Tanya Made Tangible

Gd rests comfortably when you deed, even if parts of you resist it. ⁠Within you, around you, home. ⁠The Shechina has no limits. Open your window. The sun is shining.

Torah vs. Mitzva. Thought + speech vs. action. Blood - the connection between body and soul.

Deed is the only thing that is Gd’s inner Will, zero separation, when I deed, there is zero separation, I embody Him. Even a Tzaddik is ‘separate,’ experiences a sense of self, to be able to love Gd. Is He everywhere or only where He is comfortable? Honoring His allergies, making Him comfortable. Gd’s Infinite Light x Wisdom - vastness, the unknown, capacity.

The candle metaphor continues. Having a soul is not enough, it is your capacity. You need to deed. Deed is fuel.

I get to house Gd. Why create people that will spend their lives struggling? That never stop battling. Why put us through the trauma factory. A wise man, his eyes are in his head. Take ownership for what you concern yourself with. You think about what you fill your mind with. A flame above your head. The wick is the body. The deed is the oil. Deed more.

The Avos lived in a constant state of Gd Consciousness. To be a chariot for Gd. To constantly contain Gd. Then came the Mishkan. A container for Gd. Then we lost the Mishkan. Now Gd lives in Halacha, the 4 walls of Halacha. We contain Gd when we honor Halacha. We are now chariots for Gd. Humble yourself - I am not an ultimate container for Him, I cannot truly grasp Gd. I will learn Torah, I get th...

The joy I experience because You are in joy that I have inner peace (faith) because you reside in me and all is ultimate perfection. The dance that is life.

We experience this joy of His unity by expressing our gratitude every morning. Our inheritance is faith, is internal okayness - this is cause for rejoicing. Each time I remember the perfection of my reality, I am revived.

Gd’s unity. How He is everything, within everything, surrounding everything. Nothing is anything relative to Him, He exists before as He will after, as He does now. How do we exist? Extension and expression - like thought capacity vs thought itself, like a ray of the sun; like a candle in daylight ;). This is why we were created. For Gd to be felt in our bodies. How incredible is it to realize tha...

If you see your fellow sinning - hate them. How? Equal in Torah and Mitzvos. You have a close relationship with them. You rebuked them. And they still sinned. Draw people to Torah through friendship. Hate the brokenness in them. Love the soul in them. Channel the hate to compassion and prayer.

View your fellow as soul. Love them for that. Same source, we’re one. Same dad, we’re sisters. See their body as the space where their soul comes through. Their talents as their soul shining. Gd doesn’t dwell in disunity. Being as one is the prerequisite for receiving blessings.

Containing. Where my soul was comforting my broken heart. Now my broken heart is comforting my soul. The light that comes after dark. The joy I get to experience after I’ve felt the pain of my reality, and held onto Gd.

Serve Gd with joy. The cage free feeling our souls are desperate for. Escaping. Utilizing flight mode.

The joy that comes through after the humbling. Can I contain my brokenness and not operate broken. Can I contain my soul. Can I choose to make my soul feel safe in this body. Cage free eggs. Can I do this for myself and for my fellow. Can I pity and pray instead of judge. Myself and my fellow. Can I commit to come home.

The sadness that comes after humbling. Breaking the sadness cycle. The lifelessness of sadness and the warmth of brokenness. Enter brokenness. About Gd. Use the other side against itself. Shatter. Redirect the energy. The expanded self. You’re doing the thing.

You don’t know what it’s like to be at war with yourself. Are you actually doing all the things. Concentrating. Intention. Squeezing yourself. Holding back from what society deems acceptable. Not filling your cravings for things that are technically allowed. Your none active deed is worse than his misdeed, you know better. There is no space for comparison or judgment. You don’t know.

More humbling. You don’t know how you’d act in their environment. You don’t know the passions of their heart. You don’t know the war they wage. Stay curious. Stay open. Exhaust your body and heart before you enter environments that bring out sides of you that are not aligned with Gd.

When you contemplate how low you are, you break your desire for brokenness. Darkness is not real. A little light goes a long way. The false sense that we’re whole or full in the moment of fulfilling desire. In truth, we are disconnecting from the fact that we are broken. But why am I fighting my brokenness. Get comfy.

Reflection time. Thoughts, speech, action. Whose car am I driving. Who’s in my driver seat. Dreams. A window into the subconscious. Joy.

Chapter 29 p2, 29 Shvat 5785 How to humble yourself. Think about your capacity to show up in forbidden things. Reflect and repent for previous sins. As you are today, evolved. Acknowledge the past with the understanding of today.

Chapter 29 p1, 28 Shvat 5785 My heart has gone cold. Now what? The breaking of self that allows for the light to come through. Transformation > Disassociation.

Man is of dual consciousness. Become deaf to thought. Touch dirt get dirty. Asking for compassion. I am you. Help me Gd.

When thoughts come during davening and learning. How can I guide my broken consciousness if I am my broken consciousness. Joy. You’re doing the thing.

Wait.

Anxiety from broken thoughts. Tweak your goal. Aspire to show up for Gd eitherway, not to rid yourself of triggers or brokenness.