Midnight Wisdom

23:20 10.09.2023 second jump. Deiter. Pegy. Estella. Patrick. Jürgen.

21:58 06.09.2023 and ground lessons start tomorrow. Read 25 pages of the booklet. Oppenheimer was ok.

23:41 03.09.2023 I saw Mohammad Assi and his wife, and Ammo Waleed’s daughter of his cousin right before my train left. Changed the shirt on the platform from black to white. Homeless vibe red head charged her phone in my chair. Is there such a thing as too much Knafeh?

22:15 27.08.2023 Qais o Ubeidah. Meen Qais o meen Ubeidah.

18.08.2023 16:18 Just to note, I tried to call her when we were first messaging to clarify the thing through the phone. For some reason, she preferred to keep it through messaging and stay on the same note. Next time: I either do it on the phone, question and keep the person on the spot, or don’t engage at all. So many more wonderful woman out there than people who are like rock and don’t know how...

23:50 16.08.2023 New Moons. Here I am. Casanova - New list - aggression doesn’t make man.

Sunday 13.08.2023 10:30 pm Mom sent me a 3 minute voicenote at 1 in the morning, on my way home from a day and night out. Got it as soon as I arrived. On this day, I made out with three different woman and talked to maybe 11 or 15. “I don’t like the path you’re on. Baba was crying in the kitchen because his children don’t call him.” This was my response the day after, feeling abandoned by the girl...

22:24 06.08.2023 I love you. You’re so great. There’s so much good about you. How you are and approach things.

23:53 30.07.2023 And you might wake up with more direction. Go through your conditioning, your demons, and see what happens. ~11,500 words. I’m just trying to see clearly. I hope I do. Khalid does not chase. Khalid does not try to connect.

21:54 23.07.2023 The House is a sacred place that gives to all equally

Sunday 16.07.2023 21:08 - recorded 19:00. What can I say? I’m not writing as much as I used to. For about 2 to 3 weeks now. Just doing 10 minute journaling here and there, in German. Does incredible things. I want to be in tune with life. Not just writing and thinking I have to finish things. Citizenship process continuing. Got the news of the Apostille right after my presentation on Wednesday. Go...

20:47 09.07.2023 Halas birthday yesterday. Bought gold earrings for mom, first time buying gold. I don’t have any trips planned for a while. I like finding unopened bottles of water before security check-ins. Drank a litter in a few seconds and almost died. But I feel amazing now.

23:09 I never did this before. Glad I did.

23:15 25.06.2023 That’s what my mom said to me right after I ended the episode. She came into the kitchen to get two dark chocolates for baba. I’m loved. I don’t have to be seen to know my qualities. I continue to grow and create.

21:34 18.06.2023 I talk about a lot of things. To add: I met a greek woman who writes really shitty poetry and she’s so excited about it. Lsned to it on spotify and it was horrible. Candy sucks. I hate this cancer feeling and I don’t want it. New season of rick and morty and black mirror. Amazing.

23:09 11.06.2023 realised im recording in the Bose headphones and they have shitty mics. Hope it’s alright. I talk about the movies, tantra events I was at ecstatic dance and a ritual night. Glad to be where I am. We move on from patterns. Awareness sets me free, right?

04.06.2023 23:11 blood moon tonight. Waning 99%. Refocusing on my core. Am I only worth loving for my attempt at fixing myself?

28.05.2023 21:49 talked to Jo han in Barcelona. Ali says hi.

Recorded 20.05.2023 around 10 pm uploading 21.05.2023 at 8:03 pm I smoked, listened to music, moved by body, shadow boxed and repeated karate moves I’m learning. And I thought. I thought a lot. And it was beautiful. Planned things with my job, thought of books to read, thought of who I want to be for my future and how I can be that. Hurt is a place that can help us operate and find something diffe...

14.05.2023 16:58 smoked a little and talk about what I’m going through. Just 6 months ago I thought I didn’t have a personality.

22:47 05.05.2023

23:07 30.04.2023

19:56 23.04.2023 where’d the month go.

16.04.2023 23:16 12% Waning Crescent. Right knee hurts. Watched shadow and bone season 2. Did a dragon festival with Cristobal today.

08.04.2023 16:39 I did 15 pushups before my haircut, I had to tell the barber to wait a second.