Vanessa’s Lack Thereof

Just me realizing my intensity and how maybe I come off too strong. So I’m reeling it in a bit and making sure I am grounded enough to clarify why I’m like this. And see, I apologize. But only when it’s of my own free will and not forced or expected.

Here I am discussing how I hate playing roles to be “accepted” by society yet understand it’s necessary to achieve goals sometimes. I just want to be me (explosive, raw, edgy) but I know I must play it smart too. Ugh, this video game (“life”) is wack 💀💀💀

Happy Mother’s Day 2022. This is a reminder for mothers to share their child 50/50 with the kids birth father. As someone whose parent chose not to deal with me it breaks my heart to see and hear men talking about fear of losing their rights to see their child due to baby mama drama. I am in no way blaming women because I know it’s a struggle that needs facing daily and I am not taking mens side o...

Here I discuss how American society, culture, media, entertainment are misleading and can be detrimental. Everyone is at war for your mind so it’s imperative for you to be the sole person in control of you. Fuck people who have no loyalty, honor, respect because that’s got nothing to do with you. And if you are these people without, it’s never too late to think for yourself & follow values and pri...

Just saw this film and I love everything about it! This is definitely my vibe and what I want. Love seeing it and am feeling incredibly seen and heard because of it 😆

This is an episode about my physical body and the ways I have to operate to gain control of it. The “normal” methods have been ineffective for me and here I go again trying to solve this problem. Cheers to resilience and persistence ✌🏾😈

My unlearning of unwanted behaviors is still in progress so if I sound (insert negative words) so be it. This is part of the price I must pay so I am going to learn to do that with a positive uplifting attitude. Furthermore, should people be dumb enough to deliberately misuse my words to create some bullshit narrative in the far off future… “there’ll be hell to pay” (Jim Carrey, the Grinch) Becaus...

Here I am discussing why I believe that individualism eventually can turn to “socialism” (for lack of a better term) and so we do not need to worry or stress about everyone and everything. We just need to start where we stand and begin working on ourselves and that road will eventually (hopefully) lead to kinder, giving and more understanding humans.

Just me speaking on a time my dumb ass got caught stealing at Kmart. It was stupid, humiliating, and I’ve tried to push it down and forget it ever happened. But it did happen and I’ll be damned if I hide from it any longer. I will not be bullied or allow ANY mother fucking ONE to hold it over my head or try to make me feel some type of negative way. Plus part of this journey of mine includes tons...

Just me venting in real time about a trigger that randomly affected me. I cannot stand people hacking information and profiles for shallow, dumb ass reasons especially. So this is a psa to ensure I control me and my narrative as best as I can. And if you want to come for me just remember I will not go easy on ya. So better to just get a life of your own for yourself.

Here I am speaking on what I think “American values” are and how I am in the middle. I can understand both sides strengths and weaknesses and am still deciding my opinion on the matter. I am a big believer in the individual; the underdog. And also recognize the truth is at times uncomfortable, unkind and tough to swallow. But as long as we’re open & committed to the long term game I believe there...

I’m talking about people who say things like “easy for them to say, they’re rich, they’re at an advantage, they are an overnight success, they’re super human, they are above me” etc etc. Progress is a slow, long term game that requires patience, persistence, belief, certainty, exceptional self love & self correction. You have to adjust yourself and be uncomfortable in the short term to see genuine...

Here I am discussing how I use my new mindset to impress upon it the idea and belief that I am an Alpha; a Leader. It’s been a long road just to get here and that makes it far more enjoyable for me to see positive wins. Every day you will be tested - so I’ve got to stay ahead 👣🗣🫵🏾🦾

I am realizing my body is not where I want it to be at all. There was a time this realization would wreck me so bad that it would change my mood to become more negative and I would hate everyone, especially myself. Nowadays I am less critical of myself and have found the inner strength to be who I am fully. Doesn’t matter how long it takes me to be in the meat suit of my dreams as long as I consis...

Here I discuss and document a proud moment of growth for me. I was acting with faith in myself instead of fear of what others may say or think. I understand this weird ass game of “reality” requires souls to play parts in our lives and sometimes it’s in an ugly light; bad taste. Still, the lessons are valuable and worth enduring by me for me. I am obsessed with this truest version of myself and no...

Here I am discussing how I’ve come full circle with Candace Owens and can now hear her words clear. Instead of spiraling out of control because my emotions rule me (so glad that’s mostly over) and also how I even can understand and see Kanye in a different light. I am pro using your freedoms (voice, heart, mind, body, etc) and cannot stand the way the media controls and misleads us. This simulatio...

Here I am discussing how 1.) I recognize the privileges, advantages, resources, etc I have & 2.) I also recognize I am what I call poor people, poor mentality, lack mentality, poor folks, etc so if you feel personally triggered I explain why that’s most likely true.

This is me suggesting to women, especially mothers or caretakers of young girls to encourage toughness. Probably an out of the box idea though I believe would serve girls & women greatly. It would make us better equipped to handle this cruel, ruthless world while maintaining character & self-love n confidence

Here I am talking about how re-wiring my thoughts sometimes required me to use methods I already possessed and knew worked for me. Small changes I thought would be irrelevant are what made the biggest difference in the long-term

Here I discuss how Amber Heard’s choices can teach us women A LOT about what it means when you become arrogant, lie, and fuck with others in unjust ways. Before we go to judge her let’s understand what’s happening and figure out a way to stop this type of behavior from being prevalent in mainstream media as well as daily life. There’s a better way for us and I will not rest until I find it and use...

Here I am discussing why I am tired of hearing poor people with lack mentality cry about the rich. Part of the reason you stay poor is because you see money and wealth as the villains and the other part is your lack of financial literacy as well as your lack/poor mindset. Your thoughts create your reality. Control your thoughts = Control your life 🤑🤑🤑

Me discussing the importance of seeing both sides to issues and using discernment to discover the truth. While also speaking about turning off comment sections on social media platforms because of negativity, criticisms, and trolls 🧌

One of the absolute greatest parts of this journey is when I can see & provide actual evidence to my growth. It feels phenomenal to prove to myself I can do hard things and stick it out until my work begins to move forward with me. Beyond proud of myself! This simulation called “the real world on Earth with humans” is a triiiip 👽🌎🥸

Don’t believe me? That’s coo. But IQ doesn’t actually matter especially since we can increase it whenever we choose if we decide to. You’re not better than because you got knowledge. Life doesn’t require it to have fulfilling, meaningful experiences so why should you??

As far as I am concerned there’s my truth, your truth, and then the actual truth. I’ve found living my life despite others harsh words is fulfilling for me. Not everyone is going to say and do what I want and it is my job to ensure I can easily adapt and move forward in my lane regardless. Man it’s been liberating. The truth, rather the main point of this episode simplified = freedom of speech alw...