That Infernal Noise

In this episode Neish and I discuss communication, it is almost like it is key. We go all over the place as per usual. Guest starring (off camera) my little homie Noey. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!

In this episode I discuss a couple of my inspirations, David Gunn and Eugene Gill from King 810 and Jellyroll. Coming from what some would call the wrong side of the tracks myself and being told I would never be shit or that I was uppity because of how I would talk, I never felt like I belonged anywhere. As I have gotten older I know now that we are not confined to our would be lot in life so long...

In this episode Neish and I return to our true form and just kind of meander all over the place discussing politics, spirituality, parenting, trying to not be assholes and so much more.  Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!

In this episode I talk about my spirituality, my beginnings with it and religion, my straying for the majority of my adult life and my journey back to a place where I am comfortable with discussing my spirituality and my opinions on religion, God and a lot more. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc

In this episode Neish and I talk about our 2nd oldest Kaylee graduating last Saturday and the shit show of emotions that it was. We get emotional, shocker I know, but we speak about having to learn how to be an interested party in her life whenever we have only been full time parents and the struggles that it causes.  Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfe...

In this episode Neish and I talk about my career and she expresses her frustration from her point of view. She definitely gets impassioned as we are talking about the issues with society and what we deem as the problems with corporate America. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!

In this episode Neish and I talk about her injuring herself, some of our upbringing, having to navigate having a daughter dating age and raising a 10/11 year old boy that has too much energy. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc

In this episode Neish and I talk about a lot of the negative things we have been through that ultimately led to some of the best things that have happened to us. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!

In this episode, Neish and I meander all over the place. We talk about taking accountability, accepting we weren’t always the best people, setting boundaries and learning how to be there for each other.  Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!

In this episode, we don’t really have a conversation, I felt completely lost and uncomfortably numb as we were recording it. To me it sounds like a wife that feels completely helpless and just wants her husband to be alright. Truthfully there was something cathartic about hearing her say everything she did and the past few days have felt a little different for me. I am thankful that she is my part...

In this episode, Neish and I discuss my turning 40, spoiler, I am not handling it well. Also we discuss my being selfish about wanting the family that I have lost here with me and had a crazy experience caught on the audio in the process. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok, threads and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!

In this episode, Neish ended up interviewing me and I didn’t realize until we were pretty deep into it. It was her way of getting me to just talk without thinking about it and I just opened up on how I am dealing with everything. I explain the goals I have and what I want all of the grief to lead to and make me a better person and not letting the fear of the inevitable hinder me from living my lif...

In this episode, Neish and I discuss what we have been dealing with in the past month; the untimely death of my Mom. This one was kind of all over the place, big surprise I know, but it is a real look into how we have been struggling.  Please know that there is no right way to grieve, it differs person to person and situation to situation, but it is important to allow yourself to grieve regardless...

In this episode, Neish and I discuss the holidays and the negative effect it can have on us and people in general.  Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!

In this episode, Neish and I discuss the past 12 years of our relationship from the tumultuous start to its current iteration and everything in between. This was a super fun one for us and it was even fun to listen back to for me.  Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated!

In this episode, Neish and I discuss the way things are changing for us, the new experiences we are having with our kids getting older and trying to make their way in the world, the struggles we have had trying to reconcile our childhoods and traumas while still trying to raise our own kids. Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram: @thatinfernalnpc Any thoughts or feedback on...

It has all come to this, the sharing of my story. So many things had to line up in such a way that the only explanation is that it was meant to be shared. If you feel alone and isolated from the spiritual or you have “that piece of you missing,” please know what I have been there and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Change is right around the corner if you know where to look.  In this ep...

In this episode, Neish and I talk about her struggle with accepting the things that she has experienced as well as her place in the world. As per usual we kinda go all over the place and talk about her upbringing and some of the inappropriate things she had to deal with.  The reason for calling it the Prelude, is it will serve as an episode 0 for the upcoming saga chronicling her life and we are c...

In this episode, Neish and I talk about my panic attack/life changing spiritual awakening. It was an unbelievably intense and overwhelming experience that terrified me to my core, not since I was a child have I been scared to that extent. It was so impactful, I still feel changed even over a week later. I am thankful for my wife being able to be there for me and keeping me as grounded as possible...

In this episode, my lovely wife Neish and I share with you the most honest and real look into how we communicate. We start with Neish finding the resolve to leave her dead end job and kind of go all over the place from there. She talks about her convictions and finding the strength to stand up for herself over the years we have been together. She finds her pride through the course of the episode....

In this episode, my lovely wife Neish and I discuss where we are currently in our journey, collectively and individually. How we want to be past the point of growth and how we want to be at the finish line. Finding balance with work & family life while still trying to prioritize our mental and physical health. All while figuring out how to be grateful for the progress we have made. Follow us o...

In this episode, my lovely wife Neish and I discuss the evolution of our communication, from the early days of just being friends to having a family together like we do now as well as how we almost lost our relationship in the process.  Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appreciated...

In this episode, what I wanted to be the actual format of the show is finally brought to fruition, my lovely wife Neish and I discuss why we are rebooting and get into a dope conversation that kind of goes all over the place. Join us on the newest chapter in our journey! Follow us on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback o...

In this episode I discuss my obsession with Star Wars and how it relates to my psyche and my mental health. It has become one of my biggest sources of strength and has helped me be more present in my normal life. May the force be with you all! Follow me on facebook, twitter, youtube, tiktok and Instagram @thatinfernalnpc Intro - STMFU by Breed Any thoughts or feedback on it would be very much appr...

In this episode I discuss the most prevalent thought in my mind for a while now, who deserves a seat at my table. Coming to realization and appreciation for what I have and the quality of people that I have around me instead of constantly wanting more or wanting to be liked etc. *If you are dealing with suicidal thoughts and need help 988 has been designated as the new three-digit dialing code tha...