Tanya Made Tangible

Sadness about your divine service. Worry about work. A time to reflect. The joy that comes after.

What about when I’m lacking? How to dance with darkness. Contentment in light + dark.

How to beat the winter/life blues.

Time restriction. Ready to sacrifice our lives. Shema x2.

We can at any moment be beyond the ‘spirit of folly’ - clouded judgement. Hidden love, contains fear - I never want to be separate from HaShem. Planning to repent is problematic, if you do, you can still repent. The cross of infinite and finite that allows for infinite to be felt within finite and finite to be a container for infinite. What do you bow to. Not being lazy - priming our animal parts...

3 cardinal sins. The separation our animal consciousness and garments (thought, speech, and action) experiences, and then the closeness. The Oneness our divine consciousness experiences always.

The dregs - your cholent pot. Adultery vs. idol worship. The spirit of folly - clouded judgement. Sensitivity - being a step ahead of your fall. When man sins vs. wild beasts.

Everything has its opposite. Unity - Separation. Rotten apple. The kingdom.

Who needs to daven. Why. I learn Torah, my *finite containers* - mouth and mind are being filled with *His infinite wisdom*. Contemplating this should arouse awe. You are needed, with whatever capacity you have today.

Learning Torah - I am in total union with HaShem. Not a hug. Not a kiss. Completely. Utterly. Unified. The Tzaddik. The importance of letting go of old beliefs, breaking walls, cleansing, and learning the lessons.

Soul is found within body. Gd’s infinite light (soul) is found within mitzvah (body). 248 limbs of man >> 248 limbs of Gd. His deepest desire is the interaction, activation of His soul, like our deepest desire is activation of our soul - a hug, a good conversation, to feel understood, known, or chosen by someone.

Face to face battery - charging pad. Extension backwards battery - extension cord in the next room. Peak of separation - the belief that I’m okay without Gd. What am I serving. Who. Why.

Gd made us feel separate from Him, though we aren’t actually. Stained glass windows. Gold confetti. ⁠So you can choose Him.

Light and dark are 2 sides of the same coin. Dance with them. Don’t fear/fight dark. Welcome it, feel it, learn from it. Then it is light.

Man’s speech / breath vs Gd’s. You are His choice expression. You are not separate from Him.

Speech vs the power of speech. Thought vs the power of thought. Desire. Knowing. How we’re created in Gd’s image.

The love is hidden because you’ve been broken + hurt. You can heal and you can feel. You can access heart. The love doesn’t have to stay hidden. And you would die for Gd, can you live for Him?

The nature of the hidden love we all possess 🕯️

Chochma. The connection point between HaShem’s infinite light soul and your intellectual and emotional faculties and your expression. We don’t get it. But we get that we don’t get it. And because of that we can have irrational faith. Because there is something beyond me, within me, I can hold on to something beyond me. אני תמיד עמך - I am always with you

You were born with love. Even if you don’t feel it. You have access (we will learn how).

The power of brokenness.

How to break out of your binge cycle.

Breaking habits. Pause. You are a product of your inputs + environment (like a plant) you need water and sunlight (actually), but also metaphorically - Torah and nutritious food, good friends, and a clean room. What you think about, you feel. When you listen to sad music and feel worse - listen to happy music and feel hype. Think about how Gd is choosing to keep you around, soul and body, and get...

Love breaks bounds. Love changes us. Love makes showing up easier. Gd is already choosing you.

Is alignment even the goal? Or is it choosing Gd in the struggle ;). Staying in serving. Efforting. When it feels hard. Pushing past your habit. Recreating habit. It starts to feel easy. Rinse. Repeat.