The Pepetoe Podcast

In this episode, we'll dive into some of the deeper corners of my brain, and how I genuinely see life. From setting super high expectations (on myself and on life), to losing control when plans change, and a lot more deeper science of my brain! Us high-achievers do find it more difficult when mistakes are mad, when things don't go our way... but we make it out the other side each and every...

Lately, I've found myself in a situation with someone I know pretty well who has been actively rude towards me. And honestly? My first instinct was to overthink it. What did I do? Why are they acting like this? Do they suddenly hate me? But the more I sat with it, the more I realised something: being that angry, bitter, or rude towards someone must be exhausting. In this episode, I'm talki...

Welcome to The Pepetoe Podcast: The Hockey Journal. I'm so glad that you're here :) -------------------------------- This new series is all about my hockey life - when I started playing, the different teams I've played for, injuries, setbacks, captaining, being on the bench, and everythingggg in between! There's going to be a lot of juicy content here, so sit back and get ready for me to spill. P....

Today I'm reading through some quotes from an amazing book by Charles Mackesy, "The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse" (Amazon book link here ). The topics today are centered around forgiveness, asking for help, and discovering what a "perfect life" really looks like . There's something in this episode for everyone so get listening, get sharing, and get reviewing!! x...

I'm backkkk! And I mean it this time! This episode covers a whole lot of my life and happenings over the last month or so. A truly crazy time. From having time off training for my half marathon (ouch... this will hurt!!), to a full REBRAND of what is known as Pepetoe (this hurt too!). There's something for everyone in this episode :) My blog and pod are still under the name "Pepetoe&q...

It's been a while since I chatted to you guys... but I am back! And wow there is a lot I need to tell you all. Join me today for a more relaxed episode, kinda like a page from my diary, where I give you all the hot tea on what's been going in my life, followed by a pure rant about all the myths and stereotypes people assign to eating disorders and those people suffering from them, as I dis...

January can feel heavy, confusing, and strangely unfinished, and there’s a reason for that. Although the calendar has turned, the Year of the Snake doesn’t officially end until Chinese New Year on 18th February , meaning many of us are still in a powerful period of shedding, healing, and transition. In this episode, I talk about why it can feel like momentum hasn’t returned yet, why clarity comes...

2025 was the Year of the Snake, and if this year felt unbearably heavy, this episode will help it make sense. In this episode, I talk about shedding. Not habits or goals, but identities. The versions of ourselves we’ve been carrying because they felt necessary, familiar, or safe, even when they no longer fit. I reflect on what it means to release what’s heavy and false, to sit in the discomfort of...

In this Pepetoe episode, we’re diving into something painfully human and way more common than we admit: the deep-rooted yearning to be liked. I talk through my own experience of growing up as the “overachiever,” the person who built her entire sense of worth on grades, goals, and gold stars, and how that made the idea of someone disliking me feel like a personal catastrophe. From school drama to f...

Breakups are messy, emotional, and sometimes isolating. It’s easy to want to retreat, cancel plans, and sit with the sadness — and that’s valid. But it’s also important to remember: you’re allowed good days too. In this episode, I talk about why continuing to socialise after a breakup matters for your mental health, your growth, and your sense of self. From leaning on friends to showing up for you...

In this episode, I’m talking about something I never thought I’d have to unpack publicly: what it feels like when someone you thought was your closest friend completely lets you down during the hardest moment of your life. This isn’t about blaming or bashing anyone — it’s about sitting with the shock, the disappointment, and the realisation that the people you expect to hold you up sometimes disap...

This episode is about owning your mistakes – the kind that hurt people, cost you relationships, and left you questioning who you are – and still choosing to heal anyway. I talk about what it really means to sit with regret, take accountability, and still allow yourself moments of joy. Healing on your own isn’t about pretending you didn’t mess up; it’s about forgiving yourself enough to grow from i...

Today I'm sharing a big update with you all on my recovery journey. A full circle moment. Going back to the hobbies I used to enjoy, the passions that used to excite me, before my ED took over. I'm learning that I can go back to those things, because my eating disorder doesn't get to take that away from me anymore. From playing hockey again, to writing, to dancing in the landing. Those...

It's been a MONTH since I last chatted to you guys... and a lot has been happening. Some highs, and some lows, but all in all we're getting there! Here's a little "updates" podcast, explaining to you guys what's been going on in my life, from my recovery journey and getting the help I need, to spending more time with family and friends, and looking forward to the annual &...

In this episode, I’m diving into the messy, uncomfortable, but necessary topic of accountability . I talk about why it’s so hard for some of us to own up to our mistakes—especially when shame, fear, or ego gets in the way—and why real growth only happens when we stop deflecting and start getting honest with ourselves. I also explore what it looks like when someone else messes up—maybe a partner, a...

In this episode, I’m sitting down to talk about two things that have followed me for years: the pressure to “glow up” every summer and the toxic side of hustle culture that nearly burned me out in my early career. As I start a brand new job in a brand new city, I’m choosing something radical – a new mindset. One that doesn’t revolve around self-critique, reinvention, or chasing someone else’s idea...

In this episode, I’m catching you up on life lately — the highs, the scary bits, and everything in between. I’ve officially left my job (!!) and for the first time in forever, I’ve given myself permission to just be . A whole month off work to chill, reset, and figure out what I actually enjoy doing when I’m not stuck in grind mode. We talk about what it’s like to let go of structure, explore spon...

In this episode, I’m speaking honestly about something that’s been weighing heavy lately — the reality of mental health struggles in the workplace. From the pressure to always perform to the fear of not being “enough,” it’s easy to lose yourself in the chaos of trying to keep up. I share my personal experiences of burnout, what it feels like when your job starts to impact your self-worth, and the...

For the perfectionists, the overthinkers, the ones who always need a plan — this episode is for you. We're talking about what it really means to trust yourself, especially when you're in a season of uncertainty. Not knowing your next step doesn't mean you're failing. Wanting to rest doesn’t mean you’ve lost ambition. This month, we're ditching the pressure to glow-up, hustle, or fix ourselves — an...

This week on The Pepetoe Podcast, I’m joined by the amazing Synead — a true ray of light in the fitness and mental health space! We talk about what it really means to balance gym life, mental wellbeing, a full-time job, and a busy social calendar, all while learning to love your body along the way. Synead opens up about her own journey, the pressures of being online, and how she stays grounded in...

Winter's out, the sun's in, and it's officially time to thrive girlies!☺️ April's bringing fresh energy, longer days, and the perfect chance to hit reset on your goals. In this episode we're diving into the idea of April Theory - why this month feels like a magical start, how to harness that spring momentum, and the small shifts that'll have you absolutely smashing life 💕 Get ready to shake off t...

Your 20s are a whirlwind—trying to build a career, maintain friendships, have a social life, explore hobbies, and somehow still find time to rest. It’s the decade of opportunity but also of burnout, where balancing work, relationships, and personal growth feels like a never-ending tightrope walk. In this episode, we break down the realities of juggling it all. How do you manage your social battery...

A new series: Life in Your 20s 🎉 I feel a little hypocritical, as I admit I'm only 21, but nonetheless I still think I've got some things to say! Today I'm bringing you everything about friendships, particularly those we make in our 20s. The trend of "never be the coffee date friend" is showing up again and again on my FYP (not sure if it's a little niche, but you'll...

In this episode, we dive into the concept of independence—what it really means and how it evolves at different stages of life. From moving out for university to landing your first job and traveling solo, we explore the highs and lows of making it on your own. Is independence just about financial freedom, or does it go deeper into emotional resilience and decision-making? Blog | www.pepetoe.net Ins...

Lately, life has felt… heavy. Between navigating a breakup, feeling completely burnt out, and struggling with the pressure to keep going , I’ve had to take a step back and really ask myself—what do I actually need right now? In this episode, I’m getting real about slowing down, sitting with discomfort, and the messy reality of healing. I’ll also open up about my struggles with rest, the fear of re...