The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind

One is surrounded by boundaries; societal boundaries, geographical boundaries, physical boundaries, emotional boundaries and mental boundaries. What happens in those boundaries shape one's life and experiences as a human being, and there are times when one's life inside those boundaries will find trouble adjusting to itself. There are times when the mess inside those boundaries becomes imp...

One of the ways one can find solace in the mundane and normal is by creating a fantastical goal, a fantasy of achieving something so out of ordinary that the act itself would become absurd to think about. But they won't become too big that achieving them would be completely impossible. They live in that sweet spot between too much effort and not enough results, which makes them nothing more th...

There are times in anyone's life when it seems that everything that could go wrong, will go wrong. No matter the amount of effort, mental resilience and physical prowess; when things start to go awry, they will take everything down with them. When one gets inside such a storm of fecal matter, the toll can be massive. It's important to acknowledge one's shortcomings and failures, but to...

Sometimes in one's life, there are many facets coming together to create an atmosphere ripe for a breakdown. A sickness prolonged, and in need of medication; an array of projects being produced and put aside that take time and effort to the point of exhaustion; and videotapes of digital variety in producing movies and online videos. When all those facets come together, one has to see how they...

Guilt is such a strong feeling that it can hamper everyday life incredibly easily. It can make good experiences come off as shameful and bad, and it can make one feel inadequate in a variety of different tasks. When one descends to the pits of guilt, one can find himself stranded. In reach of what one needs to do, and what one does. Guilt is such a strong feeling, and it can also appear from nothi...

Sometimes one ends a season with a sickness, and starts one with yet another one. One of peculiar origin that is not likely to be found in this time of year. When that happens, one has to sometimes persevere and still go forward with a plan. A plan that has been some time into making, and one has been looking forward to it. This is one of those times. Alpha Protocol Review | AKhamseh88: https://ww...

In this episode I sit down and talk to the guy who I've had the privilege of working with numerous times, Mohammad. We met each other while we were both contributing to a now defunct gaming website, and despite our differences in taste, were drawn together through a shared love of entertainment. So we decided to talk about our unpopular opinions on entertainment properties, our gaming/movie ma...

When one is sick, the events of that sickness is burnt into one's memory vividly. What happens at what time, and what lead to what event, and so on and so forth. It also brings forward the mood to plan for a future where health is plenty. Planning for the future is always a gamble, a big one, but when one is sick, everything is put into perspective. When one is sick, health seems like a good o...

One's relation to nature can be incredibly personal, and incredibly consequential; especially when one is travelling. The contrast between cushy life in the developed city and the arduous but rewarding life in nature is one that has compelled any human being to find a personal opinion on the matter. The beautiful vistas of nature, but with no accommodations? or the unbreathable air of traffic,...

Movies are great entertainment products, but movie making is oftentimes not very entertaining. The end results are heartwarming and great, but the process can sometimes be miserable and destructive. Movies are also expensive entertainment products. They cost a lot of money, and need a lot of humans to make them work, and that's what makes them so big and so daunting, but also when done incorre...

Needlessly busy is something that one can describe one's life with occasionally. When life seems a mess with a torrent of unfinished tasks and upcoming tasks weighing heavy on one's soul, one can feel the fire that will lead to an eventual burn out. When one's life is needlessly busy, even good moments will be pushed aside to showcase the tiredness.

When one bottles emotions and keep going with a daily routine, sometimes those emotions will need a vent, and when that vent is provided it will erupt like a volcano. It's not always a bad thing, as an erupting volcano can also empty out a lot of negativity. So, when one is helping form a volcano, one can look back at a lot of conflicting and deep emotions, and let them run loose. Maybe even t...

Though one can try, one cannot separate mind from body. When body is in pain, mind wanders and mind tries to look at body to see what has caused it pain. When that pain is from physical activity, one goes into retrospective of one's life choices and lifestyle. Physique is a two-fold question, one from beauty and one from health. When there's pain involved, health becomes more apparent, and...

Emotions are hard to telegraph, and they are even harder to express when put in front of people one might have an inkling of those emotions for. Like many choices in one's life, the choice is down to a mix of risk assessment and courage. When one might lose a friend, one might gain something more; but is that risk worth taking? Questions like that make expressions what they are: small acts wit...

There's an old adage of "everyone is truly alone", where it deposits that even when one is surrounded by other presences, one can still be alone. The adage might appear as cynical or pessimistic, but cynicism and pessimism can infect the most hopeful and optimistic of minds too. When one sits in the corner of a room looking at people one loves, and feels disconnected from them, one f...

The act of videomaking is something between writing an essay, conducting a research, and creating art. It might not rank high on the "high art" chart when compared to other forms of visual media, but it still does factor in creation. It still has framing, pacing, rhythm, substance, form and style. So what happens when one who has been away from that act of creation for a number of months...

Physical pain oftentimes punctuates many things, from mental anguish to existential crises. Excruciating physical pain can even make day-to-day operations invalid and impossible, and when it comes to excruciating physical pain there's seldom a more troubling suspect than tooth. A good toothache can knock even the strongest and most virile down, let alone when one has the lowest threshold for p...

There are times, sometimes far between and sometimes in rapid succession, where one feels isolated and abandoned. There are times, sometimes far between and sometimes in rapid succession, where the thoughts and actions of everything done and everything that will be done would break upon one's psyche like a crumbling foundation of a tower. There are times, sometimes far between and sometimes in...

Planning is an important part of preparing for the future of one's life. One plans for how to live, how to love, how to grow, and how to survive. But plans are not guaranteed to work nor guaranteed to work out the way they were planned. One might slip in adhering to the steps previously thought, and one might not get the result that was expected. But that is under normal circumstances. When on...

How does one develop an obsession with a media property? It might seem like a long process but all one needs is a combination of right time and right state of mind. One such obsession can be found in a game show that graced the UK television in 2014 and has been going strong since then. One such obsession can be the wonderous and exciting world which houses Greg Davies and little Alex Horne: TASKM...

Nostalgia can be a powerful tool and drug; it's a drug that can draw your very own lifeforce and stick it in the past, and it's a tool that can mend a broken soul and make it better for a little while. But sometimes nostalgia is so strong in others that it influences one's perspective of an event or a location. When one is confronted with an attack of nostalgia, one needs to fight, whi...

The new Persian year has dawned, and with it has come a brand new day. Though the revolving of earth around the sun for another 365 days may not seem like a significant event as situations surrounding one's life are not susceptible to change in any form or factor; it still is a good end point to at least take some time and search one's past for a retrospective. Special Chapter #6 - God Lea...

In this episode, I sit down (with one week of delay) and talk with a friend who I got to meet thanks to the magic of internet, Vandah. We met each other on Twitter, before Elon Musk got his grubby little hands on it, and started talking about music and movies, normal nerd stuff. We hit it off with discussions on certain musical artists, old movies, complaining about the state of affairs and talkin...

In the past few months since the murder of Mahsa Amini by the morality police in Iran, it's imperative to take inventory of what has happened and what barriers have been destroyed. The visage of Islamic Republic as this unbeatable monster has been shattered to pieces, and what remains is a more accurate visage of it as a wheezing walking dead. Hope reigns once again in the land, and hope needs to...

A patriarchal society built on ideological roots that does nothing but to affirm those patriarchal desires, will always look for a way to gather power and wants obedience at all costs. Since the murder of Mahsa Amini by the morality police, the patriarchal rulers of Iran have tried everything to "punish" the insubordinate "children". They have mistreated them in jails, they have killed them and ex...