Midnight Wisdom

23:58 07.12.2025 with mo

23:53 30.11.2025 Was mean to my housemates and I don’t care.

23:16 21.11.2025 Had the best Muay Thai training today with Kru at SJMT. Trained with Christopher. Had a fantastic time. Learned many new things. I listened to Joe Rogan and Trump and also Elon Musk while playing hollow knight. That was a lot of fun. Missed a Japanese class on Monday while I was working at we work.

23:47 16.11.2025 Anger is owning me right now. I’m also Letting it. Post tea party. Coaching with Sven. Dreams intensifying.

23:51 09.11.2025 Closing tabs. After a full moon and a lovely date. I want to record another one as well.

23:48 02.11.2025 Hello November.

23:01 26.10.2025 daylights saving. Living in my own cave. Finding balance and love again. Taking time to heal and read and practice and learn the right things. Yalla.

23:15 Discipline and purity are the topics.

23:15 12.10.2025 I had a walk after eating on the 9th in the evening and it was great for going through all my topics. A lot of changes now all of sudden. Makes me think I’m living in a sit-com. I’ll have to record about it soon. Good night.

​10.2025 21:26 My best hurts but i’s fine. Im getting to see my heart in an entirely different way. The leopard in me is howling, and it’s hungry for life. I have a new hoodie and t shirt from my muay thai gym. They’re nice. Asked for red and white and got white and red. Accepted it.

20:34 28.09.2025 dressed in white. The ecoist subscription in my hand. Crossing the road. Red shoes and red feathery necklace. Tram still needs 20 minutes. Withdrawing cash, eating and going. I dont want to end my night because of a commitment that keeps me locked in place. Atm is here. Warschauer on a sunday.

22:35 21.09.2025 Resting in bed. Remembering to remain compassionate.

14.09.2025 23:48 Sunglasses on in my room. After theater and dinner at my place. Baba in the hospital. Mom lonely and lost. Me, lonely and lost. I want to choose where to go and get there. I don't want to stay in circles. No amount of meditation or fighting and working out is going to get me to where I would like to go. I want to get there through myself and hard work. I know where that is. Pa...

23:42 07.09.2025 About to fall asleep. One week since Lila game. Back in Berlin from my travels, to figure myself out again and what I truly want. Close to finishing Casanova Memoires

2443 2 steps Four by four pillars 3 rolls I toyed with cooper while this was uploading.

22:52 24.08.2025 Left Eindhoven to Faro. Hope it’s a good decision.

17.08.2025 23:53 Im in bed, a bit tired. Lovely day with the children at Einhorn yesterday. Had an intense situation with a woman who needed too much too quickly and had very little grounding. She told me she felt my masculine energy as soon as she saw me. That she feels God between us. From the moment she saw me. I saw in her a love addict that does not know that she is addicted. Or maybe she was...

Rec: 08.06.2025 Up: 11.08.2025

Rec: 20.07.2025 Up: 11.08.2025 Recorded close to my home and reflect on everything. Didn't upload yet so uploading now.

Rec: 23.07.2025 Uploaded. 11.08.2025 I got high with my bong and relaxed. Processed, and watched 28 days later and commented on the movie as I did so. This was when my burnout period started. I gotta say, three weeks since isn't that bad of a number.

Rec: 25.07.2025 Uploaded: 11.08.2025

He replied with a lovey dovey message and didn't hear what I said. So I sent another one. 16.07.2025

Friend slept over and had quite the fight with me. I sent them this message the next day. Keeping it for memories. Sent on: 12th of July

10.08.2025 23:52 About to sleep. Watching The Gorge. Feeling quite tired. But like things came together again within me. After a lot of pressure was collecting behind a dam. Full moon came, full moon gone. Here we are.

03.08.2025. 22:56 I have no ego now. It just flipped. I don't have a personality. I geniunely don't. And me chasing things just to feel like I do is what's making me suffer. So it's fine. I don't have a personality and I don't need one. It's absolutely fine. I lost a friend, who wasn't a friend, after I decided not to pay for her movie ticket, popcorn and drink, whi...