Light and Shadow: the podcast

Before we deep dive into [step three] of mapping healing - interrupting the cycle - I wanted to give you guys these “little learnings” to shed light on how exactly we can interrupt the cycle at the thought level. Understanding logical fallacies are critical in seeing how people’s perceptions, arguments, or evaluations of us can shape the way we think and feel about ourselves. We may shockingly com...

We’ve all been here before - being treated less than desirably by the guy (or girl) who wanted us first. Often times, we think to ourselves, “well, if he’s (/she’s) making such a huge effort, maybe I’ll give it a shot,” only to proven to why you should have never given them any chance in the first place. In this episode of the dark intermission series, I reflect on a recent end to a talking stage...

This episode serves as the part two follow up to the “ [step two] uncovering the truth” episode of the mapping healing series. Because I understand what a hot topic all things God and religion can be, I wanted to pair this off into a separate episode for those truly interested in exploring their spirituality. For me, God in my recovery was absolutely essential. I, personally, cannot separate the t...

While I take myself through the mapping healing journey, I find myself, again, in the uncovering truth stage, gleaning new insights to unlock new levels of my recovery. In doing so, and spending time going back to look at the origins of my binge eating, I’m starting to see that no matter what you struggle with - eating disorder, adhd, personality disorder, mood disorder, panic and anxiety disorder...

In this episode, we dive straight into step two of the healing journey - uncovering the truth. After a brief overview of what we covered in step one, figuring out what’s broken, we explore how learning and gaining greater insight can better help us troubleshoot the core issues of our lives. By becoming curious about attachment theory, emotional attitudes, past traumas, family dynamics, the cycle o...

This episode is the continuation of the “Mapping Healing” series I began in episode 02. While episode 02 is the overarching look at the healing process and a brief look at each stage, this episode looks specially at the first step, which I’ve titled, “figuring out what’s broken.” In the episode, I discuss the differences between what’s genuinely going on behind the surface of symptoms. While sympt...

When it comes to healing, we may find ourselves pushing toward the light, but also find the dark pushing back. I promised to be a friend in both, so here I am - in the dark with you. In this episode, I talk about the feelings that come up when comparing my traumatized life to the life of someone I found to be extraordinary and healthy. I talk honestly about the loss of this friendship, as well as...

We’ve all heard someone say, “Trust the process,” or “it’s all part of the process,” or some variation of these. When I was younger, I used to wonder, “what does that even mean?!” Life can seem to give you mixed signals, and depending on who you ask, you can end up going in infinite different directions. In this episode, I really wanted to break down my version of what trusting the process really...

In this episode, I dive into what procrastination really might mean for someone who has mental health struggles. It may seem that we’re lazy or unmotivated or whatever narrative our thoughts have generated to us, but sometimes there’s a part of the picture we’re not fully seeing. Fear - and seeking relief from that fear - can often be more at the heart of the matter than the defectiveness of self....