The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind

The prospect of demise is harrowing, and so is the prospect of oblivion. Being forgotten is akin to a second death, and so when one is grappling with the idea of oblivion and being forgotten, the first instinct is to yell out to the heavens for all that can hear to remember. To remember is to have a degree of care, and so what happens when one is also grappling with the thoughts of carelessness? T...

When one looks through one's actions, some seem illogical, some even seem downright counterproductive. So, when one tries to work through why one does such actions, sometimes the answer is much simpler than one expects. The continued acts of keeping on to one's actions might be the answer. When one looks back at why one does certain things, the answer might be self-serving, but that might...

For anything in life, one pays a cost. Some costs are monetary, some are emotional and mental, and some are social. So when one is choosing one's path in each aspect, one is always countering and measuring what that path will cost and what that path will require. Sometimes in paying those costs, one becomes so broken that one will continue to pay without thinking. Sometimes though, great thing...

Sometimes, life will take such drastically unexpected turns that it will awaken many emotions at once. Other than annoyance at the changing landscape of one's plans, it will bring a litany of different thoughts, from nostalgia for similar moments in one's past to disappointment for similar moments in one's future. The old adage is that will no expectations will come no disappointments,...

Self is a construct made of thoughts, actions, abilities and insecurities. Each of them combine together will create the sense of self for one, and each of them are responsible for something in one's life. Insecurities have the dire task of depleting one's will to live and one's desire to act on anything. It is fantastically strong, and knows when to strike. So, when one views a video...

The desire to change one's life to better one's situation is a noticeable and worthy desire, but it can lead to heartbreak after heartbreak if one is not ready to accept some leniency. Change oftentimes can make one believe that the future is theirs to see, and when things appear less than ideal, that mindset alone will make one break. So, sometimes it's important to find solace, in un...

When one's life is in turmoil due to many inside and outside forces beyond one's imagination, one will experience lack of motivation. When the turmoil becomes too much to handle, one ceases to daydream and to hope, and so one will become still and unmoving. In those times, the best approach might be the fooling of one's self, and to move. Move by any means, even if the furthest one goe...

One's life is a series of images and actions being projected inwards and outwards, and those series of images and actions will create a cohesive sense of one's identity for one's own perception and others' perceptions. So, when one strays from that perception and the images and the actions, what is the outcome of such deviations? What happens when one is no longer fitting inside th...

When one lives through life, one experiences some memories as if they will be important later; and if one is too much into the art of movie-making or just generally a movie-geek, one will see them as cinematic moments. Cinematic moments that one needs to hold in high regard, because they will be important later... right? They will be important, right?? RIGHT??? Email me at: ContactAKhamseh88@gmail...

When one reaches the point of a soft reboot of one's journey, it's apt to look upon where the journey has started. Maybe dispel some myths and create new ones, or maybe tell the story of how the first steps were took to the last steps still taken. When one reaches that point, it's time to sit around the fire and start the telling of one's origins. Email me at: ContactAKhamseh88@gma...

In this episode, I sit down in person for the fourth time and talk to one of my friends that I've known for a full year, Ghazaleh. We met each other online and started following each other on Instagram, before meeting in person and getting to know each other better and better over the past year. We bonded over our shared love of crafting, so-bad-they-are-great movies, and correcting each other...

One's life is made up of experiences, and to experience the world is to experience every aspect of it through first-hand and second-hand accounts. But how does one go on experiencing? What is the value of first-hand experiences? and what is the value of second-hand experiences? How does one define an experience, as one that happens once in a lifetime? Check out my appearance on "1000 Craz...

In 2020, "The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind" was born out of one's desire to make conversation, even with oneself. That show has been going on, through highs and lows, for (almost) ten seasons. With ten being a nice round number, and things changing behind the scenes, one has to ask whether or not it's feasible or required to go past that nice round number. One has to ask, is ther...

When one wakes up, and eats, and rests, and sleeps, and then repeats these steps in the exact order, one can equate the sum of these activities to the feeling of numbness. Numbness that may have a clear reason or just comes from an array of different emotions coming together. The end result of that numbness is inactivity, and that leaves to uncomfortableness, and that leads to more numbness. Yet a...

Retrospection is tricky, because it will instill a lot of bad thoughts of missed opportunities. It's important to realize that when a new year comes from around the corner, to look at things more objectively. Was it a loss? or was it a change? Loss is understandable, but one needs to remember the gains and the wins. Depression tries to obscure them, and it's important to fight that.

As the Persian year comes to an end and a new opportunity rises for retrospection and introspection, one has to come to grips with the events that shaped that one year. While it is good to keep living life without allowing for past mistakes and past guilt to cripple one's ability to live, it's also good to acknowledge regrets and put efforts to reform the actions that caused them. So, with...

In the tenure of this show, only one episode has been skipped so far and that was due to covid. Now, a second episode joins it and this is due to something far more destructive, a movie production going overtime and inevitably, overbudget. So, what does one have to do other than put everything on hold until this behemoth is put to rest?

There are many stages when making a creative project, there's the initial excitement over new and interesting ideas, then there's the first doses of anxiety over the practicality of the project, and then comes the grueling process of pre-production. Where every cog needs to fit together, and those little doses of anxiety become a constant, and doubt begins to creep in. Such a magical time...

When one has feelings that amount to self-deprecation and self-hatred, one has to content with the feelings if one is trying to function. But sometimes, even knowingly, that lets more negative thoughts enter one's mind. Then one will foresee collapse of giant magnitude, and one knows that into each life some rain must fall.

Introspects can be enlightening and necessary every now and again. When one does something over and over again, one might become complacent and used to the motions, without ever noticing the tiny unsatisfactories that grate at one's desire for the activity. So, when looked through a critical eye, what can one notice about one's endeavor, and what should one notice about those endeavors?

Time is a limited resource. It is so limited and has such abundant a use that it will be used up even if one actively does not do anything with it. Because of that, it is the source of many quotes and many more anxieties by people who know of its finiteness. Yet, one sometimes deludes oneself into treating this valuable and hard to manage resource as if it is a mine in a RTS video game: easily ref...

Games are some of the most entertaining aspects of life. No matter how many times you got kicked in the nether regions and how many times you look at life with the sense of dread that it truly deserves, games can still bring you back stronger than ever before. Whether they are video games, choose-your-own adventure games, tabletop games or board games, games can really bring out a sense of joy unp...

What will happen the day after today has always been a subject of great inspiration and desire, and also great anxiety and fear. That effect will be amplified the more uncertain elements are added. When one looks at tomorrow and sees nothing but darkness, it can have rippling effects on today. From bad shopping habits, to a sense of doom and gloom that will engulf everything one holds dear.

A new year has dawned upon us and with it has come the time to take a rather poignant look at everything that the year has brought. Checking all the moments of joy and disappointment, and then looking forward to see what the new year might bring. It's fools' errand to plan out a year in advance, but what are we if not fools? Chapter 137 - 2024, Part I: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/sh...

A new year has dawned upon us and with it has come the time to take a rather poignant look at everything that the year has brought. Checking all the moments of joy and disappointment, and then looking forward to see what the new year might bring. It's fools' errand to plan out a year in advance, but what are we if not fools?