The Diary

This episode is about the love for podcasting. The reason why Alex truly enjoys it. It is also about what he hopes for in the future, the reason he started a podcast in the first place, the people that inspire him, and why they keep Alex motivated. He shares his thoughts on the person he wants to become. He wants to become the person he wishes he had growing up. And in that, he wants to be an insp...

A week off means more to talk about. This episode starts off talking about Alex leaving his car windows down while it was raining. Then, Alex talks about little things in life and how meaningful they are to him. The main talking point is the conversation of falling in love. Alex thinks it is crazy for him to fall in love and explains why he has been single for years. However, he is in the beginnin...

Following up last weeks episode, Alex continues the conversation about being in a productive mood. Some of the things that are keeping Alex going are the hot women and men online. Alex consumes their content to gain motivation and have something to look up to and strive for. Who's physique is he trying to copy, who's content seems authentic, and who is consistent. Alex is actively learning from ot...

Being in a productive mood is good. Sometimes it goes too far. In this case, Alex felt he had to shave his entire body to fulfill the need to be productive. He talks about how being hairless is making him feel. Not at a emotional level but at a physical level with clothing. This conversation then evolves to the hair on his head that he didn't touch. How he gets confused for a girl by not only kids...

With a burnt throat, Alex starts off talking about Miley Cyrus. Her voice is fascinating to listen to. He talks about how he thinks her voice is cool and how she has a cool look/aesthetic. Moving on to a guy named Thoren Bradley, Alex talks about his aesthetic as well. Maybe A LOT MORE than just aesthetic with Thoren. Nevertheless, the look these people have is what intrigues Alex. The rugged, woo...

To start off the episode, Alex updates us on his new desk/recording setup. Moving on to a show called Adventure time. Alex has been thinking about the topic of seriousness and jokefulness. Alex thinks Adventure time is perfect because of the balance it has. It is an easy to watch kids show but it doesn't make you feel like an idiot like most shows do. This show simply takes you on the journey the...

A handful of talking point in this episode. Consuming content is the main talking point that ties everything together. With music, Alex talks about his appreciation for live performances and how he feels about not having seen a live performance yet. It has only been through a screen. Alex goes on to talk about shows. What he has watched, is currently, and will. He also talks about how much time it...

One of the funniest rants Alex has ever done.  Something in Alex's brain clicked and the answer he was looking for this past week was found. Alex is a bitch. David Goggins explains it perfectly. Being a bitch is a mindset and Alex realized that he has that mindset. Also, two completely different talking points in the second half of the episode. Censorship with big companies is something being...

One of Alex's favorite podcast is Your Mom's House podcast. This podcast is hilarious and outrageous. However, the livestreams that they do is only outrageous. They show the most wild, disgusting, disturbing, and sad videos people upload to the internet. Alex has watched two livestreams. In this episode, he is recounting what he felt while watching. Also, this is also a part two to twenty-four hou...

A very tired and delusional episode. Alex records after sitting at a Starbucks for the first time. Going off on rant, Alex talks about the things that have been spiraling in his mind. Particularly, different topics of science. Cryopreservation, AI, and Human potential are some of the things he touches on. To end the episode, Alex has three talking points. First, feeling vulnerable at Starbucks. Al...

While in a delusional state of mind, Alex decides to record. This episode takes weird, but interesting turns. Alex talks about how he physically feels in the moment being awake for so long, a Youtuber that inspires him, bedroom makeover, psychedelics, and body image. Although Alex was not in the best state of mind, he still manages to make sense and get something out of this. Alex reflects on his...

Alex starts off the episode right after inhaling smelling salts. With high energy, Alex talks about how he now likes smelling salts. A little crazy. Alex describes the spike of adrenaline as being similar to a roller coaster which he loves. Then, making plans to give his room a make over. Alex, is considering a number of possibilities like either buying a desk or making one, buying a tv or monitor...

In the previous episode, Alex talked about feeling as if he lost his childhood in a way. Playing video games has helped Alex take back what he has lost. The biggest game being Minecraft. It is Alex's all time favorite game not only for being entertaining but because of its possibilities. People have made careers by playing this game, the game is constantly being worked on, and it has endless possi...

This episode is about reflecting on different kind of emotions. Good and bad anxiety, childhood trauma, and losing parents. One of the most vulnerable episodes with Alex's most traumatic experience. Truly an insight as to why Alex is the way that he is. Why Alex is trying his hardest to deal with his emotions and experiences. He talks about how he bottled his emotions and now having dealt with and...

The final part to this little series. Alex comes to a conclusion. Going through hardship on a daily basis is the best way to have a good rest of your day. It is a thing you just have to do everyday. It is not the answer Alex was looking for, but it is the answer he ran into. This episode was hard to record and took two weeks of hardship to make. Alex explains the things he went through to come up...

A laid back episode talking about the emotions on why Alex feels overwhelmed. In this episode, Alex identifies why he feels like he is in his own way. Thinking of everything going on in his life, all the things he can do, all the things he needs to do and plan for. There are so many things and not enough time. It is truly overwhelming and exhausting and Alex feels burnt out. He talks about how he...

In this episode, Alex is learning to get out of his own way. An intro to his thoughts and feelings about his discipline and emotions. Alex talks about how he spends his time and how he thinks he should be spending his time. He speaks on why he is the only one to blame for his lack of production. How Alex feels sorry for himself, yet he does not do anything to change that. A couple quotes that have...

A fair warning, this episode is a bit of a wild one. This episode is the truest version of Alex. How he functions regularly. How his mind wanders and jumps from place to place. This is Alex whenever he is in a good mood and is not being tortured by insecurities, overthinking, judgement etc. So, to take you on a journey, Alex is legit unfiltered in this episode. It is also not what you may be think...

Life will present you weird, crazy, and humorous scenarios every once and a while. Alex deals with these situations by not dealing with them. Instead, Alex tells himself "That's some crazy shit" and moves on. Not allowing his mind to sit with, what he witnessed. It is a way of just letting go and being able to move on. Also, Alex has four comedy recommendations for you. Four different comedians. F...

Finally back after two weeks, Alex catches us up with what has been going on in his life. A new laptop, better software, getting out of a small rut, listening to Bad Bunny, and many more things are talked about in this episode. The first hour is dedicated to catching up. The second hour is talking about past experiences. Specifically with girls and how those experiences have shaped him and his lov...

4/20 edition. Yes it was yesterday, but it doesn't matter. Alex is talking about the one thing in his life only his closest friends know about. Alex exposes himself to the debauchery he has participated in. From adventures in Colorado, to falling asleep at the worst times, Alex has had his fill of using pot. This episode is eye opening to Alex's story. Why he is the way he is, in certain ways. Thi...

On this episode, Alex's mind is running on all cylinders. Alex drank 40oz of coffee for no real reason. Although Alex is not shaking, he is definitely running and not walking in this episode. The topic for this week is doing more. Alex talks about how busy he has been. In particular, this weekend he did a lot and a lot of things happened to him. For example, his car over heated, he cleaned up a de...

The first half of this episode is cool. It is fun and lighthearted. The second half is not. The second half is the stuff nobody wants to talk about. The hard emotions, thoughts, and beliefs. Listen to next weeks episode if you are looking for a fun episode. In this episode, Alex is recalling the emotions he expressed on a previous episode. Feeling out of place and alone. Alex is diving deep into t...

The day this episode is being uploaded is Alex's birthday. Starting off a little sad, quickly moves into an understanding. Alex has never felt like birthdays really matter all that much. However, Alex is hosting an event so, he kind of gets the importance now? Also, sharing some major embarrassing stories is this weeks topic. Two stories, both already shared. However, worth sharing again and poten...

Friendliness goes a long way. Alex is trying to be more friendly and talkative. Growing up, Alex was shy, angry, quiet, rude, and not talkative or friendly in the slightest. So, because of that upbringing, Alex is now trying to be the person he wants to be. He wants to be the kind of person that is all smiles and good vibes. A long process but, a wanted change. Also, a wild experience at a sports...