Vanessa’s Lack Thereof

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Me talking about behaving childish, having fun and it pissing people off generally 😬🤷🏽‍♀️🙆🏽‍♀️💁🏽‍♀️

I’ve got Tenacious D in my brain because I keep saying “the mucky muck”🤓 Anywho I am talking about how I’m still taking actions despite my mental being off as well as my emotions. Doing a better job of overcoming in general despite my goofy ass and I’m grateful for it. Just believing it’s all gonna work out for mine and all highest goods.😎🙏🏾💗🧿

Don’t listen to this. I just get emo, triggered, and upset as fuck. I realize the common denominator seems to be me so I must be the problem as per usu. Oh well, at least it’s all uphill from here 🫠😵‍💫🫥

Testing testing… oh shit, is this thing on right now?

I’ve missed a few days recording and here I am discussing that. Proud that it’s only been a few days when it’s usually months (4-6) at a time. Progress is progress no matter how small and even if it’s not the progress I want to see. All great things take time to cultivate and I am no exception. Even though it can seem hopeless I’ve got to believe it will be worth it and come together in the end.

An episode where I am highly aware of my baby bitch behavior and am challenging myself to stay the course regardless. Eventually I’ll figure things out and thrive or I won’t and I’ll have to pivot and redirect my course. Either way, I am going to give my best efforts.

An episode where I speak on being in the middle, judged, laughed at, and underestimated. What else is new right? Still I keep trying and moving forward regardless of how bleak it may all seem. I know great things are on my horizon and I will keep behaving that way until I can’t anymore (because I’m dead and gone). Staying on my toes 🙋🏽‍♀️🫶🏾

Rich coming from me I know. But hear me out. I’m talking about doing you in a responsible, loving manner. You can do what you want, enjoy yourself and take precautions.

An episode of a rocky incident I had with my nephew at a swap meet that got me thinking 🤔

An episode on my mentality when faced with opposition from lack/poor mentality

An episode that starts off rocky then turns into a genuine confession of being forced to be around certain individuals. I hate it when this happens but I’ve got to stay on top of it and handle it as best as I can. Only time will tell…

Me speaking to young girls and ladies about what it truly means to be empowered.

Remember Vanessa: do not judge lest ye be judged. Big bodies are just as beautiful and there is no actual standard for what is “acceptable” as such. So calm the f down and live your own life n quit worrying about others.

Just an intense rant on how stupid this abortion/Roe v. Wade conversation is to me. Like people don’t have better shit to do. I’m definitely not coming off in a positive uplifting light so beware. The emotions and sentiments are true for me right now as this person sooooo 🤷🏽‍♀️🙎🏽‍♀️

I don’t agree with nor like it when people replace people whether romantic or platonic styles especially fast. Seems disingenuous to me. And so I essentially just harp on this point for the entirety of this episode

After listening to men ask women what they expect from a man interested in being with them & then asking the women what they bring to the table I was compelled to share my thoughts. I genuinely never thought of this question and find it highly intriguing that this a “thing” nowadays. Perhaps not your average perspective nor the “right” one but nevertheless I share my thoughts regardless 👽✌🏾

In this episode I am pleading for women to be more solidified within their relationships and especially their romantic ones. Quit allowing outside influences to infiltrate your bonds because for all you know they could be a wolf 🐺 in sheep 🐑 clothing. You don’t need permission to do what you feel is right and only YOU know what is best for you 💯% of the time. Trust in yourself.

Here I am discussing why it is frustrating when women dress sexy to workout then condemn and label men as sick perverts for looking their way. How you feel vs actual reality are often polar opposite and it is imperative to recognize this. No it’s not fair and yes it’s a pain in the ass for women but what else is new? Just remember sex is an innate need for humans and to condemn folks for ogling wh...

An episode I am talking about how alpha women get confused with what this means. Often it has a negative association but I don’t think it’s a bad thing when done respectfully. Alpha does not always equal dickhead so there’s no need for that shit Vanessa!

This is me talking about a video a psychologist made on her study of hookup culture. Women seem to get the short end of the stick. Many struggle to understand what hookups are, think it may lead to more, and end up hurting deeply when it hits the fan. So I am here to bluntly illustrate what hookup culture is for us and how, ultimately, we decide whether we will participate in it or not. Stop blami...

Just me going through the motions again because the journey has many twists and turns and dull moments that are required so I am just pushing through in the best ways I can.

Just me being vulnerable with my loneliness and sadness. Not very uplifting but necessary. Plus crying is a release which means it escapes my body when it would otherwise remain there festering. Furthermore, love, loyalty and respect are necessary for anyone interested in access to my inner circle and world.

This is a horrible recording of me having unorganized thoughts, tired voice, and stumbling through my words. Still I am keeping the momentum going by showing up for myself, especially when it’s a challenge for me to do. And I did it! Yay!

Here I am talking about power posing in public and how awkwardly painful it can be. Leading is a tough gig and I’m not sure why I feel so called to it but I’m willing to struggle through the process to learn what is necessary to be an exceptional leader. Part of this means practicing what you preach so that’s what I am doing consciously these days. I’m leveling up myself and those in my circle ⭕️...