My dog will eat my face

Unfortunately, I have been visited upon by a most unwelcome technical calamity. This is a special episode to notify listeners. Also, a random rant of absolutely no importance follows, to.... end... on a high note?

Life is full of unexpected events. Sone good, some bad. Some simply funny. I this episode I share a new strange venue that fell into my lap, as well as what what was one of the most horrible days of my life. So bad, in fact, I wondered if I would make it to see the next day. I think the people around me started to wonder something similar as well.

I've been dealing with a fog of depression for the last couple weeks. In this podcast, I analyze the catalyst and state of depression, and come to find that mis happenings or even calamities could bring with them a positive result. This has helped the fog of depression to finally begin to lift for me.

I recently became befouled by envy, and it dragged my chipper mood down to the basement. In this podcast, I analyze this envy, using stoicism as a base of principles to see where it gets me,

I lament the loss of independent living that seems to plague today's youth. When I was a child, there were "helicopter parents" here and there, but childhood was largely left for us kids to enjoy or endure, depending on the circumstance. My friends' and extended family kids nowadays seem to have parents integrated into every facet of their lives. I honestly find it repugnant and...

Much like my last episode, I took a nasty dive to the floor while I was still recovering from the first fall just 2 weeks prior. My gimped hand reverted back to day one, all progress in healing was reversed, and I have a new dose of disabling pain. This dying process is very obnoxious.

An art group is using me and some others in an exhibit on inpermenence of life. So, went through a very old school photo shoot. More to come on that later. Then, I slipped in my shower. It was violent and very loud. I broke multiple bones, am bruised in various odd places, and sprained my ankle. My heart also did not like that. I swelled up, and heart rate would hover around 145 and 70 o2 at rest...

I recently encountered some troubling behavior wherein ignorance and frankly, stupidity, is celebrated far above any virtue of knowledge, talent, or ability. I retell what happened most recently here, and can only settle on one unfortunate conclusion.

As of late, I've experienced a wide range of worsening symptoms indicating worsening heart strength. Some of these are symptoms I would never have guessed tie to a weak heart until I learned what they meant. What fun!

Recently I've delt with some rather toxic relationships that have gone to the wayside. It pained me to see them go. But as I revisit some of ancient people and people hundreds of years ago said (such as Schopenhauer), I come to a better understanding of why what happened, happened. Through this, I feel closure and peace.

Here I discuss the pragmatic things I had to learn at the end of life, the paperwork, and details that need to be done now so that your survivors don't go to hell before you do. Also, I underscore an action that I take every day - sometimes several times a day - to keep my feet on the ground and focus on the goal. Also, there were some changes with my podcast editing application, so if any wei...

Let's discuss Box Universe theory! Then explore the terrifying implications if it was how the universe works. While for some, it may also provide comfort. At the very least, you can mention it at cocktail parties to impress your new acquaintances.

Where have I been? Living the dream! (Corrected version. My technician should have caught this and will be sacked expeditiously!)

I had an unusual experience recently - planning my own funeral. That experience was not what anyone expected, and led me to further self actualize! Funny what picking songs does to the psyche...

Two part podcast. I come to an interesting epiphany in the middle of that, which further reinforces another razor I have explained in other podcasts!

Sadly, this juxtaposition was bound to happen sooner or later when one deals with morality and death. Religion has claimed that realm as an unyielding sovereign for millennia - until philosophy and history wrestled it away from religion's sole territory. My nurse tried to take it back to those days, when religion reigned over the quivering, foolish masses. Unfortunately, for her, I'm not o...

A recent discussion with my counselor reminded me of a few axioms I use to prevail, or endure, a difficult situation. I realize those axioms apply here, but how does one endure an arduous condition when the only cessation of that condition is your own death?

In this podcast I share some of the intricacies of hospice care, and how, despite being given grim outcomes, that I don't consider myself a victim and still find joy on a daily basis.

In this episode, I explore how living one's life is not too different from a simple golf game. With that said, I've been terrible at my short game, much like real world golf, and have been adjusting how I manage my life even with my decline and illness.

In this "special" podcast I discuss a new and worsening series of physical issues, that are truly alarming and absolute "firsts" in my life's history. I fear my Protein C deficiency is causing these issues, but right now, there is no way to be sure.

Don't worry, I'm still dying, but wanted to get some thoughts that have been in my head for a while off my chest. In this episode I discuss the war in Ukraine - and my personal connection to it. My perspective is likely controversial, however. So please listen kindly and gently.

In this podcast I summarize a recent and troubling Care Call between hospice and family. I also give in to the idea of cremation, and select a profound resting place, wherein my knowledge of Roman history beautifully meshes with ancient and modern sentiments, Kinda spooky, really,..

In this episode, I completely go off topic and rant about a pet peeve I have with how the American government is described. It's certainly proper considering the upcoming election, and maybe some listeners will find themselves doing the same error that makes my skin curl.

Lately I have noticed further isolation, and me subconsciously withdrawing myself more and more from the world. This is a common part of the dying process, I'm told. And I don't like the consequences of such withdrawals... They put my mental peace and clarity in jeopardy. In this podcast, I struggle to find the answer to handling this unwelcome change.

It's been a rough few weeks for me, with physical issues, and also keeping the best possible hospice service for myself. As I look at a common behavior I do to ensure I get better service, I began to wonder if it was manipulation. And, if it is, is it really so bad as society makes it? Or is a little manipulation good for all of us?