Tripping Over Myself the podcast

In this episode, I return to the early weeks of my hospital stay — a time when everything I used to rely on was stripped away. With no routines, no escape, and nowhere left to hide, loneliness hit harder than ever. But in that exposed place, something unexpected happened: real connection began to break through. From the doctors and nurses who showed up without judgment, to the family who travelled...

Part 2 of the loneliness series. This is where everything changed. Full episode drops Wednesday. Follow so you don’t miss it.

Title: Loneliness Before the Bottle Not the kind where you're physically alone — but the kind where you feel disconnected even in a room full of people. Alcohol creates the illusion of companionship. The drink in your hand feels like friendship — until it wears off and leaves you hollow. I drank to stay lonely. And in that loneliness, I mistook it for comfort. This episode is about what came b...

I didn’t realize I was dying. I thought I was just sick... just hungover... just going through something I could handle. This moment marks the point when everything fell apart — when I was caught between a hospital bed and denial, unaware that I had been given only days to live. This isn’t a story about strength. It’s about what happens just before you’re forced to face the truth.

The only real judgment that exists is the one we place on ourselves. I wrote this down the morning we left for Portugal. My anxiety about flying had been building for a week. And on top of it, I was tangled up in worry about our little rescue dog, Frankie — how would she handle a flight from Canada to Portugal? The mind can't drain the anxiety swamp once it starts filling it. You drown in "what if...

In this episode, I open up another layer of the story — the moments we hide, the choices we question, and the quiet truths that shape who we become. Episode 9 looks at the turning points that force us to confront ourselves with honesty, even when it’s uncomfortable. It’s about awareness, accountability, and the small shifts that change everything. If you’ve been following the journey so far, this...

After receiving a life‑changing letter, Gerard enters the hardest stretch of his journey yet: the waiting. In this episode, he talks about the days that felt like years, the fear that settled into every quiet moment, and the urge to escape the pain the only way he used to know how. With a newborn at home and three lives hanging in the balance, he forces himself to face the truth sober — one cigare...

Episode 7 – The Letter In this episode, I read from my first book Tripping Over Myself and share the moment that shook my life at its core — the day a letter arrived that changed everything. What began as a normal trip to the mailbox turned into fear, panic, and the kind of uncertainty that makes the world feel unsafe in an instant. I talk about shock, silence, and what it’s like to carry somethin...

Comfort Becomes A Cage —Episode 6 – Spoken sticky notes on anxiety and alcoholism. Short, real stories from my life. No filler, just the moments that matter. 2–4 minutes. New episode every Wednesday. What starts as relief can quietly turn into routine. In this episode, I share how alcohol stopped being something I used and became something I lived inside—and how avoidance slowly replaced direction...

In this episode, I continue Chapter One of The Trails and Trials of Addiction and Anxiety and talk about how my first drink felt like relief — and how that relief slowly became a way of avoiding life. I reflect on how anxiety, loss, and the need to fit in shaped my relationship with alcohol, and how uneventful days quietly turned into years I didn’t know I was losing. This is a story about trading...

"I used to think that the first drink I ever took was a mistake. But looking back, it didn't feel like a mistake at all. It felt like relief." "When you’ve lived your whole life with constant noise in your head, silence feels like safety. But for me, that silence was a trap. I thought I was learning how to survive, but really, I was just learning how to disappear." "In...

In Episode 4, I share a lighter story from my past—when I thought I was headed to Nashville with a hit song and a $49 money order. It’s about hope, naivety, and the part of us that still wants more, even in the middle of addiction and anxiety.

In Episode 3, I reflect on how anxiety shaped my identity long before alcohol entered the picture. I talk about silence, avoidance, and the inner world I built to feel safe—and how that world slowly became isolating.

Episode 2 Before alcohol ever entered my life, my mind was already loud. In this episode, I continue Chapter One of The Trails and Trials of Addiction and Anxiety and talk about the inner world anxiety built long before drinking became part of my story. I reflect on growing up inside a constant loop of fear, imagined judgment, and self-doubt—and how silence, not intoxication, was what I was really...

In this first episode, I read from Chapter One of my book The Trials and Trails of Addiction and Anxiety and reflect on the moment I first learned how to quiet the noise in my mind. At thirteen years old, I didn’t understand anxiety, self-doubt, or why my thoughts never seemed to stop. I only knew that alcohol brought silence — and I mistook that silence for peace. This episode explores the early...