on a swing and you got so high that you felt that weightlessness that you couldn’t describe and wanted that again. Early on, this phrase w...

The thing with be a writer is that you have to be clever. Life itself is about being clever and at times it is slow. In writing you have to keep the clever going either by explaining a thing in long flow where you don’t get lost in using so many words. I learned in my last job not to bore the audience. You are here to deliver information and you have to tailor the information to your crowd. Some p...

Today but not today because by the time you read this, today would not be today. I hope to persuade you that the previous sentence is correct. Or convince you that I have not used AI. I haven’t used AI, at least not to write this. I use AI is as a tool and to convince myself that I am great (I like being told that I’m good at writing and not believing it at the same time). Before I used AI, I was...

It’s something about being responsible and being a chaotic that has been my internal motto. Like sneaking out the house, but sneaking out with someone who’s been there before. Like kissing boys without guidance, but not all of them. Playing the odds with my grades in HS - I stopped seeing the future for a bit. Going to a frat party, drinking and then waking up to go run it off. I love a good time....

I was riding in the car with my oldest and they say this area is getting bad. Not bad with violence, although there has been an uptick in theft. No longer safe to leave your garage open or have windows that can be seen through. There is so much construction and new businesses brewing. They put all the nail shops on this side of town now - with three of them being the same franchise. the traffic is...

Collectivism is a social, cultural, or political philosophy that prioritizes the cohesion, goals, and well-being of a group over individual desires I have been figuring out how to reach the collective but not in a way that brings about a homogenous group. I’ve had a taste of the world to prefer to live homogenously. I can get along with a myriad of groups (except bigots, I have my limits). In soci...

I love magic. I’m not a diehard fan when I am chasing a magic show, but I enjoy when it happens. I had only met one magician in person and it was around Atlanta. I haven’t seen him on my IG feed lately. I was at AfroPunk one year when I ran into him and he performed a trick - he made something disappear. I was so surprised that he could make the solid object disappear. On the other hand… Yes anoth...

Today, July 2, I am typing up this section after deleting a previous paragraph or two because who will every know outside of my confession. And how will I ever remember outside coming back to this post - I won’t. What I will do is be determined to make choices that affect the people around me positively - at least I will try in most things. We all should try more. Try not to make the world your pe...

Intention: a mental state where a person commits to a course of action to achieve a specific goal or purpose Recently I heard from passing media on whatever platform I was scrolling through said that there are a number of people that do not have inner monologues. Like just going through life without some sort of soundtrack or mental visual feedback. How do they design stories? The people having th...

What is your personal threshold? Threshold: a boundary, limit, point of entry Are you aware of what your limit is? Where life doesn’t surprise you when it becomes chaotic in what seems all of sudden but not really? The point of where something happens and you say think “Wait, this is too much. Time to call knock it off.” I do. They are known only to me. Some call them boundaries. One threshold I h...

Good day. I woke and meditated and in that came the message to make this blurb short. It is a day, well weekend of celebration to explore new tings. So go outside and enjoy. Have fun. If you have been to a Greek festival, Mardi Gras, or a St Patrick’s day parade, and survived, then you can go to a Juneteenth Celebration and enjoy yourself. Have fun! Mookie 💜 *Juneteenth is already a federal holid...

For a moment there while listening to the audio, didn't know why the subtitle was ‘Delusion.’ I’m at the age and in the galaxy of my life where I ask the question “ why would they promote that, when it has no empirical evidence”, or in simple terms, not true. Soon I pull my like or share because upon further investigation it wasn't a true source or reliable information. There were standards on how...

Life is filled with illusions. I live in what is considered a first world country but it feels like a first world zoo. Instead of being behind a concrete enclosure, we are behind an easily climbable chain-link fence. The entrapment of the fence is an illusion but we are comfortable behind it because of the timely dropping cost of food or the notion it could be worse. I remember as social media bec...

Have you ever been in a position of assumption? I feel like that should be a separate title that comes with pay or at least some type of compensation. A little something for my trouble. In one job they call it an ‘Special Experience Identifier’ or SEI for short but you weren’t always paid. An SEI is just a special set of skills or skill that isn't used everyday but once you got it, it is invaluabl...

Isolation: the complete or near-complete separation of an individual from society, a social group, or outside contact As I write…well type this, I don’t remember what the audio is about and I’ll check after I am done typing this up. That is how isolation begins. It begins with an innocent I’ll get to it later then grows into a projected lack of care. Projected onto friends, family, coworkers, asso...

I recorded this musing before I published my latest poetry collection. The journey is half the battle is the saying. The journey is usually the hardest part you don’t remember. It’s the long hours of worrying before you even start. It’s the planning and one line of information that you are unsure about. Consider the creation of an application program or app for short. There are thousands of apps....

She is no longer my step daughter legally but it was never of her fault… Recently there has been a discussion about jealousy and whether it is a valid feeling. My stance is that it is a valid feeling. Going through life I never considered myself a jealous person. I didn’t feel I had a reason to be. I wasn’t rich and for the window I was viewed through, grew up in poverty. My mother received assist...

When you listen to the audio, please understand I didn’t kill anyone… I find myself censoring myself often. Censor myself for friends, family, colleagues, strangers because all the world’s a stage or the coercion of making my first impression my best impression. It seems like I am constantly having to sell myself but with edits. I don’t want to have censor myself because my initial voice is not pl...

What does it mean to be young? Why is there a sliding scale on being young? To save characters - we are jumping right into the “adult year.'“ One gets to 18 and and you are young. Get to age 21 and still young. Age 25 and your insurances is supposed drop but you are still young. Reach 30 and you guessed it - YOUNG! Is this sliding scale handicapping those reaching for the rung of adulthood on the...

Who are my listeners, and/or readers? Who are you that have found yourself a part of my small, soon to be large audience? Are you part of the collective that has grown weary of mundane repetition when you expect growth of a certain evolutionary maturity-no, expansion- of the mind that we are not a layperson of destruction? ~we are animals though not to be a continuous warring species~ What needs t...