The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind

One's life is made up of experiences, and to experience the world is to experience every aspect of it through first-hand and second-hand accounts. But how does one go on experiencing? What is the value of first-hand experiences? and what is the value of second-hand experiences? How does one define an experience, as one that happens once in a lifetime? Check out my appearance on "1000 Craz...

In 2020, "The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind" was born out of one's desire to make conversation, even with oneself. That show has been going on, through highs and lows, for (almost) ten seasons. With ten being a nice round number, and things changing behind the scenes, one has to ask whether or not it's feasible or required to go past that nice round number. One has to ask, is ther...

When one wakes up, and eats, and rests, and sleeps, and then repeats these steps in the exact order, one can equate the sum of these activities to the feeling of numbness. Numbness that may have a clear reason or just comes from an array of different emotions coming together. The end result of that numbness is inactivity, and that leaves to uncomfortableness, and that leads to more numbness. Yet a...

Retrospection is tricky, because it will instill a lot of bad thoughts of missed opportunities. It's important to realize that when a new year comes from around the corner, to look at things more objectively. Was it a loss? or was it a change? Loss is understandable, but one needs to remember the gains and the wins. Depression tries to obscure them, and it's important to fight that.

As the Persian year comes to an end and a new opportunity rises for retrospection and introspection, one has to come to grips with the events that shaped that one year. While it is good to keep living life without allowing for past mistakes and past guilt to cripple one's ability to live, it's also good to acknowledge regrets and put efforts to reform the actions that caused them. So, with...

In the tenure of this show, only one episode has been skipped so far and that was due to covid. Now, a second episode joins it and this is due to something far more destructive, a movie production going overtime and inevitably, overbudget. So, what does one have to do other than put everything on hold until this behemoth is put to rest?

There are many stages when making a creative project, there's the initial excitement over new and interesting ideas, then there's the first doses of anxiety over the practicality of the project, and then comes the grueling process of pre-production. Where every cog needs to fit together, and those little doses of anxiety become a constant, and doubt begins to creep in. Such a magical time...

When one has feelings that amount to self-deprecation and self-hatred, one has to content with the feelings if one is trying to function. But sometimes, even knowingly, that lets more negative thoughts enter one's mind. Then one will foresee collapse of giant magnitude, and one knows that into each life some rain must fall.

Introspects can be enlightening and necessary every now and again. When one does something over and over again, one might become complacent and used to the motions, without ever noticing the tiny unsatisfactories that grate at one's desire for the activity. So, when looked through a critical eye, what can one notice about one's endeavor, and what should one notice about those endeavors?

Time is a limited resource. It is so limited and has such abundant a use that it will be used up even if one actively does not do anything with it. Because of that, it is the source of many quotes and many more anxieties by people who know of its finiteness. Yet, one sometimes deludes oneself into treating this valuable and hard to manage resource as if it is a mine in a RTS video game: easily ref...

Games are some of the most entertaining aspects of life. No matter how many times you got kicked in the nether regions and how many times you look at life with the sense of dread that it truly deserves, games can still bring you back stronger than ever before. Whether they are video games, choose-your-own adventure games, tabletop games or board games, games can really bring out a sense of joy unp...

What will happen the day after today has always been a subject of great inspiration and desire, and also great anxiety and fear. That effect will be amplified the more uncertain elements are added. When one looks at tomorrow and sees nothing but darkness, it can have rippling effects on today. From bad shopping habits, to a sense of doom and gloom that will engulf everything one holds dear.

A new year has dawned upon us and with it has come the time to take a rather poignant look at everything that the year has brought. Checking all the moments of joy and disappointment, and then looking forward to see what the new year might bring. It's fools' errand to plan out a year in advance, but what are we if not fools? Chapter 137 - 2024, Part I: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/sh...

A new year has dawned upon us and with it has come the time to take a rather poignant look at everything that the year has brought. Checking all the moments of joy and disappointment, and then looking forward to see what the new year might bring. It's fools' errand to plan out a year in advance, but what are we if not fools?

Mafia movies are a fun genre in cinema, and they encompass some of the best and the worst that Cinema History has to offer. So, when one decides to put a not-insignificant amount of time to exploring them through a self-inflicted challenge, the results could be an incredibly varied look through movies of all qualities. How good would it be then, if one decides to share that journey through what is...

In this episode I sit down and talk to one of my friends from my new uni and the director of the current project I'm working on, Mobina. We met each other in online classes in the early days of uni, and then finally got to see each other face-to-face earlier this year; and despite having not-the-best-first-impressions of each other, managed to hit it off pretty quick and become friends through...

Being "professional" is a sought-after label. It gives off the vibes of prestige and quality, no matter the reality. That label, can also give tools to opportunists and con-men to exploit their co-workers, underlings or people with less experience. It is a powerful tool as well, because in all honesty, being "professional" is meaningless. It can mean anything and everything, mo...

When one has felt an emotion towards an activity that one has neglected for so so long, it awakens certain thoughts and feelings in one's brain. When one looks at all that one wants to do, and realizes that there's more to see that can ever be seen, or more to do that can ever be done, those thoughts and emotions evolve into something a little more grotesque. They become fear, and fear is...

Sometimes, during times of duress and stress, one has to wrestle with thoughts that would try their best to diminish one's agency. The belittling self-disappointment and the monstrous weight of self-deprecation. When one is faced with such uneasy feelings that keep nagging away at one's soul, it's hard to look around and see the true accomplishments; or worse, it's hard to look aro...

When one peruses the seemingly infinite shows that appear on a weekly basis on an ever-growing list of different networks, sometimes there are shows that one finds in solitude that seems to speak with one. They're quirky, and cooky, and maybe a little spooky; but they are special to one. So, what happens when that show is deemed "not worthy" by its parent network? Well, that is the f...

The human body can suffer physical ailment for extended periods of time, to the point of humorous absurdity. These ailments can bring about physical weakness, irritable behavior, mental anguish and above all else a lack of peace, both of mind and of soul. Sometimes one finds itself in the throats of sickness, that has been going on for an absurdly long time and has caused so, so, so, SO many damag...

When one has a deluge of ideas and unrealized projects, it can hurt one's mental state massively. It can make sure one has to think of the many failures that one has experienced on a daily, if not hourly, basis. But when one is involved in an idea, it can sometimes bring about a spark, even a little one, to the glowing embers of passion and desire for more projects to be involved in. It can ev...

One's social ties are made through strings or chains, based on one's ability to form them. When those strings or chains become weakened and start to show signs of tearing, one will see oneself suspended over what could be an endless abyss. Mistakes will seem bigger, as loneliness looms. Little events will seem a monumental earth shattering moments that can have long-lasting effects on one's life....

Sometimes one's life falls behind of a perceived track constructed days, weeks, months and even years in advance. Sometimes the journey of life seems to not match up with expectations that one has for oneself. When those times rear their heads, the balance of one's life can be thrown out. When one falls behind on one's plans, desires, goals, and highly regarded future, one can experien...

When one starts their journey of creativity, oftentimes the joy of creation even without a tangible result can be rewarding in its own rights. Creation of minute details of little to no importance, or creation of the most elaborate systems to do the most mundane of things, is just part of the experience of making tiny worlds for imaginary people to inhabit, and is part of any artist's course....