My Humanity Is Showing

“Love can only exist in freedom. The true lover seeks the good of his beloved which requires especially the liberation of the beloved from the lover.” Anthony De Mello in The Way to Love In this episode, I share some reflections about what “freedom” means to me.

In this episode, I reflected on the meaning of Memorial Day and let the stream of consciousness flow. Perhaps there is some benefit hidden in my share. Trigger warnings: mentions of war, human trafficking, death, depression

In this episode, I shared about a emotionally challenging day resulting from my own shame and fear of rejection. I am grateful for the miracle that this was only one day rather than several days, or even months, as it would have been in the past. Trigger warning: mental health issues, suicide, depression

“Make me a channel/instrument of Thy Peace…” from then St. Francis Prayer (I believe I accidentally called it the Lord’s Prayer). In this episode, I share about my desire to make a difference in the world and “leave my legacy”: my vain attempt at immortality. That being said, I have found the most peace in just being a spoon - you’ll have to listen to the episode to understand what that means.

This was a particularly difficult episode to record. I shared about a very embarrassing behavior from early in my marriage. I’m grateful today for clarity around my reaction to help me see that I am not possessed or evil. I’m nick-naming this the “French Fry episode.” You’ll have to listen to understand why.

This was an interesting episode for me. I started by sharing my fear that I’ll soon no longer be relevant and my podcast might one day become repetitive. Before I knew it, I was sharing about my recent experience with a Whole Health Coach and the results of her asking a simple question, “What brings you joy?” Trigger Warning: Mental Health, Suicide

“True happiness is to enjoy the present, without anxious dependence upon the future, not to amuse ourselves with either hopes or fears but to rest satisfied with what we have, which is sufficient, for he that is so, wants nothing.” - Seneca In this episode, I reflect on how focusing on the present has helped my deal with fear/anxiety and resentment/regret.

In this episode, I share some reflections on black and white thinking, imposter thoughts, and my desperate need for validation, acceptance, and inclusion.

Imperfection - God’s perfect plan to stay actively involved in our lives… In this episode, I reflect on some of my recent errors and reflections on how beautiful imperfection can be.

In this episode I share some of my experiences and reflections around the importance of human connection, in particular when I can be of service.

In this episode, I share some reflections on sympathy, empathy, and my struggles with balancing empathy with self-care.

In this episode, I share about the importance of keeping some laughter in my life.

“I’d like some fresh, clear, well seasoned perspective.” - Anton Ego from Ratatouille. In this episode, I discuss a concept I recently stumbled upon that I find helpful to remind me to always check the stories that I assign to the world and myself.

After a frightening flight (may have been mild for those without a fear of flying) and some experiences around aging family this past week, I share in this episode about mortality, aging, the elderly. Trigger warnings: suicide, flying, elder care

Judgment is used by those who have been given authority to assign value to things. For example, a building inspector has the training and authority to determine if construction meets or doesn’t meet the standards. Assigning value without authority is a form of insane pride. In this episode, I explore this topic further. Trigger warnings: depression, suicide

In this episode, I share some reflections about the impact nostalgia has on my personality. In many ways, I am a collection of my memories.

I have a hard time seeing myself as a valuable person who is allowed to ask for assistance from others. My tendency is to start requests with “I am so sorry to bother you…” or add “I am high maintenance…” I many ways I am addicted to shame. Today, I seek to show myself some respect and ask for what I need without succumbing to my shame.

With Super Bowl LVII coming up, several people are asking me, “Which team are you rooting for: Chiefs or Eagles?” In this episode, I share my experiences with football and other competitive team sports. 

I am not a fan of flying! Everything from airports to plane exhaust bothers me. Most of all, I hate not being in the cockpit flying the plane. I have a strong need to be in control. In this episode, I reflect on my journey from unchecked control to the freedom that comes from release.

In this week’s episode, we continue where we left off last week with the rest of the recording from the live session on the Wisdom app. In my teens, I became committed to religion. This was the start of a long journey of seeking perfection on faith. Through my own personal struggles, I was led to a break from religion while I strived to “meet” God. Today, my religious practice is nowhere as tightl...

In my teens, I became committed to religion. This was the start of a long journey of seeking perfection on faith. Through my own personal struggles, I was led to a break from religion while I strived to “meet” God. Today, my religious practice is nowhere as tightly constructed as it once was; however, I have been fortunate to grow along spiritual lines. This episode is Part 1 of a two part explora...

“Sweet Dreams are made of this…” I stumbled upon this famous song at the end of the episode and it reminded me of the famous sililoquy about suicidal ideation “To be or not to be, that is the question,” in which Hamlet asks himself about life after death and “what dreams may come?” In this episode, I touch on the topic of mortality and my reluctance to get medical care from providers I don’t know....

With the start of a new year on the Gregorian Calendar, I shared my experiences with another calendar (Hijri). This opened up a discussion on various holidays, customs, traditions, languages, and cultures and how these can be divisive or binding depending on how I choose to view them. The random message of this episode was rather interesting and brought an additional discussion about viewing the w...

I have always struggled with a tremendous fear of missing out (FOMO). In particular, holidays and vacations create a feeling in me of being abandoned. Over time, I have learned to support the positive voice inside me that presents me with a more realistic picture of what’s happening as opposed to the negative self-view voice. Trigger warning: depression, suicide

It seems that Sunday evenings are often heavy for me as I mentally prepare to face the week. In this episode, I explore the narratives that may be fueling my discontent with the start of the work week. Trigger warning: depression, suicide