Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse

Trust, it's a hard concept for survivors when it comes to God, yet so essential. Today we dive into what trust is and how we can begin to approach trusting God when everything inside us says not to. Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:lisa@onlygodrescuedme.comTo help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://w...

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life. This interview is especially importan...

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life. This interview is especially importan...

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life. This interview is especially importan...

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life. This interview is especially importan...

Join Sydney Millage as she gives a wonderful explanation on how to view suffering. For the rest of her interview, find: Sally's Story with Sydney Millage.

Sydney Millage discusses embodiment with us today on this short. Join us for the rest of this discussion on the podcast under the title: Sally's Story with Sydney Millage.

Welcome to Sally's Story. Author Sydney Millage joins us to explore the beginning stages of the ritual abuse healing journey through the story of Sally. This beautifully written book gently introduces the challenges survivors often face when they first begin uncovering wounds they may not yet fully understand. With warmth, compassion, and insight, Sydney gives language to experiences that can...

“Fault” is one of the hardest words for abuse survivors to bear—especially for those who have experienced SRA. Why does this word cut so deeply? How do double binds trap us? What is moral injury, and why does it linger? Today, we step into this painful space together. And to make sense of it, we’ll look at SRA in a way that may feel unexpected—as a kind of game. It’s a perspective that may change...

Sheryl’s healing journey began when her postpartum depression didn’t lift after nine months. With her fourth child, she knew something wasn’t right—and her wise therapist gently suggested there might be more beneath the surface than the baby blues. Desperate for answers, Sheryl was willing to try anything. What followed was a descent into the terrifying reality of ritual abuse. Over the past ten y...

Mother’s Day can be especially hard for survivors. In this episode, Lisa shares a message for getting through the weekend—holding space for the heartache many are carrying, while gently reminding us that we are not alone. Even in the heaviness, there is strength in community. We can take this one step at a time, together. Hang in there, my friends. We will make it through.

Mother’s Day can be deeply complicated when your story with your mom includes trauma. How do you honor your mother as Scripture calls us to…while also protecting yourself? Are you allowed to create distance? What does forgiveness look like when the harm is real? And how do you guard the next generation? Today, we step into these difficult and often unspoken questions with Monique Koven, host of th...

Art therapy can reach parts of the brain that traditional talk therapy often can’t. Research is beginning to confirm this—but the “why” is still unfolding. In this episode, Samantha Liddicoat joins us to explore how creativity opens pathways to emotion, healing, and connection. She introduces The Imagination Journal, a playful, non-threatening way to engage your thoughts and feelings through color...

Hey Littles, this one is especially for you. Anita Anderson has written a beautiful book just for DID parts—especially Littles—called The Hearthouse . It’s a warm,inviting story that gently guides survivors into connecting with their inner world, building communication, and growing compassion within their system. In today’s episode, Anita joins us to share the heart behind the book and her own liv...

In today’s episode, Amy Weber joins us to guide a deeply important conversation about the role of the body in healing. Our bodies have carried us through so much—especially in the context of abuse—and yet they are often the most overlooked part of the healing process. Amy shares that the body is the “forgotten element” in recovery, and invites us to begin reclaiming it through one simple, powerful...

Good Friday can carry deep weight for survivors. Today, we gently enter into a hard but important conversation about the “why” behind that. This episode may be triggering, so please listen with care—only if you’re in a place where you feel grounded, and pause whenever needed. We’ll also talk about how cult environments can mock and distort the death and resurrection of Yeshua, often leaving surviv...

Meet Linda Etherton—another courageous voice in our Victor Series . Linda shares her story with a deep desire to bring glory to God, even through the hardest parts of her journey. Her testimony includes the painful aftermath of ritual abuse and the complex path she has walked toward healing. Through seasons of confusion, emotional waves, and slow but steady restoration, Linda has continued to pres...

Larry Macmurdo first heard about ritual abuse and sex trafficking and knew he wanted to help. He reached out to me with a sincere heart, searching for a way to step into this difficult work. For several years, he prayed and wrestledwith how he could make a difference. As a former Marine, Larry eventually realizedthat his training had uniquely prepared him to serve as a rescuer. He connected with t...

Tabitha Westbrook, a licensed therapist specializing in complex trauma, joins us for a gentle conversation about learning to approach our bodies with compassion. In a world filled with constant information andemotional overload, it’s easy to feel overwhelmed or disconnected. But our bodies are not working against us — they are often doing their best to protect us. In this episode, Tabitha invites...

Dr. Claire Robertson Taylor knows that barely surviving isn’t where the story has to end. Healing requires intention — a decision to turn in a new direction. When staying inside feels safer, stepping out the door can feel almost impossible. But that simple act can be a game-changer. The world is drenched in green — a color that naturally boosts serotonin in our bodies. Even the soil beneath our fe...

From the outside, it was the perfect church family. A pastor uncle. A choir-singing mother. A ministry-leading grandmother. But behind that image was something unthinkable. Pamela Richards-Woodall was trafficked by her own family. Was the church unaware? Or unwilling to see? Her story includes ritual abuse, generational secrecy — and a life-or-death standoff with a shotgun that changed everything....

The world is still trying to process the impact of what’s been revealed in the Epstein files. Audra Lynn Fasano didn’t just read about it — she lived it. In her twenties, Audra encountered Jeffrey Epstein, and more than twenty years later, she is still navigating the fallout of that abuse. The effects don’t end when the headlines fade. They ripple forward. In this conversation, Audra shares what s...

Rebecca Davis joins us for an important and thoughtful conversation on how to help survivors of Ritual Abuse. Together, we explore the complex realities survivors often face, including issues of trust, insecurity, and the deep need for safe, informed support. This episode also addresses the education and preparation helpers need before stepping in, the challenges they may encounter, and practical...

Levels of Communication Patiane teaches about the 5 Levels of Friendship. Take these levels slowly and make friends earn their level.

In this episode of Only God Rescued Me , we meet Patiane, who exemplifies what it means to live life while continuing to heal the hard. She has endured the extremes that abuse can bring and is still working to piece together the complexities of perpetrators and victims within her own family system. As she navigates daily life alongside ongoing healing, Patiane shares moments of unexpected grace—fi...