The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind

Mafia movies are a fun genre in cinema, and they encompass some of the best and the worst that Cinema History has to offer. So, when one decides to put a not-insignificant amount of time to exploring them through a self-inflicted challenge, the results could be an incredibly varied look through movies of all qualities. How good would it be then, if one decides to share that journey through what is...

In this episode I sit down and talk to one of my friends from my new uni and the director of the current project I'm working on, Mobina. We met each other in online classes in the early days of uni, and then finally got to see each other face-to-face earlier this year; and despite having not-the-best-first-impressions of each other, managed to hit it off pretty quick and become friends through...

Being "professional" is a sought-after label. It gives off the vibes of prestige and quality, no matter the reality. That label, can also give tools to opportunists and con-men to exploit their co-workers, underlings or people with less experience. It is a powerful tool as well, because in all honesty, being "professional" is meaningless. It can mean anything and everything, mo...

When one has felt an emotion towards an activity that one has neglected for so so long, it awakens certain thoughts and feelings in one's brain. When one looks at all that one wants to do, and realizes that there's more to see that can ever be seen, or more to do that can ever be done, those thoughts and emotions evolve into something a little more grotesque. They become fear, and fear is...

Sometimes, during times of duress and stress, one has to wrestle with thoughts that would try their best to diminish one's agency. The belittling self-disappointment and the monstrous weight of self-deprecation. When one is faced with such uneasy feelings that keep nagging away at one's soul, it's hard to look around and see the true accomplishments; or worse, it's hard to look aro...

When one peruses the seemingly infinite shows that appear on a weekly basis on an ever-growing list of different networks, sometimes there are shows that one finds in solitude that seems to speak with one. They're quirky, and cooky, and maybe a little spooky; but they are special to one. So, what happens when that show is deemed "not worthy" by its parent network? Well, that is the f...

The human body can suffer physical ailment for extended periods of time, to the point of humorous absurdity. These ailments can bring about physical weakness, irritable behavior, mental anguish and above all else a lack of peace, both of mind and of soul. Sometimes one finds itself in the throats of sickness, that has been going on for an absurdly long time and has caused so, so, so, SO many damag...

When one has a deluge of ideas and unrealized projects, it can hurt one's mental state massively. It can make sure one has to think of the many failures that one has experienced on a daily, if not hourly, basis. But when one is involved in an idea, it can sometimes bring about a spark, even a little one, to the glowing embers of passion and desire for more projects to be involved in. It can ev...

One's social ties are made through strings or chains, based on one's ability to form them. When those strings or chains become weakened and start to show signs of tearing, one will see oneself suspended over what could be an endless abyss. Mistakes will seem bigger, as loneliness looms. Little events will seem a monumental earth shattering moments that can have long-lasting effects on one's life....

Sometimes one's life falls behind of a perceived track constructed days, weeks, months and even years in advance. Sometimes the journey of life seems to not match up with expectations that one has for oneself. When those times rear their heads, the balance of one's life can be thrown out. When one falls behind on one's plans, desires, goals, and highly regarded future, one can experien...

When one starts their journey of creativity, oftentimes the joy of creation even without a tangible result can be rewarding in its own rights. Creation of minute details of little to no importance, or creation of the most elaborate systems to do the most mundane of things, is just part of the experience of making tiny worlds for imaginary people to inhabit, and is part of any artist's course....

One is surrounded by boundaries; societal boundaries, geographical boundaries, physical boundaries, emotional boundaries and mental boundaries. What happens in those boundaries shape one's life and experiences as a human being, and there are times when one's life inside those boundaries will find trouble adjusting to itself. There are times when the mess inside those boundaries becomes imp...

One of the ways one can find solace in the mundane and normal is by creating a fantastical goal, a fantasy of achieving something so out of ordinary that the act itself would become absurd to think about. But they won't become too big that achieving them would be completely impossible. They live in that sweet spot between too much effort and not enough results, which makes them nothing more th...

There are times in anyone's life when it seems that everything that could go wrong, will go wrong. No matter the amount of effort, mental resilience and physical prowess; when things start to go awry, they will take everything down with them. When one gets inside such a storm of fecal matter, the toll can be massive. It's important to acknowledge one's shortcomings and failures, but to...

Sometimes in one's life, there are many facets coming together to create an atmosphere ripe for a breakdown. A sickness prolonged, and in need of medication; an array of projects being produced and put aside that take time and effort to the point of exhaustion; and videotapes of digital variety in producing movies and online videos. When all those facets come together, one has to see how they...

Guilt is such a strong feeling that it can hamper everyday life incredibly easily. It can make good experiences come off as shameful and bad, and it can make one feel inadequate in a variety of different tasks. When one descends to the pits of guilt, one can find himself stranded. In reach of what one needs to do, and what one does. Guilt is such a strong feeling, and it can also appear from nothi...

Sometimes one ends a season with a sickness, and starts one with yet another one. One of peculiar origin that is not likely to be found in this time of year. When that happens, one has to sometimes persevere and still go forward with a plan. A plan that has been some time into making, and one has been looking forward to it. This is one of those times. Alpha Protocol Review | AKhamseh88: https://ww...

In this episode I sit down and talk to the guy who I've had the privilege of working with numerous times, Mohammad. We met each other while we were both contributing to a now defunct gaming website, and despite our differences in taste, were drawn together through a shared love of entertainment. So we decided to talk about our unpopular opinions on entertainment properties, our gaming/movie ma...

When one is sick, the events of that sickness is burnt into one's memory vividly. What happens at what time, and what lead to what event, and so on and so forth. It also brings forward the mood to plan for a future where health is plenty. Planning for the future is always a gamble, a big one, but when one is sick, everything is put into perspective. When one is sick, health seems like a good o...

One's relation to nature can be incredibly personal, and incredibly consequential; especially when one is travelling. The contrast between cushy life in the developed city and the arduous but rewarding life in nature is one that has compelled any human being to find a personal opinion on the matter. The beautiful vistas of nature, but with no accommodations? or the unbreathable air of traffic,...

Movies are great entertainment products, but movie making is oftentimes not very entertaining. The end results are heartwarming and great, but the process can sometimes be miserable and destructive. Movies are also expensive entertainment products. They cost a lot of money, and need a lot of humans to make them work, and that's what makes them so big and so daunting, but also when done incorre...

Needlessly busy is something that one can describe one's life with occasionally. When life seems a mess with a torrent of unfinished tasks and upcoming tasks weighing heavy on one's soul, one can feel the fire that will lead to an eventual burn out. When one's life is needlessly busy, even good moments will be pushed aside to showcase the tiredness.

When one bottles emotions and keep going with a daily routine, sometimes those emotions will need a vent, and when that vent is provided it will erupt like a volcano. It's not always a bad thing, as an erupting volcano can also empty out a lot of negativity. So, when one is helping form a volcano, one can look back at a lot of conflicting and deep emotions, and let them run loose. Maybe even t...

Though one can try, one cannot separate mind from body. When body is in pain, mind wanders and mind tries to look at body to see what has caused it pain. When that pain is from physical activity, one goes into retrospective of one's life choices and lifestyle. Physique is a two-fold question, one from beauty and one from health. When there's pain involved, health becomes more apparent, and...

Emotions are hard to telegraph, and they are even harder to express when put in front of people one might have an inkling of those emotions for. Like many choices in one's life, the choice is down to a mix of risk assessment and courage. When one might lose a friend, one might gain something more; but is that risk worth taking? Questions like that make expressions what they are: small acts wit...