Something Heavy: A Memoir on Childhood Trauma and Complex PTSD

Hello World.... This chapter/episode dives in to the role I've always had with my parents, and how I've gone out of my way to parent them.

Hello World.... This chapter/episode discusses my pattern of denying or minimizing parts of my childhood trauma and how I am learning to heal from it.

Hello world... This episode is a 2025 year in review. Start my mental health journey last December it felt fitting to give a review of all the good, bad and in between 2025 showed me.

Hello world, Tobey here... This chapter/episode is how I handle the holiday season for the last 15+ years with family and friends.

Hello world, Tobey here... This chapter/episode is a brief amount on some of the symptoms I have with C-PTSD and how it effects me.

Hello world, Tobey here... This chapter/episode is part 1 of giving credit to some of the parental figures I've gained in my life.

Hello world, Tobey here... This chapter/episode is about my realization that some friendships aren't worth keeping when there's year of data showing that they aren't a good friend to me.

Hello world, Tobey here... This chapter/episode is about the 4 F's (Fight, Flight, Freeze, Fawn) of Completex PTSD and my experience with each one.

Hello world, Tobey here... This chapter/episode is about the yearly feeling I get around the time of my Dad's passing and how it eats at me for reasons I'm trying to figure out.

Hello world, Tobey here... This chapter/episode is the first of many parts of me exploring the difference between familiarity and safety

Recorded 08/2025 Hello world, Tobey here... This chapter/episode is a follow-up after meeting with my sister. Her empathy for our Mom made me reflect on my lack of empathy for our Mom and, most importantly, for myself.

Hello world, Tobey here... This Chapter/Episode is about the concerns I have with sharing my story, the pattern of oversharing my story to people who are new to my life while also not sharing it with my long time friends.

Hello world, Tobey here... This Chapter/Episode is about my relationship, or lack therof, with my sister. Talking about our first times discussing our childhood, and my realization that we've been in constant competition with each other growing up.

Hello world, Tobey here... This Chapter/Episode is about a weekend I had attending a giant wrestling show with the bros, how much it meant to me and how it healed some parts of my inner child.

recorded 7/12/25 Hello world, Tobey here... This Chapter/Episode is about being let down by family members as a youth. Hope you enjoy and excited to hear any and all feedback.

Recorded 07/2025 Hello world, Tobey here... This Chapter/Episode is a dive into why I feel the need to work multiple jobs to the detriment of my mental health. Hope you enjoy and excited to hear any and all feedback.

Recorded 07/2025 Hello world, Tobey here... This Chapter/Episode is the reason why I'm doing this podcast and my experience being diagosed with Complex PTSD... I just think you should here this. Hope you enjoy and excited to hear any and all feedback.

Hello world, Tobey here... It's finally time to start uploading these podcasts on a public forum. This episode is very loose with no structure, but a "fun" story about my youth and why I'm starting this podcast on my journey of healing from childhood trauma. Hope you enjoy and excited to hear any and all feedback.