Since Right Now

“I grew up in an alcoholic home so I knew what alcoholism was but I didn't ever talk about it. So I lived in denial for 23 years." Advocate Annie McCullough is a maven of reinvention with a serious social conscience. Drawing on her previous roles at Dell, Orchard Recovery Centre and Edgewood Health Network, Annie combines her background in project and event management with her passion for recovery...

REEEEEEEEEEEE-MIIIIIIIX!!!! “When you're not partying anymore, all the problems that the drugs were masking, that the alcohol was masking, they just fly to the surface.“ It's been a long time—too long—but past guest and the man behind our amazing Intro an Outro themes, DJFM himself, joins us once again!

“I don't even know what’s wrong. Career? Love? Money? Who the fuck knows?…I want to do something dangerous.” —Real talk from Jeff

Claire “Amy” Foster + Kristi ”Tina” Coulter Guest-Co-Host This Very Special Episode of Since Right Now LIVE! ______________ Claire: http://theRecoveryRevolution.online/claire-rudy-foster Kristi: http://offdry.com ______________ Thanks to @djfmdotcom for our themes!

It was the best of episodes; it was the worst of episodes. _________ We had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way—in short, this podcast was so far like other podcasts, that some of its noisiest critics insisted on its being received, in the superlative degree of comparison only.

“It was the loneliest, saddest little episode." —Matt on the last time we recorded without Jeff Chris and Matt concur that neither is depressed or particularly anxious. That we know of!

“I could just drive over (to the liquor store) and nobody would know.” —Kera on alcohols long reach Kera Yonker is a Californian and quasi-New Yorker who lives in North Carolina where she is writing a book. Kera has been sober for almost three years. Read Kera's piece, The Soberest Drunk Girl at the Party @ TheRecoveryRevolution. Online/insights and No One to Rescue Me from My Drinking in the NYT.

After two false starts Jeff, Matt and Chris spit hot fire over a sick beat. Well, we ramble semi-coherently for about an hour on a variety of topics—not the least of which being Chris’ meds. And we talk about the Strawberry-Gooden Beef (delicious, btw) and when/how/if to address another's destructive addiction in public. ALSO! Listener calls! ————————————— Now go follow @djfmdotcom

Yo! Chris is taking his show and going on vacation. For a week. Back next Wed with an all new show LIVE on Mixlr.com/sincerightnow @ 8p Central. Call 507-556-7271 to leave us a VM and your call could make in into the show. OR! Chat with us live via Mixlr during the show. OR! Wait for us to ask for callers and you can Skype (voice) live with us on air.

"I'm not 21, so I can't (drink.)" —Tammi on following the rules ________________ Tammi hasn’t had a drink since February 3, 2015. She is a former wine bar owner, lifelong seeker and recovering perfectionist. She makes art every day and credits this practice as the path to her spiritual overhaul. She documents her creative forays and monthly sobriety milestones at TammiSalas.com and now on TheRecov...

“To walk around in an altered state and have that other eye…it made me feel safe and it made me feel very powerful. And I dove right-the-fuck in.” —————————— We’re absolutely thrilled to finally be hosting the phenomenally gifted writer CRF on SRN. Claire's critically recognized short fiction appears in various respected journals, including McSweeney's, Vestal Review, and SmokeLong Quarterly. She...

“I woke up in the hospital…my stomach was…bleeding. My heart had shut off. But a few days later I drank again.” —Charlotte on the tenacity of denial in addiction. On day one of her sobriety—originally a planned 90-day detox challenge—Charlotte had the foresight to document the clarity and anxiety of that momentous occasion. Now, just over 2 years later, she has a dedicated following of what have b...

“There were mornings waking up (with) no clue what happened last night but it was never something at that point where I would think I should stop…or slow down.” Lisa Smith is a writer and a lawyer. Clean and sober for more than 10 years, she is passionate about breaking the stigma of drug and alcohol addiction, particularly for professional women. Girl Walks Out of a Bar is her story. http://www.l...

"I was high when we talked if I recall correctly." —A live caller to the BIGGER, BADDER, BOLDER, LIVER Since Right Now. Tune in to find out who…

"It as always more about the destination than the route."—Matt on "getting lost." Part 1 of our two-part 2 Year Anniversary LIVEstravaganza. Beginning with this episode the show will be broadcast LIVE! on Wednesday nights at 8:00pm Central. You can catch LIVE! episodes via http://SinceRightNow.com/on-air or http://mixlr.com/sincerightnow . Using Mixlr’s built-in chat you can interact with us in re...

"I need help. I need a miracle." —Carly on coming to believe that a power greater than herself could restore her to sanity. As an avid traveler, yogi & confessed self-help junkie, Carly writes about her adventures in life & sobriety on http://MiraclesAreBrewing.com/ where she offers inspirational concepts for enlightenment, spirituality & embracing epicness. She’s been sober from cocaine and alcoh...

“I decided to start taking random pills from the pharmacy where I worked.”—Erin on adapting to her circumstances. Erin is a recovering addict, personal trainer, freelance writer, and blogger living in Chicago. Her blog, http://erinsinsidejob.com/, is a journey through her continued recovery and a reminder to others that true wellness comes from within. Active in the mental health and fitness commu...

“I remember waking up the next morning, there was blue paint all over my nurse’s costume, there were chicken nuggets on the terrace…” —Helaina on the makings of a memorable rock bottom. Helaina Hovitz was 12-years-old and in middle school three blocks from the World Trade Center on September 11th, 2001. Her memoir encapsulates the journey of a girl growing up with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder af...

"…and then I realize I sound like a tremendous dick.“—Chris, in the rooms. In which Chris goes to listen to Jeff speak, doesn't know what the fuck is going on and ends up speaking himself. Jeff's talk was terrific. And it was his birthday.

"Everyone knew what they were going to be; I had no idea. Then as soon as I drank I was like THIS is what I'm going to be."—Mishka on career choices. A misfit kid at the best of times, Mishka had his world shattered when, in a twenty-four-hour span in 1992, he survived a mass shooting on his school’s campus, then learned that his parents were getting divorced. His father, a prominent rocket scient...

“I just had a doctor's appointment and he asked (about my family history.) I said as long as mental health isn’t involved we’re pretty healthy.” Garrett, himself in recovery and an ACOA, is the Director of Operations for Alta Centers. Alta Centers is on out-patient program with a focus on creativity that works with evidence-based practices to sustain an individuals sobriety while keeping them invo...

“I was hungover for many years and I just thought I was tired.”—Kristi on the self-delusions of the active alcoholic. Kristi is an essayist and fiction writer whose work has appeared in The Mississippi Review, Salon's Virgin Fiction anthology, AddictionUnscripted.com (formerly TheRealEdition.com), and elsewhere. She's currently at work on a collection of personal essays about living sober in a tip...

“I didn't come crawling into an AA meeting thinking, ‘Oh, I've got to quit drinking.’”—Nancy on denials last gasp. Inspired by writers she admired for their honesty and grit—Joyce Maynard, Augusten Burroughs, Anne Lamott and Kelly Corrigan—Nancy started writing more and more and by early 2005 had compiled a 250 page manuscript for her own memoir, Last Call: A Memoir. On her blog, also Last Call, s...

“I didn't start dealing until my dealer went to jail.“—Kelly on rising to the occasion. From Kelly: Now, after a relapse and fresh out of out-patient, this time feels different. I feel this a major game-changer for me. I feel like it’s re-birth of sorts. I feel PRESENT and enthusiastic about this new me. I like the person I am becoming and am hopeful for what ever the future brings. I was ambivale...

“I hit another rock bottom about two and a half years into sobriety that was probably worse than before I got sober.” As a recovered alcoholic and drug addict, she has personal experience of what it takes to recover from an addiction. Veronica has worked as a therapist and life coach specialising in addiction for over fifteen years; her experience includes working with young people in the criminal...