Utar Chadhav

Continue the gentle roller coaster ride with Fareed and raji in the second half of their conversation as they talk about their pleasure explorations, non-normative rhythms and the mixed bag of emotions that comes along with creating archives of their own experiences of pleasure, inspiration and joy. They converse about what archiving pleasure and inspiration stories mean to Utar Chadhav and its ma...

Come join this gentle rollercoaster ride along with fareed and raji as they talk about pleasure and liberation, community and inspiration. They bring in stories from their lives, touching upon intimacy, vulnerability, and how the movies factor into all of this [there's a not-so-secret watch list in their chat! Has a movie stayed with you so long that it inspires you?]. Fareed and Raji celebrat...

Has this hot weather, humidity and rainy season got you feeling static? Fret not, you are not alone in this feeling. The unpredictable weather and even more uncertain world scenario has us feeling down too. In these trying times, words of inspiration and little pockets of joy mean so much, don’t they? Luckily, we have just the thing for you! We have recently had the privilege of hosting conversati...

eric and raji met in the summer of 2009 at a party. For raji meeting eric changed the course of their life. eric brought an intentionality that raji always craved for. They started having candid conversations about pleasure and desire. Last year raji asked eric if he would want to record a conversation about pleasure and inspiration the next time they met.  And so in May of 2025, they went camping...

Music is a source of pleasure and inspiration but what does the उतार चढाव of inspiration and pleasure look like, feel like, for a singer and songwriter? In this conversation SJ speaks with their friend Sajen who is a musician and a singer releasing their first song “Kaalpanik Fulbaari” tomorrow, Friday June 20th! The conversation takes us through Sajen’s journey of many becomings-- becoming a sing...

The love for letters, discovering our favourite writers and sharing our collective rage and grief, we have come to realize pleasure is not a linear feeling, nor inspiration a one way street . Listen to Navin in conversation with raji as they talk about how words, poetry and literature inspire us. The conversation loiters into many tangents as घत लाग्दो conversations often do. Intentional गफिने प्र...

XXX Language and the written word are powerful.  Listen to a conversation between SJ and Akh, besties and co-conspirators coming together to talk about the dating scene, sharing ज्ञान  that they have learned from experience which you will surely resonate with. As you listen, think about people in your life you can start these conversations with.  Here at UC, in our own exploration of sex, intimacy...

Listen to this fun, musical and inspiring conversation between Saru and Suneeta Regmi, senior advocate who has been part of the Utar Chadhav journey from the very very beginning! Our lives are multi-storied and we are transported to many possibilities of inspiration and pleasure when we come from a place of curiosity and tentativeness. What is revealed then is a knowing of what moves us, what help...

गफ गाफको rehearsal गरौँ, नयाँ studio सँग familiarize हौँ भन्दै सुरु भएको संवाद तपाई माझ टक्र्याउँदै छौँ ! के के न हो यो शव्द chronobiopolitics बाट things your sex-ed teacher should have talked about but probably didn’t देखी talking about sex without making it sexual गर्दा खेरी निस्कने conversation to importance of basic respect to question “is separating art from artist valid?” to many more. हामील...

Often we are told that there is a right time for everything - a time to turn into an adult, a time to understand our sexuality, a time to mature into our desires, a time to figure out ourselves and our bodies, a time to grow up. The society we live in has decided a timeline in our life for when things are appropriate; a chronological timetable to live life the right way.  But what happens when we...

Navigating autistic journey can be tricky. Sometimes there are roundabouts, other times there are days of JOYs. Here we have come up with a map that shows our journey after and during the course of diagnosis and exploration of autism.  During April - Autism Awareness/Acceptance month on year 2024, Meraki Chhen along with Utar Chadhav got together in an attempt to deepen the understanding of Autism...

In the 1st part audio of two part series on “Autismका कुराकानी” you will find Meraki Chhen and Utar Chadhav conversing on Neurodiversity and adult diagnosis.  Meraki Chhen is a space for the celebration of nuances of human lived experiences in terrains of gender, sexuality, neurotype and sociocultural pluralism. It aims at furthering discussions and expressions surrounding queerness, adult neurodi...

पत्रका कथा, शव्दका कथा, कागजका कथा, कलमका कथा, मित्रताका कथा यसपालिको episode is an ode to letters . Thank you for making our expressions easier and intimate through paper and pen. This is our love letter to you and to the art of letter writing.  सुन्नुस ल! Co-creators : Raji & Saru
 Audio and Mixing : Rajan & Saru
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प्रिय Listeners, अमिट माया <3 From time to time from our Instagram handle we keep asking, “What are the topic you want to hear from us?” One of the buzzwords we hear every time is #Adulting.  Adulting felt like a topic that we are also questioning time and again. When we started the conversation as part of podcast production, we had no idea where we would land. Hopping from a closed group conve...

Cheers Ep. 9 on air! In this episode we talk about the role of alcohol in our lives. Whether we drink or are sober, stories about alcohol impact all our lives.  Our intention here was to have a landing space to talk about these stories, some joyful, some funny and some sad. We had a lot of help from our friends in unpacking this topic, listening to each other and coming together to feel the उतारचढ...

“दिन पनि गाह्रो, लिन पनि गाह्रो OR the art of giving/receiving compliments.” Our quest of finding answers to the above statement led us to loiter on compliments. We are pretty sure this has been a hustle for you as well! How to give good compliments and how to more importantly gracefully receive and own compliments? We were curious about these questions at the beginning of this journey to understa...

“The paper planes in the drawing are to define we belong somewhere. We never know where the paper planes land though sometimes we decide where it should land. We decide and dream our lives to live in a certain way but we never know what comes forth as the time passes by. Everybody keeps running back and forth searching a place where they belong, their home. The paper planes flies to the direction...

On August 12th, you came to listen to the rescuing joy episode. To see a room so fully packed gave us immense joy.  And today we bring you, in your own voices, all the things that give us joy.  Joy भनेको के हो त भन्ने प्रश्न अहिले झन् महत्वपुर्ण भएको छ। We believe that joy is a form of resistance.  #UtarChadhav # JoyAsResistance  #MentalHealthMatters #InSolidarity

This time we are going from “ बसी बसाई ” to “ अनि तपाई के गर्नु हुन्छ ?” This episode is for everybody who has been thinking about how to maintain a work-life balance. We bring a lot of strengths to our work - whether that be our ability to balance differing perspectives, our ability to lead, our ability to see new solutions, our ability to deliver under pressure, our ability to energize those aro...

Things that give us joy. Little things, big things. Stationery, barbecue, the first flower in spring, beautiful clothes…especially when given by a loved one. Sometimes, things that give us joy get buried in the mountain of things we end up collecting, and we find them one day when cleaning out our space. In our minds as well, things that give us joy get buried among the demands and stresses of dai...

June is Pride month. Pride Month is an entire month dedicated to uplifting LGBTQIA voices, celebrating LGBTQIA culture and supporting LGBTQIA rights. A month जहाँ entire year पर्दा पछाडी पारिएका stories and eventsबो लर्को लाग्छन् and त्यही लर्कोमा हामी पनि थपिएका छौँ। In this episode we talk about love. We hear a lot of coming out stories, the preparation, the anticipation, the hopes and the event...

Procrastination has many of us in its grip. Looking for solutions, we end up in rabbit holes - reading up about 5 ways to beat procrastination, the secret recipe to become productive and so on. For many of us, these lists become a bigger source of distress, when these “cures” do not work, and they start to feel like nothing can help them. Have you ever imagined what your procrastination would look...

In our second episode, we talk about the ups and downs of online spaces. Online spaces can bring us joy and connection when we feel sad and alone . We go on social media to share happiness with a wider audience. We laugh, we cry, we search, we play and so on. Going online and checking updates is often the first thing we do when we wake up, and last thing we do before bed. Simply put, online spaces...

Our first episode is here! We start off the UtarChadhav series with a conversation on breakups.  Break Ups are difficult. We grieve the loss of so many possibilities, yet, that pain is not acknowledged in the spaces and conversations around us. There is no word for "break up" in Nepali - and when the word doesn't exist, sometimes it is almost as if the experience itself does not exis...