The Diary

This is mostly things Alex failed to mention in the previous episode. Things like highway scares, crazy sight of wood farming, and crazy plots of land. Also, an episode of Rick and Morty has affected Alex a lot. It cut deep and the pain can be heard in Alex's voice. Other things are talked about in this episode. It is really just one big follow up and random talking points. If you enjoyed, follow...

In this episode, Alex talks about a work trip he went on for his company. This is the follow up to last weeks episode where he was on the trip. Now that the trip is over, Alex can say the cities he visited and the events that unfolded. From people being shot, to people vomiting, to buildings catching fire, this trip has been unreal. That is not even all of it. Alex failed to mention some things. A...

Exhausted, dehydrated, and sleep deprived, Alex is still managing to put something out. Who knows what this episode is. So far, this is probably the truest random episode. However, there are still things to take from this episode. For instance, Alex reads two journal entries from April 2021. Two days of a complete switch. From a completely saddening story of emotions to feelings of relief. Majorit...

A shorter episode this week. Alex talks about how this week has been hectic. From a thirteen hour shift, to people yelling at him at a drive-thru, Alex has had a long week. Keeping a positive mindset has gotten Alex through this nonsense. Also, an update on Alex's dating life. Give the episode a listen and hopefully you enjoy. Follow the podcast so you do not miss out on any new episodes. Follow t...

The reason why Alex has not been consistently uploading is talked about in this episode. This episode is not a happy one. Alex talks about how he has been feeling burnt out and not in the best state of mind. A hard beginning to this year has now grown harder. Alex does not know how to mourn the loss of his grandfather. This is a very open and honest episode unlike any other episode before. Hopeful...

This episode has a whole bunch of feelings. From feeling as if the content being uploaded is not good enough, being bored, feeling overwhelmed, and not knowing what he needs. Alex feels like he needs something, and he does not know what it is. He has been trying to distract himself with movies, tv shows, and his phone but it does not seem to work. This episode is a venting episode. Alex gets out w...

Diving deep into the murky water, Alex explains why journaling is so important in his life. How it has had such an impact to the point that it has become therapy. Alex goes on to recall significant moments in his life that he wishes he had written down. Moments that were buried in his mind because they were too painful to remember. Made up examples that show what you could potentially look back on...

Two main topics this episode. First, Alex talks about how he thrives in chaos. Specifically, at work with his current and previous job. Alex explains the chaos that he would and is going through with these jobs. Second, why TIk Tok is awesome and horrible at the same time. How there are things that Alex hates to see, but also things he loves to see. Alex explains how he curated his for you page to...

The topic Social Media Addiction is brought up after listening to a couple recent episodes of Call Her Daddy. The episodes Alex listened to, forced him to realize what he is doing. Although, it is something Alex knows he struggles with, it is hard to kick the habit. Alex goes on to share real numbers of his screen time which are insane. How does one have such time? Also, a small talking point of v...

Major news this week. Alex crushed his hand. This episode is picture perfect in showing Alex's current state of mind. The erratic, uneasy, hint of doubt and fear is heard in Alex's voice. Also, the happy, positive, and hopeful tone is there too. Like last week, this episode consists of three major talking points. First, the accident and where Alex is now. Second, the realization that life is forci...

We are getting vulnerable this week. As kind of a treat for being late to uploading again, Alex is stepping out of his comfort zone. At first, Alex rambles on about nonsense like usual. Then, Alex starts to talk about the patterns. They are emotional patterns about how he starts to develop feelings for a girl. A topic Alex does not talk about, the real feelings he has for girls. Also, falling in l...

Alex talks about how he has had a good week. Particularly, the ability to choose whether to be happy or not. Alex tells a story about a stranger, and how that little interaction forced him to get out of his own way. This reminded him about all the little things to be happy about. Also, feelings are currently confused within his friendships. Alex is vague like always. So, bare with him as he tries...

Alex thinks talking to strangers is fun. However, as Alex does, he overthinks the interactions between strangers. Why does he like talking to strangers? Why does the thought of talking to strangers spark joy and sadness at the same time? Alex also recaps UFC 268 and what he thought about the fighters. To end the podcast, Alex talks about TikTok influencers. The relationship between Noah Beck and D...

This episode could definitely be another therapy session. However, the weird turn of topics and conversation holds it up to be a true rant. This episode took six hours to record the first day. Three days it took to get this out, possibly an hour worth of audio that was cut and it is still an hour and a half episode. To summarize where this episode went, I talk about my dog for a while, how I avoid...

Be warned, this is a very slow episode. Reason why, Alex is letting himself speak. Not trying to put on a show, not trying to be funny or entertaining. Alex is just speaking, and speaking as if he is writing in his journal. This is how Alex functions. This is how Alex goes through his days regularly. With this level of emotion, clarity, enthusiasm, and goofiness. This is not a bad episode, it is j...

This week, Alex talks about how he handles himself after trauma. Alex talks about some of the things that have happened to him and what kinds of things they caused. An event caused this weeks topic which Alex gets into. Some tea if you will. Also, how Alex deals with his emotions and feelings. What helps him get through the tough times. In the second half, Alex goes off on a rant about boots, rain...

Questioning himself again, Alex is now asking if he is mature enough. Not only that, continuing last weeks conversation about significant others, Alex is now asking himself if he is ready to be in a relationship. Also, maybe it is time to cut Alex's hair? How short should he go? Finally, the current issue that he does not talk about, feeling depressed and burnt out. Going through phases of feeling...

Alex takes you on a weird journey this episode. A conversation with a friend sparks a question. Does Alex want a girlfriend? This question leads to another and another. This eventually leads to the underlying thing that Alex cannot stop doing, which is overthinking. A fun yet productive episode. This episode was a lot of fun to make with stories throughout. Hopefully you enjoy. New episode out eve...

Alex is traumatized after watching YMH live. Alex talks about his emotions and what he went through right after he finished watching the livestream. With everything fresh in his head, you can hear the disbelief in his voice. The first portion of the episode is dedicated to that, the rest is random topics from different days trying to finish and edit this episode. This episode is late, again. Howev...

Going off on a rant, Alex talks about how gen z is growing up. He talks about how the generation as a whole is functioning and the similarities he can see within himself. Also, Alex talks about how he is trying to learn how to figure stuff out. How to get out of your own way, how to stop bad habits and routines. You first have to learn how to learn. Alex talks about how this is what he is trying t...

This episode has no real point. It is nothing but random thoughts. From Alex's dog pooping on the dinning room floor to Alex asking himself if he is down bad. This episode takes weird turns. Again, there is no real point to this episode. It could be another rant but it is mostly thoughts. Follow the podcast so you do not miss out on any new episodes. New episode out every Thursday. Follow the soci...

Last week, Alex talked about feeling out of place. This week, the thought continues and expanded to realizing that he has felt out of place, because he has never been the friendly/talkative person. The last thing is not acknowledging accomplishments. Feeling like what you did is not good enough. Alex talks about all of this and more. This episode was fun to make and hopefully it helps you in some...

A major realization was made this week. Alex talks about how he has felt out of place growing up and even now. An event caused this realization and forced Alex to look back in his life. This episode is food for thought. Alex mentions that his thoughts are not complete on this topic but that maybe it can help you in some way. Whether that be helping you realize this as well or letting you know that...

Starting off the episode with stories. Alex talks about a "little" car accident, coffee mishaps, and some drama at home. The second half of the podcast Alex talks about problems. Your problems are valid and you need to find a way to express yourself. Alex talks about his outlets and how he is barely starting to learn how to learn. Alex is still in the beginning steps of figuring sh*t out. Follow a...

A lighthearted beginning to this episode. Alex talks about the experience in his car sauna and discovering Tig Notaro. Quickly moving on to the therapy session, Alex talks about this past weekend. How this past weekend reminded him about how he has felt growing up. How he is learning to value his time and decisions. Alex is slowly but surely learning to navigate life and becoming a better version...