This Mama Rises Up

The title pretty much says it all. Going through a rough patch.

Faith

Depression; Starbucks epiphany; saw a beautiful deer 🦌; will it get better? 🥺; recording this episode proves my choice to live. I yawn toward the end 🥱. It was late.

It’s so good to be back. This is the first episode of recorded and over a month. And the time that has passed, I have learned that depression big D some thing that will be with me for the foreseeable future. Acceptance is my mantra. I had to puncture the illusion that one day, “ i’ll beat this thing!” I really hope this can help someone out there. If I had any message or wish for you, it would be...

It’s been a minute. Missed you all. I need this podcast and have added the blog (officially) as a companion to this podcast. thismamarisesup.com

Miss you all it’s been a while. This was in true this mama rises up fashion and that it was totally impromptu and they ended up talking about my personal father experiences, fatherhood and whatever else you hear on this episode. LOL. Love you all.

A 2-minute chit-chat interview with my first and unequivocally favorite guest on the podcast. This is meant to be my lighthearted counterpoint to all the suicide talk. I hope it lightens your mood and/ or brightens the moment for you. ✌🏽♥️

I share an experience about the above (refer to title). This issue maybe at the root of this entire podcast. But not sure.

I kind of ramble at the beginning trying to talk about self-hate and self-love but really having to be in the moment I realized but I need to talk about suicide. I’m feeling bad right now and that’s OK. You know what makes feeling bad and/or suicidal worse? NOT talking about it. So I thought I would model what that might look like. In other words, YES wanting to commit suicide is a terrible thing...

I wanted to add a little bit to be “why do I deserve to live?” episode by including a bit about the wonders and importance of Not-Doing.

1) How do I feel? 2) What do I need?

I answer the title’s question. More in second part. 😊

Title says it all

“I don’t know enough. I’m not smart enough. I need to research more. Who am I to do the thing? I don’t have anything unique to say so why bother?” ALL OF THE AFOREMENTIONED STATEMENTS ARE BUUUUUUUUUULLSHIT! You don’t need anyone’s permission or “blessing” to do a fucking thing of you feel moved to take a risk. You just fucking do it. The end. Just an FYI this podcast episode is for me as much as i...

I unpack how wanting to be of service to others is more selfish than it is “selfless”. My need to heal wrests on this podcast being useful to “at least one” person.

I would be tempted to call the state “trailer” but I hardly think it will trail you into the podcast. LOL. I’m just a depressed person doing a thing