The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD

In this episode we will talk about being scared or anxious - sometimes both at the same time. Usually it’s a cry for help by your overwhelmed brain. The feeling of fear is a very familiar feeling for those dealing with PTSD and can greatly impact your healing process. We first talk about why fear is a good thing, then the brain is confused, then why the fear is so damaging and then what we can do....

In this episode we will talk about being tired - something basically everyone who deals with PTSD is familiar with it. You feel tired, low on energy or lazy - depending on perspective. But there is a good reason for it and you probably shouldn’t be too hard on yourself. We first talk about how to know it is happening, then where the energy is needed, then what you shouldn’t do and then what we can...

In this episode we will talk about scars - or in other words - the things that remain. I often say that the experience changes us - like climbing a mountain does, but what do we have to accept as that change and what can we still change after all? Since it’s the 4th of July with a lot of veterans affected, I thought it is a good time to talk about the things that remain and how they affect us. We...

In this episode we will talk about victim blaming: This is sadly a common reality that survivors face - as well victims of all kinds of things and even if anything bad happens to you. Victim blaming means one accuses the victim that their behavior has caused it and therefor they are to be blamed for what happened. We first talk about exceptions, then reasons, then fear and then how to deal with it...

In this episode we will talk about self confidence, feeling unlovable and loneliness. How to be self confident and able to love oneself is integral for a life with happiness and love. This is a continuation from last episode, where we talked about feeling unlovable and lonely. I strongly recommend to listen to it first. These three topics are sort of a chain reaction - you feel unlovable, that cau...

In this episode we will talk about feeling unlovable and to a part about loneliness - because if you feel unlovable than no matter how many people tell you that they love you - you won’t believe them. A very difficult topic, but also integral for a life with happiness and love. It is - of course - not to point fingers at anyone and call it a day, but to help you understand what happened, where it...

In this episode we will talk about the stage between ball and ring trauma - and therefor PTSD and C-PTSD - the double trauma or macarons trauma. I mentioned before that there seems to be something missing - and now I finally pieced it together. Now the whole set is round and no longer feels incomplete. As mentioned in a past episode - there was no point in making a step called something like a big...

In this episode we will talk about how to remove or cut someone out of your life - the universal recommendation seems to be: Avoid contact.  But that is sometimes just not an option. So what can we do in that case? How do we cut someone out, that keeps coming up in our everyday life? Keeping as much distance as possible is extremely helpful, but what else can we do?  We first talk about the string...

In this episode we will talk about why it is so hard to leave someone - even if they threaten our wellbeing - or to cut them out of our lives. While the decision is logically so easy to make, it can be hard to understand why we struggle so much with it. We first talk about how relationships are formed, then why are we being drawn back in and then why cutting relationships is hard. Contact: contact...

In this episode we will talk about how a military mission can cause PTSD and what are the reasons why it could be. It is a bit of an experiment and so your feedback is especially appreciated. But for now I will give you the categories and what goes into them and you can add more details. Now these categories cover all the elements that are relevant in regards to PTSD. This is supposed to be a tool...

In this episode we will talk about violence and the deciding factor for something to become a trauma or even PTSD. It is important to understand what the main factors are to know what to focus on - especially when dealing with ring trauma. To truly trying to understand this we use our slapped in the face example again - this time with the violence being the focus, while the level of force stays ex...

In this episode we will talk about why emotions are more important than facts - in the healing process - something I mentioned several times, but never really gotten into in greater detail. It is one of the most crucial things to get right to cure yourself. We first start with the purpose of facts, then an example and then applying example to a trauma. The scene of "inside out" about emo...

In this episode we will talk quickly about a big update that kept me quite busy and changes quite a bit. Support Group/Discord/Reddit https://discord.io/JohannaDraconis https://discord.gg/mEAgpqjuhF https://www.reddit.com/r/DraconisCPTSDtalk/ Support me https://ko-fi.com/johannadraconis https://paypal.me/Johannadraconis   Archive https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCR_eyifiglAs0knS4huMwoQ https://www...

In this episode we will talk about how it comes that dealing with PTSD is so much easier than C-PTSD. I usually use PTSD to include both, but there is a very significant difference in difficulty dealing with it and its quite a jump. It is important to understand the difference and how to treat the different versions. As they require different approaches - which is likely why many struggle to remov...

In this episode we will talk about just wanting peace - an expression often in regards with the marathon that is the healing process. Usually the sentence “I just want peace” is said by the biggest stirrer of chaos and unrest. Usually when they are confronted about their part in the chaos. But in this case it was from a mail I received and it wasn’t the first time I heard it. It is just a sentimen...

In this episode we will talk about survivor’s guilt, a topic I so far skipped over as I was affected by it myself. What is survivor’s guilt? Simplified you feel guilty for surviving and that is often accompanied with strong depression and the thought process of being undeserving of living. Last time - episode 84 where I covered it - it was for validation and finding purpose as band aid. First we t...

In this episode we will talk about people who are victims and abusers. People who suffered and made other people suffer. There are some mixed opinions about it, but I think it is important to be clear on this issue. We first talk about what is not abuse, then the difference between mistake and pattern, then why I call them traitors and lastly the consequences. (This episode might have been inspire...

In this episode we will talk about nightmares, which are a common occurrences and a symptom strongly associated with PTSD. An awful and tiring experience that might be able to be avoided. As I said, the nightmares that you get while suffering from PTSD are well known and they can range drastically. From relatively normal nightmares to being so terrifying that you don’t even dare to breathe when yo...

Hello my dears, It is this time of the year again and though a bit late, I wanted to remind you to be kind to and not so hard on yourself. This time of the year is rough especially for those who suffered losses, already feel disconnected, have a complicated family situation and so on. If you add the limited daylight and it just gets worse. Same goes for worries about paying the bills - especially...

In this episode we will talk about a question I seen many ask themselves ”Why didn’t I see it earlier?” and having a very hard time to come to terms with it and forgiving themselves. We talked about Denial before, in Episode 37, where we talked about being in Denial about what happened. This is the next step, so to speak, where we talk about the fall out of that, when you try to to understand why...

In this episode we will talk about isolation - a topic which occurs throughout, from the traumatic experience itself up to the healing process. When we talk about isolation in this episode, we refer to both the literal isolation by being separated from everyone else physically, as well as the figurative isolation where people can be around, but you are still isolated. We first talk about the fallo...

In this episode we will talk about survival, which affects most affected by PTSD. When we hear usually about survival it is about being stranded on an island, the wilderness and the like - which is of course accurate. But survival also refers to the state many people affected by PTSD are in. We will first talk about surviving and then what we can do. Transcript :  www.johannadraconis.com/episode-1...

In this episode we will talk about the question why we cry so much - especially during our healing process - and why crying is a good thing. It is an important part for getting better, but often quite confusing. There is of course some opinions about who can and can’t cry and those are absolute nonsense. Crying is an important part of a healthy human being and mental health and also very important...

In this episode we will talk about feeling hollow, which can feel like a hole inside of you - that somehow hurts. That feeling is the reason for many problems, sufferings and harmful behavior. Not just with PTSD and many are affected. The feeling hollow is quite widespread, but hardly talked about. Quite difficult to describe the feeling properly without having experienced it. This sometimes yawni...

In this episode we will talk about the question “How could you make okay what happened?” that I heard many times and is a reason many people don’t seek help. A dangerous misconception that can leave people vulnerable and unable to move forward. The short answer to the question “How could you make okay what happened?” is that I don’t. I am not trying to make okay what happened - I am trying to make...