Midnight Wisdom

11:32 31.10.2022 Monday Talked about the vipassana experience, some small details, large details. Moon and sun. I had some nice moments with the moon, and the falling petals. It waxed and then waned throughout the period. Really feeling it at night, after leaving the final meditation. Watching it. Considering if I should just meditate for the rest of that night in front of it in that open field. I...

30.10.2022 18:34 Sunday Clozee concert, Dustin, I got new keyboards and a 34 inch curved monitor. Reading Alan Watts and Arthur Shopenhauer. Sojourner Truth, ain’t I a woman. And everything moves.

22:52 Sunday 23.10.2022 ich habe einen Text geschrieben. Dann entschieden ihn sofort vorzulesen und hochzuladen. Wenn du eine Frage an Gott hattest, was würdest du fragen? Gute Nacht.

16.10.2022 22:13 Sunday I’m feeling very raw and emotional and about to sleep. Thinking about mom. Thinking about how sometimes selfishness is very important, and how being kind and loving and not holding on to things is a way to go. The teacher, as I cried, asked me how many vipassanas I did. “Three in one year? You’re very fortunate.” “Oh you’re like a little Buddha, he almost starved himself to...

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25.09.2022 23:48 I’m feeling good as a person. The internal world and outer are matching better. The math of things is a bit clearer. From art, people and money. I want to train skills more often. Frisbee, balancing and juggling. The ADD is better managed. Brain.fm is helping. I haven’t been eating things in a way that spike my glucose. Consistent in Calisthenics. Now to find peace in a writing ha...

23:25 18.09.2022 Sunday. I write to myself with spoken words. I wake. I share my dream with you. I share my dream, oh what a wonderful dream it was. I share it with you. What do you dream next?

Sunday 23:47 11.09.2022 got back from London. Friend to my left helped me with internet. Full moon two nights ago. Glucose Revolution. Laith, Sara and Mousa are awesome.

04.09.2022 18:84 Sunday in London leaning on a wall with some graffiti. Pink, white, stripes of blue, black and some grey, and then yellow at the bottom. “It’s not what you think.” “So you’re not talking to a pretty lady?”

Aufgenommen 27.08.2022 21:00 Hochgeladen 28.08.2022 22:22 Ich habe entschieden, auf Deutsch auf zu nehmen, weil es wichtig ist dass ich mich höre. Ich habe die Aufnehmung heute auf dem Weg zum Beat81 strength and Cardio gehört. Schon ein paar Sachen gelernt. Ich habe im Fitnessstudio eine übergewichtige “unsolicited advice” gegeben. Davon schon was gelernt. Dann habe ich mit meiner Mutter gesproch...

Recorded 24.08.2022 20:39 Uploaded 28.08.2022 22:06 It was negative energy I felt after I spoke with my uncle (ammo in Arabic) Ziad. We spoke for an hour and a half, and it became clear to me the man loves himself his thoughts first and foremost. He insults people, creates problems, makes bad decisions, and complains about how unhappy he and his wife are although it was there decision to move into...

Recorded 23.08.2022 Tuesday 8-9 PM Uploaded 28.08.2022 22:02 I decided to take a walk and enjoy the night, that doesn’t happen so often. I spoke of the Tau Te Ching. And the conversation evolved into my anger. And such it is with people you recommend Vivobarefoot shoes to. I listened to this this week. Most of it.

22:21 Sunday 21.08.2022 I came back home, showered, talked to my housemates about being shirtless or not being shirtless in the house. I seemed to have been overestimating all the situations that happen at home. I did laundry, checked amazon for things I want to get, downloaded books, dead breathwork for 25 minutes (amazing) and recorded this. I ate chips yesterday night and it was surprisingly cl...

22:38 14.08.2022 I was happy about the 12th of August. I thought I like days that show a clear progression since my birthday (12th of June). I’m focusing on keeping perspective. On not losing myself to the constant and fast movement around me. Taking a step back from it all in my own way and reassessing, healing and moving on from things I have been holding on to for so long, thinking that I can f...

Recorded 08.07.2022 at around 6 pm in front of Netto. This episode is about me after Vipassana, seeing Deena, seeing Waad. And I’m here now thinking: “it’s interesting what I said and the place I was in then. I’m somewhere else now. That sex can put us in childish places, and that thinking someone else could ever be a solution to you is wrong.

23:31 Sunday 07.08.2022 how quickly the state of the brain can change. What we’re always used to doing or checking or otherwise, when we go somewhere else that’s much calmer. Thank you Than for inviting me, I met her at the fiction workshop I did two years ago. We did it online. They had a pear tree that tastes amazing. I took 3 pears with me here, ate one after leaving it outside of sisyphos befo...

Thursday 22:38 28.07.2022 I listened to a song 2 days ago, on Tuesday, for about 4 times in a row, and my attention has been going to shit all this time. What a pleasure it is to lose self in a multitude of coherent being. But the cost is losing the coherence of now.

24.07.2022 11:40 am, typing this at 17:07 pm Kinano, Laitho, Salmalo, Qaiso, you’ll all be beautiful people. Remember, you are loved, and empathy. Empathy comes first. But don’t forget to have compassion for yourselves. You’ll have to learn it all over again yourselves.

17.07.2022 23:01 Sunday Midnight Wisdom I talk about my experience with vipassana, dieting, and how I currently workout and what I read. Good night.

I have a Jordanian passport.

10.07.2022 Sunday 21:12 One day vipassana, and all that came in during the last hours was rage and exhaustion.

03.07.2022 Sunday 21:43 The questions we ask ourselves are what lead us. How do we learn the truth about our own attention.

Sunday 22:09 I am a vipassana meditator

15.06.2022 reflection is beauty. Space. Decisions. Inner voice. Best, take care