Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse

Lara grew up in a home marked by violence and repeated injustice. In one pivotal moment, she acted in desperation to protect herself—only to be taken away by police and labeled the aggressor. This pattern would repeat itself throughout her childhood in the Derchak home. As a child, Lara knew something was deeply wrong. Years later, she would come to understand the hidden layers of sexual and ritua...

We are so grateful to begin a new season with an incredible line-up of SRA Victors and Helpers who are bravely sharing their stories. This season offers a meaningful mix of encouragement, education, healing, and hope , grounded in lived experience and compassion. Thank you for being such an important part of this community. Your presence matters more than you know. 🤍

Jennie Grace grew up in the UK foster care system. She livedin an area of 742 square miles and had 100 children's homes. She wasphotographed and placed on a "menu" to be sold into an organizedcrime world of sex trafficking and SRA. Picked up by taxis and drugged atnight, she remembers being driven around England and the places she was taken. The police refused to take her seriously....

In today's episode I introduce you to Patrick, my husband of 30 years. We discuss our early years of dating and marriage and find out why he believed the sexual abuse and the sra. I hope you enjoy hearing our journey of discovery of abuse from his perspective. 

Merita Atherly Engen is from a family of SRA, although she herself was not a victim of the SRA. She has released her first book about her story, documenting how the silence enforced on them all seriously affected her life. "Heartache of Promise" is a well-written book that shows the pain and abuse Merita suffered and how the fallout of the toxic family system affected her life and the ch...

Clinging to God in DespairJuxtaposing the god of the torture of rituals with the Yahweh of love in the Bible, we know who to cling to in despair. Hear who Angie turned to in her despair. Catch up with the rest of her story in "Angie, SRA Victor," on the "Only God Rescued Me" podcast.

Angie Tripp grew up in a home filled with fear and an unpredictable, angry mother. For years, she learned to survive by shutting down her emotions. But adulthood—and eventually marriage counseling—forced her to confront the anger she carried but never understood. As Angie began journaling, her writing took unexpected turns, revealing pieces of her story that didn’t make sense at first. What follow...

Kardia Joi joins us today to share the story behind her powerful song, “Small.” It’s one of my personal favorites—always on repeat in my playlist. The song asks a deeply honest question: Can we trust God to be big in the midst of our deepest pain and trauma? Through raw emotion and lyrical grace, Kardia invites us to let God rebuild our identity, restore what’s been broken, and lead us into healin...

As the day of her interview approached, Sherry Spears found herself in a deep battle for her life. Suicidal thoughts pressed in, but she fought back the darkness—writing the words “I don’t have to kill myself” again and again. Sherry made it through. And today, she bravely shares her story. Targeted and isolated for years, Sherry continues to fight for healing, for meaning, and for the chance to l...

This All Hallows’ Eve, Lisa steps out from behind the mic—not as the host of Only God Rescued Me, but as a survivor. In this unscripted and unfiltered episode, she shares raw reflections from the heart: the hidden grief survivors carry while the world celebrates costumes and candy. Short, gentle, and deeply real—this episode invites you to listen, reflect, and see survivors with compassion.

Brandy Young has spent years advocating for survivors of human trafficking. Her work took an unexpected turn when a survivor of ritual abuse disclosed her story. Unfamiliar with the concept of SRA, Brandy began researching and educating herself to provide informed, compassionate support. As more survivors began to come forward, Brandy recognized a pattern—and a need for awareness. She believes tha...

In generational SRA families, domestic abuse often operates beneath the surface of daily life. Joining us today is Sydney Millage, executive director of Clarity in Action Ministries. She’s the author of 37 Ways to Be Taken Captive: Warning Signs and Prevention for Destructive Relationships—a pivotal resource for understanding how abuse takes root and how freedom begins. Together, we’ll unpack what...

Undocumented children are quietly disappearing from Delaware classrooms — and one teacher refused to stay silent. When educator Wendy Mears began asking questions, she was met with intimidation and disciplinary action instead of answers. If thousands of documented children go missing each year, how many more are uncounted? In this gripping interview, Wendy speaks out about what she’s seen, the pri...

Overcoming Fear is not easy for survivors, but it is something we can step carefully into as we heal. You can catch up with the rest of Brooke's interview here: https://youtu.be/HgNa-rYcxUE

In this powerful episode, the tables are turned as cohost Brooke Abella steps in to interview Lisa Meister. You may know Lisa’s story as a courageous survivor of SRA, but this conversation begins at a pivotal point—her journey to writing her memoir, "Only God Rescued Me." Together, Brooke and Lisa explore the heart behind the book and the inspiration that led to the creation of this podc...

Standing in the Gap event in Delaware with Wendy Mears

Mary joined us in 2022 to give us encouragement and biblical counsel on getting through the month of October. I feel it is well worth re-publishing. You can find her website at www.marydemuth.com. Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:lisa@onlygodrescuedme.comTo help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy M...

You met Brooke in 2023 as Avi Shepherd when she gave her victor story. https://youtu.be/ZXyruR-pbX0Today, she comes to you as Brooke. She explains her name change in the podcast. She now has a masters in pastoral counseling. Today we talk about the courage to speak as a survivor, being the black sheep of a generational RA family, the beginning of healing, and what to expect, how to find a counselo...

Lisa Gillard tells her story in today's podcast. Parts 1 and 2 of her interview painted the picture of how the abuse has affected her life, thereby creating a cry for justice that has spurred her to reach out for someone who would help her achieve it. It has also given her a heart to help other survivors along the way. Join me today in honoring LIsa's story as a compassionate listener. Onl...

We have been slowly working our way through Lisa's story. In part 1, we discussed how Lisa has experienced flashbacks, triggers, medical conditions directly resulting from trauma, financial strain from therapy, and managing the loss of family and friends. Today, we discuss managing the mental health industry, understanding malevolence, look at the crimes involved in the group, discuss the cry...

Lisa Gillard is a good friend who graciously gave mecreative license to play with her story to present it a bit differently than I normally do. What we created was a picture of the life of a survivor. Lisa vulnerably shared the gritty day-to-day challenges survivors face to brave the past and the present in an attempt to deal with the criminality of ritual abuse, the malevolence of the abusers, th...

Sharon grew up in what can only be described as a life of trauma. Her mother didn’t want her. Her father was distant. She grew up without love and filled with shame. She began drinking at thirteen to numb the feelings she couldn’t begin to describe. When she tried to kill herself at seventeen, a voice told her to try to hang in there because it couldn’t get worse. She listened to the voice, even w...

Adrian felt called to visit Jerusalem. He couldn't visit many places while there, but was looking at a valley when a stranger walked up to him to tell him it was the Valley of Hinnom where they sacrificed children. Where did this man come from? Why did he tell him that? Follow Adrian's journey as we hear of God's love for us as the Valley of Hinnom connects to Jesus' walk to Golgot...

Samantha's heartbreaking experience of losing her two young sons to her husband's involvement in a cult has been chronicled in her debut book, "Everything is Going to Be Okay." Ever since, she has been actively advocating for the return of her boys, battling against the court system. In her latest book, "Pretended Justice," she delves into the flawed justice system and...

Kadaya packed up two outfits for a two-week seminar to figure out the SRA flashbacks she was having, only to be served with divorce papers that included no contact with her young children. The divorce left her with nothing. This is the life of a survivor who lives in a cult town and refuses to follow the cult's mind control. Kadaya chose to follow God and truth. Now she also has her podcast, "The...