My dog will eat my face

I had a recent discussion with my hospice social worker, wherein the discussion provided a catalyst to me framing my views on the banal of popular culture and general decline of cognition and language skills in society. These incredibly simple (tongue in cheek) topics are pieced together within this podcast, which, incidentally, seems to be the only thing I can do in response to this blight on soc...

Don't we all love unsolicited advice? No?! Obviously, I jest. Of course we don't, especially when fighting for your life. In this relatively brief podcast I discuss my interaction with such unsolicited benevolence (as the giver surely must feel that's what it is). In short, Sweet Brown said it best: Ain't nobody got time for that!

This Roman proverb haunted me a but, since it felt like I was physically yielding as my body became more and more weakened by my disease. Does this then make me not brave, but a coward? I broached this subject with my social worker in hospice, and our discussion was surprising, and gave me a different perspective on this subject.

I recently asked myself a very discomforting question within my internal dialogue. But no matter how unpleasant it is, it must be answered - at some point. Here I try to identify the catalyst of when this decision must be made, yet sadly I have no clear concrete options or their associative outcomes. Harumph!

Ever ask yourself, why do we have to get old and die anyway? Why can't we just live forever? Some species on Earth do! So why not humans? Well, in this special armchair science episode, I explore exactly why we MUST get old and die. And the answer sure rubbed my individualistic idealism the wrong way!

I approached the topic of what it is like to be dying in the very first days of my podcast. Years have passed since then, thanks to my particular prognosis, age, and fitness, and now I want to revisit this very early topic again, since I have had much more silvering experience with this topic, sadly.

We always assume a great mind, intelligence or talent is something to celebrate. But, in my personal experience, and according to great minds of the past, isolation is guaranteed trip to isolation. But this, according to those same great minds of the past, is a gift and not a handicap. In this podcast I shall discuss this topic from my personal experience and perspective.

While today's podcast begins with a general health update, share my pity onto those who cannot learn from the wisdom from the past, as if they have had to learn to endure hardship for the first time ever. What a terrible form of self-sacrifice. While no two events can be exactly alike, it saddens me that soo many today take from such lessons so as to improve their own or another's lot.

While I have been away since my last podcast, it was not for anything pleasurable. Rather, it's been quite difficult. But alas, I'm still here, and in the course of this episode, I come to a clear epiphany that both explains my drive, and crystalizes a reason for me to hang on, if I can.

My Friday, the 10th, did not go as I expected. The sudden loss of a normal biological function has indicated severe worsening of my symptoms. The end may be neigh.

New indicia of my heart failing to provide appropriate psychological support. And I'm sorta ok with that.

An analysis of the Saturnalia and the subsequent Sol Invictus pagan holiday (the origin of Christmas), and its relation to my life and terminal, but still alive, status.

I'm facing duel existential threats right now. One physical in nature, the other in financial solvency. This has led me to significant vexation and worry. Yes, worry: one of the most silly emotions of the human spirit.

Health update. And a random rant regarding today's all-present spell casting in our societies!

Don't get me wrong: I love my counselor and plan to continue to see them. But in a recent discussion with my counselor, I realized there is a part of my world view that sets uneasy with me. I further don't see if there's anything I can do to get past un an unsettling fact.

Here I give a brief health update, no huge surprises. Then, I reflect on what I see as a growing problem in the United States. Many others have spoke of the polarization of this country being so severe, a second civil war may be oncoming. I add, though, what I think the cause is: the inability to see the world through the lenses of others.

This phrase of yesteryear is apparently truer than I could ever imagine. And, for someone with Congestive Heart Failure (CHF), the consequences can be rather unpleasant.

A great man once said, "Some people say that death is like saying 'the party is over.' But that's not quite right; the reality is much worse than that: The party is still going on, but YOU have to leave! It's difficult to deal with day-to-day problems while dealing with physical problems. But, you must do it. Not handling these annoying issues will be done so at your peril. Or your family's or lov...

In this podcast I explore my isolation, similar to what I have before. But, the isolation is made worse, more recently, due to several recent factors and epiphanies. I'm not sure if I have a solution, only time will tell...

Battling my impulsive, reptilian brain is a huge struggle. But if I don't at least mitigate it, I'll spend my last days angry. And who wants that?!

The Greek myth of Narcissus still remains a warning cry to the modern world, not in just how to not behave, but how to handle those around you who fail to adhere to its warning. How can an ancient story about a quite handsome youth who, when returning from a hunting trip, become so enamored with his own reflection in a lake, reach in to embrace and love himself to only drown, warn to us today? Let...

Here I summarize the reason WHY I publish the podcast, and provide a rather succinct index of my health history. I know I've provided quite a lot before, but wanted to start on the content provider with a solid format that old listeners may learn something new (or better understand) and also provide a background to newbies. This is also a quick statement of how things are today, before I discu...

Whew.... 30+ days of trying to get the new platform to work. And return to my podcast and gross health news. Yay!

In this final season episode I will provide a more lighthearted question and answer session as I read various questions I've received from fans. Maybe you?? Either way, all of it is ad libbed, so should be a good celebration of chaos, if nothing else.

My quality of life has taken a severe beating the last few weeks, and has certainly taxed me. While I summarize one most the recent changes here, I don't change my views on my life and mortality. Also, some housekeeping due to technical changes are shared.