Soft Survival

What do you do when you miss someone who hurt people you love? This episode explores grief, conflicting memories, family history, and the uncomfortable truth that people are often more complicated than we want them to be.

What if perfectionism isn’t about being perfect, but fear? A conversation about shame, overperforming, self-worth, and learning to be imperfect.

Can you be loved if you don’t fully love yourself yet? In this episode, I explore that question through real experiences, personal patterns, and the relationships we hold onto—romantic and platonic. From loving someone’s potential instead of their reality, to outgrowing a friendship, to learning when to let go without resentment… this is about what we accept as love, and whether healing has to hap...

Spring cleaning isn’t just about what’s around you—it’s about what you’re carrying. This episode is about stress, letting go, and finally creating space to stand up for yourself.

In this episode, I explore the difference between strength and resilience. People often use the words interchangeably, but I’ve come to see them as very different. One is about holding it together. The other is about learning how to bend, break, and still find your way back.

In this episode, Darryn Lewis and I talk about the invisible weight of being the oldest, the leader, the athlete — the one expected to hold it together. We explore how those early roles shape the adults we become, and what it costs to always be the strong one.

Gina Gonzalez-Iwakiri and I talk about what real confidence feels like — and how it’s different from cockiness. We explore losing it, rebuilding it, and learning to walk into a room without shrinking. Are you an extrovert or introvert? Or, a lot/little of both?

In this episode, I talk about the quiet ways we disappear — into isolation, into our phones, into endless scrolling that feels comforting but leaves us more anxious than before. We explore how doomscrolling tricks us into thinking we’re coping, what it’s actually doing to our nervous system, and gentle ways to come back to ourselves, our bodies, and real connection in a loud, overwhelming world.

In this episode, I reflect on what it means to want to take a trust fall — with others and with myself — and the fear that comes up before you do.

In this first episode of the new year, I talk about choosing softness in a world that feels loud, heavy, and overwhelming. This isn’t about ignoring what’s happening — it’s about finding small moments of joy, grounding, and honesty that help us keep going. A gentle start for anyone who’s trying to stay open-hearted without burning out.

Almost a year after losing my brother, we received the call that charges had finally been filed. Sitting in a courtroom, facing the person responsible, became the moment that pulled me backward into everything we hadn’t yet said out loud.

I didn’t choose independence—I needed it. In this episode, I talk about how hyper-independence formed as protection, the loneliness that came with it, and the quiet work of learning how to receive support.

Do you find your body living in the past and your mind racing toward the future? In this episode, I explore trauma, mindfulness, and the search for small moments of calm — the sunsets, pauses, and reflections that gently bring us back to the present.

In this episode, I talk about what it feels like to finally slow down, reconnect with old friends, and realize how much the idea of “family” has evolved for me. From pushing people away to finding comfort in the families I’ve been welcomed into, this is a conversation about stability, safety, and learning to let love stay — even when it feels unfamiliar.

A look at how trauma shows up in the body at night, why sleep feels unsafe, and what my insomnia has been trying to tell me.

A reflection on driving through the redwoods to visit my dad in Pelican Bay State Prison, and how those moments shaped my childhood.

Ever notice how dating or everyday life can bring out old patterns you thought you’d healed? In this episode, I unpack what maladaptive schemas are, how they show up in real life, and why getting triggered doesn’t mean you’re broken — it means you’re human.

Growing up, my brother was told to be “the man of the house.” He stepped into that role too soon — fighting for us, feeding us, protecting me. This isn’t about the day my brother passed away. This episode explores the guilt, grief, and love that still lives in that space.

In this episode, I talk about turning 31 and what aging really means beyond the number. When you think about age—are you counting the years you’ve lived, or the versions of yourself you’ve survived?

This week, I unpack how early trauma shaped my nervous system and how I’m slowly rewriting those patterns through movement, travel, and mindful living. It’s not just about leaving home—it’s about coming back to yourself.

In this episode, Jovelle sits down with Gina — the woman who opened her home and heart when she was ten years old. A lighthearted sneak peek into their bond, their stories, and the beginnings of a lifelong connection.

My first episode! A glimpse into what this podcast is all about: a safe place for mental health, healing, and wellness. Join Jovelle Rose as she shares her journey from surviving to thriving, all while holding onto the softness that makes us human.