Kisses and Chaos

After over a year of sharing my messy dating life, heartbreaks, healing journey, attachment issues, toxic relationships, and personal growth on Kisses & Chaos 💋 , I've decided it's time to take a step back. In this episode, I open up about why I'm taking a break from the podcast, the emotional impact of processing trauma publicly, setting healthier boundaries, protecting my relati...

In this episode of Kisses & Chaos is absolute CHAOS 💋😭 me and my bestie Steven talk about everything from Grindr horror stories, toxic exes, lesbian dating, attachment styles, long distance relationships, and accidentally falling in love during what was supposed to be my hot girl summer.we get into the viral cripple kink story, getting f*cked better than your ex for the first time, truck bed...

hi babes 💋 this week on kisses and chaos i’m asking… am i ready to date after a toxic relationship? we talk about: dating after a toxic ex why healthy love feels weird missing the idea of your ex signs you’re not ready to date navigating dating + healing at the same time plus some chaotic updates from my current dating life. if you’re trying to move on but still healing… this one’s for you 💋

hey angels !!! welcome back to Kisses and Chaos i know i kinda disappeared for a bit… so this is a full life update on everything that’s been going on lately. in this episode i talk about: what’s been happening with my ex how i’m starting to feel more indifferent (finally) the spiral of checking their socials & why it keeps you stuck where i’m at with dating right now everything going on in my...

This week on Kisses & Chaos , I’m talking about rebranding your life and not giving a fuck what anyone thinks. Yes, this is my fourth “era.” No, I’m not spiraling. I’m evolving. We’re getting into: • Killing old versions of yourself • Separating ego from alignment • The truth about haters • Identity grief • Growing up in your 20s • Being misunderstood • And how to actually reinvent yourself If...

In this mini episode of Kisses & Chaos 💋 , I get brutally honest about how I replied to my ex and tried to be “cool” with them after our breakup. We talk about clean breakups, staying in contact, jealousy, emotional access, and the uncomfortable truth about when being “friends” is really just keeping the door open. If their name still makes your stomach drop… this one’s for you, baby. Let me...

hi babes 💋 this is a short, chaotic mini-episode while i’m getting everything ready behind the scenes. today we’re talking about 5 ways to make this year your bitch choosing a feeling instead of a personality, romanticizing the boring, letting go of imaginary timelines, and stepping into emotional maturity without losing your edge. if you’re feeling behind, overwhelmed, or stuck comparing yoursel...

In this raw and unfiltered episode of Kisses & Chaos 💋 , I talk about the moment my rose-colored glasses finally shattered and how I realized my toxic ex was not the love of my life. I break down trauma bonds, narcissistic behavior, emotional manipulation, breadcrumbing, and the psychology behind why it’s so hard to leave unhealthy relationships. From online harassment and messy friend groups...

Inthis episode, I’m talking about why Mercury retrograde is making us miss ourtoxic exes and breaking down the five stages of breakup grief — denial, anger,bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I get real about spiraling duringretrograde, sending that “one last message,” getting randomly unblocked, cryingat night, trauma bonding, and trying to heal while still craving someone whohurt me. If you’...

Hi babes, welcome back to Kisses & Chaos . It’s Luci! Today we’re talking about the difference between a twin flame , a soulmate , and a trauma bond because the way we all romanticize chaos and call it fate is actually insane. And yes, I’ve done it too. Like… deeply. I’m breaking down: that euphoric destiny feeling of a twin flame the calm “I can finally breathe” love of a soulmate and the rol...

In this solo episode, I’m getting real about something I’ve had to learn the hard way — you can’t fix anyone but yourself. I talk about going back to my ex, and how I fell into the cycle of trying to save someone who didn’t want to be saved. If you’ve ever found yourself trying to fix a toxic partner, or you’ve been stuck in a push-and-pull relationship, this episode will hit close to home. This i...

On this episode of Kisses & Chaos 💋, I sit down with Softest Chyl — the duo made up of Chyl and Softest Hard — and babes we get into everything. We talk about the real beef in the EDM scene (yes, there’s actual drama), their wild origin stories from Wall Street to festivals, and how they created their own sound blending speed house and hardstyle. We get honest about touring, internet drama, t...

hi babies 💋 it’s Luci, and this week on kisses and chaos i’ve got one of my besties, Jvna, in the studio and we’re going ALL in. she’s in a brand new villain era (yes, the brows are shaved) and we’re talking about what inspired her dark, fashion-forward vibe, the double standards women face in EDM, and how being sexy in this scene can still get you judged.we also get messy about love — falling fo...

Babes, do you ever feel behind in love ? Same. In this solo episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋 , I’m getting real about why starting over doesn’t mean you’re latem it just means you’re brave. When I saw Taylor Swift get engaged at 35 , it hit me: why am I crying at 28 thinking my love story is over? I’ve been engaged twice (wild, I know), went through heartbreak with “No Contact,” got swept up with “M...

Bass, blood, marriage, and mayhem — welcome to the wild world of PhaseOne. In this episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I sit down with one of bass music’s most heavy producers to talk about everything the rave flyers don’t tell you. From emo metal kid roots and chihuahua drama to insane fan encounters (yes, there’s blood) and almost getting arrested overseas, PhaseOne opens up about the chaos of touri...

In this solo episode, I’m getting real with you about something we all feel but rarely admit: jealousy. Yeah… that gut-punch feeling when you're scrolling and it seems like everyone else is thriving, booking festivals, buying houses, getting married and you're just sitting there like, “What the fuck am I doing with my life?”I’ve been there. Honestly, I’m still there some days. I’m opening up about...

In this chaotic, unfiltered episode of Kisses and Chaos 💋, I sits down with the stunning, savage, and soulful, Dani Thorne (formerly Com3t) to talk about everything from rebranding her entire identity to catching her ex mid-FaceTime with a fresh tattoo of another girl’s name 😮‍💨🖤 We dive into: Dani’s transformation from rainbow-haired dubstep DJ to hard techno baddie How a cheating ex with a s...

If you've ever looked in the mirror and been like, “Wait... who even am I anymore?” same. This episode is for the girls, gays, and theys who've shapeshifted so many times to fit in, to be loved, to survive, that you don’t even recognize yourself anymore. I’ve been the alien, the ex-girlfriend, the popstar, the burnout and I’m finally finding my way back to who I really am. We’re talking identity c...

Babe... the evil eye is real 👁️. In this juicy & chaotic ep of Kisses & Chaos 💋 , I’m spilling personal tea (fake friends, ex drama, wild rumors) AND diving deep into the psychology of evil eye energy why people send jealousy & hate, how it can block your blessings, and how to spiritually protect your peace. PLUS: why you should stop telling people your exciting news, and my fave ritu...

Welcome to Season 2 of Kisses and Chaos 💋! In this episode, I’m breaking down why I finally walked away from my toxic ex (for real this time), why peace isn’t boring (it’s actually sexy), and how I’m taking back my life for Hot Girl Single Summer. We’re talking toxic relationships, love bombing, trauma bonds, no contact, single life confidence, and how to stop wasting your pretty years on people...

Should I take my ex back? I’ve been asking myself that question over and over—even after the lies, the yelling, the splits, the silence. And the worst part? I still wanted her. In this episode, I talk about the confusing, chaotic space between what your heart wants and what your nervous system remembers. I get honest about what it's like when your ex finally starts trying, when they say the ri...

Are you stuck in a loop of “why does this always happen to me?” Baby… it might be victim mentality. In this spicy and soul-shaking episode, i’m getting  real about how trauma, anxiety, and control issues keep us in a cycle of learned helplessness—and how the law of detachment can set you free. We’re talking signs you’re stuck in victim mode, how to rewire your brain, stop chasing people who don’t...

I’ve had my fair share of fake friends — the ones who smile to your face but secretly gossip, compete with you, and disappear the second you start healing. In this episode, I’m sharing the full story of one of the most toxic friendship breakups I’ve ever had (yes, she trauma bonded with me and then teamed up with my ex… iconic). I talk about the red flags I ignored and why I’ll never settle for on...

Ever felt like you're begging someone to love you the right way and no matter how clearly you explain your needs, they still make you feel like you're asking for too much? Yeah... same. In this episode, I’m getting real about what it’s like to be deeply misunderstood in a relationship. I talk about trying again with my ex (no contact), giving her all of me — no walls, no resentment, just love — an...

Hi babe. This one’s for the days you feel like absolute shit. We’re talking breakdowns, rock bottoms, the “I don’t want to be here anymore” kind of sadness and how I slowly, chaotically, rewired my brain and crawled out of the dark. I’m diving into my own story, the real psychology behind why we get stuck in depression spirals, and the tiny, unsexy-but-powerful habits that actually helped me get m...