The 10 Ninety Podcast

Riggins would have turned 9 today which is hard to believe. I still hear his sweet voice and cute laugh when he was 5 about to turn 6. I love and miss you so much Riggins. Happy 9th Birthday. 

I have my sister in law Keshia, niece Faith and nephew Ran on to talk about what July 25, 2021 was for each of us and what we were doing when we got the news. Talking about Trauma is hard. There is so much my family has not talked about still. The more you talk, the easier it becomes to find the right words. It takes effort, just like anything else in life. I'm so proud of my family in this episod...

"I remember when I turned 33" I am 6 months older than Kortni and so every time she had a birthday I would say "I remember when I turned..." I think she laughed hard the first time I did it and then rolled here eyes for the next 15 years when I did it haha. Where I am currently at in my grief journey is having the idea that Kortni and Riggins and Franki are somewhere. I am not sure what form or sh...

Got to talk with Conner Furu and what he has been through in his life. We both talked a lot about how sports has played a pivotal role in our lives. It was fun to relate with someone like him in that way.  Conner is a man of his word and you get a sense of his integridy and accountability in this episode I think. One of my favorite quotes from him says;  "The inferno of our grief is fueled by our...

June 29th is Franki's Birthday. I miss you so much Frank, can't believe you would be 5! June 29th is also Kortni and my 11th anniversary.  I wrote you guys a letter and wanted to read it on here so we would always have it. I love and miss you both so much. 

Parker lost his wife, Jordan Lynae Terry, age 28. She passed away December 18, 2023, in Tucson, Arizona from complications incident to childbirth.  A perfect full-term baby boy, Mack Jordan Terry, also passed away on December 17, 2023, during the birth. He weighed 9 pounds and 4 ounces, measuring 20 inches in length.   Parker and Jordan planned an at home birth which turned into Parker slowly watc...

I talk to Blue about his favorite things about kindergarten and summer. 

June 12, 2019, Colin Campbell was driving with his wife Gail, 17-year-old daughter Ruby, and 14-year-old son Hart. They were hit by a drunk driver. Ruby and Hart were killed, Colin and Gail survived.  Colin and his wife Gail are an inspiration to me. Colin wrote a book "Finding the Words". It is my favorite book and it's not close. It has impacted me greatly.  We are posting this episode on the 5...

Thank you to all our listeners, you guys sent in some questions and we answerd as many as we could.  "Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it." -Charles R. Swindo    

I chat with my therapist Matt and his wife Brindy. Matt is great at what he does and we connected a lot in therapy. I hope to be a grief therapist one day (if that's even a thing) because of Matt. Matt is really smart and knows a lot of big words in his field but it was how he opened up to me in our therapy sessions about his personal life that helped me so much. It wasn't so much what he said but...

In this episode I talk with my sister in law Keshia, and my niece Faith about Rider for his birthday. Happy Birthday Rider, we love and miss you so much. 

Shame and guilt are emotions that we all have. We all feel bad for some things we have done or haven't done. It is part of the human experience. I think that is why jesus told those dudes who were trying to stone that lady to death to only throw a stone if you have no shame or guilt. "He without sin" (shame and guilt) cast the first stone.  We have created a culture where we don't talk about shame...

Jen and her Husband Chad were getting ready for a family vacation when Chad accidentely backed over their daughter Natalie in the driveway. Your life can and most likely will be shattered in an instant one day. What will remain is how you choose to handle it. We appreciate Jen having the courage to tell her story and share how she is handling her grief.  Natalie, you sound amazing. Please go find...

Clark Fredericks talks about his story. He was raped as a kid, didn't know what to do, didn't feel like he could ever talk about it as the years went by. As an adult, he crosses paths with the man that did this to him and it ends in a bloody mess with Clark receiving a life sentence.  Clark has started his own podcast and is telling his story to help others who have been sexually abused not make s...

Went to New Jersey to interview Sara who lost her dad, Kurt Kelly to cancer. Sara had to watch her dad suffer for a really long time. One thing we talked about was how she knew her dad was going to die, could be any day, but when it happened, she still wasnt ready. Nothing can really prepare you for the emotions and feelings of losing a loved one that is so close to you. Sara was also physically s...

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Jana White.  Jana has been a high school psychology teacher and cross country coach for over 20 years.  She has trained as a triathlete for most of her life and completed an ironman.  Jana is a badass.  In 2014 Jana lost her father and mother, Hubert Issel and Alana L. Uibel to a side by side accident.  Jana's son Cooper and niece Evelyn we...

"You may not be responsible for getting knocked down. But you're certainly responsible for getting back up." -Wally Amos Seth Gehle was not responsible for his dad being in prison after trying to kill his mom, his mom being a drug addict and having addicts come and go as they pleased in and out of Seths house and bedroom. Seth found comfort in a adult friend who provided attention, food, shelter a...

This month is National Child Abuse Prevention month. Zeke Pike is 6'4 and has lots of muscles, he was one of the top football recruits in the entire country going into his senior year. Could have gone anywhere, chose Auburn because Cam Newton just won the National Championship and Heisman trophy when Zeke was deciding where to go. He was told he was going to be the next Cam Newton.  Zeke opens up...

In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Samie and Andrew Hardman.  On February 10, 2022 Samie and Andrew lost their son Drayke Andrew Hardman to suicide. They talk about Drayke's love for basketball, his kind heart, the day of and the battle in the hospital while Drayke was in a coma, the Hardman's journey with grief, and what we can do to help kids who are being bullied.

Jillian Tinkel lost her husband and son in a car accident nearly a year and a half ago. She is simply a hero of mine. After seeing and talking to people like Jillian I have felt much less alone, much less crazy, and much more normal. It also kind of gave me a type of measuring stick I could look at. People like Jillian and Kuri Bolger who had had on previously, they are kicking ass. Jillian someho...

In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, we sit down with Amanda Hurst.  Amanda lost her husband, Clever Hurst, to suicide on June 5th, 2020.  Mason and Ryan talk with Amanda about the persistent taboo surrounding suicide and the need to recognize signs of depression in those we care about.  They discuss the experience Amanda had being married to Cleve for 12 years, the nuances between grief and...

On this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast we talk to Tim and Becky Graff for the second time.  To hear the full story about the day they lost their daughters you can go back and listen to episode 20.  On May 11, 2020 Tim and Becky lost their two daughters Ellie and Kinsley to a flash flood while hiking through Little WIldhorse Canyon.  During this episode we talk about what Tim and Becky are doing...

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast we talk again with Tyson Holt.  We talk about Tyson's divorce, Tyson's decision to get sober and the importance of being vulnerable and talking with your partner about your emotions.

On this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with his life long friend Tyson Holt.  Tyson talks about the experiences he had growing up with his parents that struggled with drug abuse and financial instability.  Mason and Tyson talk about how even our closest friends sometimes are not expressing what's actually going on in their life.  Tyson opens up about the difficulty of losing his Mom...

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk to Mitch Whetman.  If you haven't heard Mitch's story go back and listen to episode 15 where we first talk about Mitch's sister Whitney.  Whitney passed away from suicide on July 16, 2010.  Mitch said in the first episode we recorded with him that when you lose a loved one, "they die in pieces."  Since our last interview Mitch got marrie...