Redefining Love with Tara Portelli

Lance grew up struggling to fit in. Bullied and isolated, he found solace and self-worth in hockey—a sport that gave him identity, purpose, and an escape. At just 11 years old, he left his home and his mother to move across the country with his father, chasing his dream on the ice. But instead of finding safety and support, he was met with the harsh reality of living under the roof of a cruel step...

Have you ever heard the term “surrender to the flow”? Too often we try to control every little detail of our life, like we have the true control over the outcome, when the truth is, we don’t. Keeping yourself small, safe and within in all of the parameters you have created, is actually just fear disguised as security. Fear of the unknown, fear of failure, fear of not being enough, but what if that...

It is very rare that a homeless, addict ever recovers. The cumulative trauma too deep and the addiction too strong - like a freight train coming at you 100 miles an hour. Justin Wood, is an anomaly and after a 23 year battle with addiction, living on Hastings Street in Vancouver, Canada, known to be one of the worst streets for homelessness in North America, he found himself in a prison cell. Whil...

In this solo episode I share the painful story when I had to break my own heart to leave my best friend and husband, as an act of self love. In many relationship endings, they can be dramatic and there is no other option, as a result of infidelity, betrayal or a cycle of fighting that is beyond repair. In my case, I had been shrinking myself to fit this relationship and trying to keep our love ali...

In this solo episode, I vulnerably share my personal experience with someone I was planning a future with and how it ended in the ultimate betrayal. The truth is, my emotions, my physical body and my inner being knew he was deceitful - but I ignored it all because at that time, I lacked self worth and truly just wanted to be loved. What I learned is how to deeply love myself instead and how to rec...

I share a personal story of deep grief and sadness when I had to leave my husband/best-friend and lost my rescue dog all in the same week. I had to learn to rebuilt what had burned down, from the ground up - starting with an empty house, an air mattress and a can of paint.   Those times in our life that we are taken to our knees, are not an accident, they are meant to force us to grow or choose a...

Max Nijst Turned his life around after a long battle with his addictions. After losing his wife, his kids and everything he had ever known that represented LOVE in his life, he was forced to go within, in a battle that would land him in prison. What he faced was the depths of himself and an unveiling of the love he had inside himself, that had been buried under the guilt, shame and self loathing....

  In this solo episode, I fully open up about a guy I was dating and how he became the catalyst to some of my biggest realizations in how I show up in relation to others. Through the details of my date, you will see how I came to realize a pattern I had in all my relationships for my entire life. Talk about a light bulb moment! When I finally realized and shifted this pattern, the quality of peopl...

Tara shares her personal journey through creating her dream retreat centre in the jungle; a vision she has wanted for years. Her experience was nothing short of challenging.  From being without electricity, hot water, internet and completely isolated in the Mexican Jungle, she vulnerability shares how this villa was her actually her very own “Transformational Retreat” taking her to her knees at mo...

Michael Dash shares his heroic journey from chasing the next dopamine hit, through his addictions as an over achieving,  ego-driven, leader to landing at the bottom of a cliff. As the life he had worked so hard to build began to crumble around him, he was left in a puddle of shame, guilt and a drawn out legal battle that destroyed everything he knew as his “happiness”.   After surrendering and cha...

What if one experience could shift everything… and still be unfolding 1.5 years later? In this deeply honest and vulnerable conversation, Dawn and Dan return to share the profound impact of their 5-day couples psilocybin retreat — not just in the moment, but in the long-lasting ripple effects it's had on their lives, relationship, and sense of self. Dan, initially hesitant and unsure if he even ne...

If you’ve ever felt stuck in the same painful relationship cycle—always attracting the wrong people, ignoring red flags, and wondering why it keeps happening—this episode will help you see things differently. I share a personal story that led me to a powerful truth: the people we attract are often mirrors for the parts of us that still need healing. But here’s the hope—once you begin doing the inn...

Keegan spent years living in secret as a high-functioning addict, silently battling his demons while the world around him had no idea. When life brought him to the edge—facing suicidal thoughts and a fatal diagnosis—he was forced to confront everything he’d been avoiding. But from that rock bottom, something extraordinary happened. This is a gripping, emotional, and deeply vulnerable conversation...

Welcome!! You are not here by accident. I want to share something.... We've been taught that happiness exists outside of us but the truth is that happiness is actually only obtained from within. This podcast is about finding that place inside of yourself that gives you everything you need It's a place inside of you so rich in inner peace that nothing can take it away from you.  Enjoy and if you lo...